Shattered

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I get to my apartment, and sigh. I leave my bags at the door, then lay down on my bed. I'm a werewolf/witch hybrid, married/engaged to the original hybrid, and I'm carrying his child. All at the age of nineteen. My chest starts to get tight, and my breaths start to fall short. I start to breath deeper to get bigger breaths, but that turns to lessening the ability to breathe even more. I put my hand on my chest, and claw at it. My chest starts heaving, and I start crying.

Olivia. Stop. The baby.

I try to control my breathing, but come up short.

The baby. Breathe for the baby.

I try harder for my breathing, and my phone rings. I sit up, still not breathing, and slide the green button over.

"Damon?" I ask, my voice raspy.

Olivia?! What happened?!
I think I'm having a panic attack. I-I can't breath, and-and it's really annoying.
Olivia. Stop laughing. I know your trying to make light of this. Don't. Just listen to my voice.

I do as he says and try to even my breathing, but just start crying when I realize I can't breathe. I hate not being able to breathe. To feel everything, but not get air. The burning in your lungs when you don't get enough air. I hate it.

I start wheezing faster and louder, and I hear Damon sigh. "Stefan, give me your phone!" Damon says from the other line. "Olivia, I'm calling Kol. I'm telling him to go to your apartment." He says, and I nod even though he can't see me. "Stay on the phone with me. Don't hang up." He says, and I nod again. I pass a loud sob, and I can practically hear Damon wince.

There's a knock on my door, then it opens. I see Kol walk in, and I try to smile. "Oli." He says, then walks over to me. He sits on the bed, and pulls my back to his chest. "Just focus on my breathing." He says. I do as he says, and listen in. I match my breaths to his, and the passing our feeing goes away.

I wrap my arms around Kols neck, and he hugs me back.

Kols my best friend. Even though we started our relationship with flirting with each other. Now I'm engaged to his brother and he's gonna be an uncle to now to kids. Both with the same dad. If Kol weren't here, I'd probably be on the floor passed out. I know he actually cares. Now I just have to figure out how I'm gonna tel him and everyone else about the baby.