crybaby | joshler ✓

EIGHTEEN

i wasnt gone for long but im back even though no one cares :-)

joshua slept surprisingly well. he usually doesn't in fear of ashley getting hurt but he knew she was safe so he slept. and it felt great. he woke up in the arms of tyler and he thought this was a dream. that this was a fairytale. he thought that if he pinched himself hard enough he would wake up. but he didn't, because it was real. he admired the sleeping hue before a twinge of guilt over came him. boys shouldnt love boys.

"why are you staring at me" a groggy voice that scared joshua said. he looked at the brunette and kissed his forehead. "because you're beautiful" he said and tyler rolled his eyes and laughed. "ew you're so gross and cheesy" joshua laughed and they both sat up and stretched.

"ugh i don't want to go to school today" tyler groaned. joshua nodded in agreement.

"let's just stay home" joshua suggested. tyler looked at him and shook his head. "we can't you have to make sure you pass remember?" tyler said as he started looking through his closet. joshua sighed.

"i'm already doing so much better and i don't think one day is going to change that." he said before speaking again. "please? we can cuddle" he smirked and tyler caved in. "you had me at cuddling" tyler jumped on the red head. he ran his fingers through the mans hair.

"the red is fading" he whispered. joshua nodded. "yeah i'm gonna dye it soon what color should i do?" he asked tyler. tyler thought for a moment before his eyes lit up.

"joshie do yellow!" he giggled excitedly and joshua's heart physically ached. he smiled so big. he adored this boy.

"is it because that's your favorite color?" he asked quirking his eyebrow. tyler nodded. "mhm" he kissed joshua's lips before falling on to the bed. joshua went to go get up his sister so that she could get ready for school. he came back into tyler's room and the put hoodies on so that can drive ashley to school.

"why aren't you guys dressed?" kelly asked the two boys. tyler scratched the back of his head trying to come up with a good excuse. "joshie really needs a break and he wants me to be here with him" kelly sighed not really believing it.

"only this once tyler." she said sternly and he kissed her cheek. ashley came down the stairs and grabbed her backpack. before walking out she went and hugged kelly. "thank you" she whispered and joshua started tearing up.

"you're welcome. have a good day at school pretty girl" she said squeezing ashley. once they got to the car ashley let out a huge sigh.

"it's not fair that i have to go to school and you don't" she crossed her arms and joshua laughed. after they dropped off ashley they immediately went to tyler's room and fell asleep.

a few hours later tyler stirred awake and rubbed his eyes. he noticed he was laying on joshua chest and his heart fluttered.

THEY LOOK LIKE THIS MY HEART HURTS

joshua was still sleeping peacefully and tyler just sat and admired him. he traced circles into his chest. he felt the red heads heart beat faster at the action. tyler smirked and blushed knowing that he was the reason his heart was beating fast. although it may sound dumb, tyler felt like the luckiest guy in the world.

tyler got bored so he started planting innocent kisses to joshua's neck and face. whenever joshua stirred tyler kissed his nose and around his mouth, purposely not kissing his lips. joshua opened his eyes and whined. he was still half asleep but was aware of what was happening and he puckered up his lips.

"hmmm i guess" tyler teased and quickly pecking his lips. joshua frowned and pulled tyler closer to him. "please" joshua said barely above a whisper and tyler smiled. he loved having this effect on him. it made him happy. he began slowly kissing him which completely woke joshua up. joshua pulled tyler on top of him, not breaking the kiss. this was the second time they made out and yet both of them wanted to be closer.

joshua put his hand under tyler's shirt and tyler gasped and pulled away. joshua's eyes widened as he shook his head. "n-no tyler i wasn't going to do anything i promise i just wanted to feel you" he said shyly looking down.

"i know you weren't i'm just insecure" tyler admit and joshua gave him a confused look. "why bambi? you're so gorgeous i love everything about you" tyler shook his head tears flowing in his eyes. "no stop you're just saying that. i'm ugly. my thighs are too big my butt is too plump, my stomach is gross i-" tyler started but joshua cut him off.

"no angel no stop it you are the most prettiest person i've ever seen, God i love your pudgy legs" joshua said as he kissed tyler's smooth tan legs. tyler wiped the tears in his eyes and smiled. joshua trailed his lips up tylers hips, kissing along his band of his sweatpants. "God your hips are so nice and small, i love holding them when i hold you" joshua breathed out. he put his fingers above tyler's shirt and looked at tyler for approval.

"it's okay joshie" tyler whispered and joshua pulled tyler's shirt over his head leaving his chest exposed. insecurity ran through tyler because he was afraid joshua was going to be disgusted but he wasn't. he was in awe. he planted innocent kisses all over tyler's chest and stomach. tyler was overwhelmed. he has never felt this much love and it scared him.

"i could kiss your stomach all day. it's so warm and so soft i love it" he trailed his mouth up to tylers nose and kissed it and then kissed him. he looked at tyler and smiled. "your body is a work of art and i love every inch of it" tyler let out a sob and hugged the boy. "you make me so happy" he whispered into his chest. joshua kissed his forehead. "you make me the happiest angel"

after picking ashley up from school, tyler had to drop  joshua off at work. joshua told him that he needed to go home after but tyler insisted they stay again. he doesn't want his joshua around his father. he hated knowing what went on and he couldn't do anything about it. when ashley and tyler got back to his house they put in the musical "oklahoma" and watched it together. halfway through the movie jenna knocked on tyler's door.

"i'll be upstairs" ashley mumbled before she left. tyler sat down and waited for jenna to speak.

"why weren't you at school today? and who was that?" she asked confused. tyler sighed knowing that this was going to lead to an argument. "it was ashley, joshua's sister." jenna scrunched her nose up. "oh so is the delinquent here now too? is this some charity event you're doing?" she hissed out and tyler rolled his eyes. "no joshua is at work and they have been staying here for a couple days, not that's any of your buisness, and i wasn't at school because i didnt feel like it" jenna shook her head.

"i bet joshua told you to stay home. tyler he such a bad influence and i-" tyler cut her off. "jenna is there a reason why you came? because this argument is getting old and im tired of having the same conversation with you over and over again. joshua is the best person i know and is going through a shitty time right now and i would appreciate it if you would keep his name out of your mouth." tyler sighed rubbing his temples. jenna nodded.

"i'm sorry tyler. i just don't want you getting hurt" she admitted and tyler hugged her. "i am okay, i promise. i dont know what joshua and i are but i promise he won't hurt me, it's okay" jenna nodded hugging tighter.

"i hate fighting with you, can we be bestfriends again?" she asked and tyler nodded. "you will always be my bestfriend jenna, despite all your crazy i love you"

"i love you too ty"