Since Birth

Chapter Thirty Eight

We almost didn't make it to our date after that. My dad was livid when he saw that Aimee had chopped her hair. He wasn't yelling at her at all but with him you could always tell when he was disappointed. He almost yelled at her but that's when he told me to go on my date and not worry. Aimee was completely behind her decision to cut her hair. She explained to him how she needed this, it was like a new start for her. After all she had been through she finally decided she needed to start fresh. The curls were gone, and so where the inches.
I was ready to defend her but Issac had ushered me out of the house to leave with him which I couldn't pass up. So I left her with him.
He was a real gentleman seriously and truly. He got all the doors for me, was very considerate and brought me to this really fancy looking restaurant. Like one that my parents would take me and Aimee to when we would do something spectacular or they had good news to share. I began to think if this is how my father courted my mother when they were young, charm her and treat her  to the finest things. In a way, I was hoping he'd be my savior from my mind. I was really hoping he would make everything better and I wouldn't be so confused as I had been. I was really hoping he was different.
So now we were having dinner together and starting to get to know each other more. Every time he talked or smiled I would swoon. I was just so ready for this to takeoff but I was being patient. I remembered now how rushing ended with me and Aidan.. I wanted to hang out with him more, I really wanted to get to know him and that was going to test my patience.
"So you used to play sports?" I asked taking a sip of water. "Also what brought you to Red Hue?"
"Well," he smiled looking down to his plate. "My family lives outside of town and my parents know your father fairly well so when I told them I wanted some experience, they reached out to him." He looked up to me grabbing his glass. "Your father is a good man, I've learned so much from him through the years and-"
"Through the years?" I questioned leaning forward to him.
"Yeah uh I helped him a lot when he was in office and I was in high school. It looked really well on my applications for college." He nodded and looked back down. "My senior year I finally figured out that playing wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. Too damaging so I quit. I used to be so good too, just like your friend Trevor, I've seen him play before."
"You have? Yeah he's pretty athletic, my favorite player." I smiled to myself thinking about all the years I cheered for Trevor and crushed over him.
"Speaking of him, what's the deal with that?" He asked and my eyes shot up to him.
In a panic I shrugged and looked away from his face. "He's one of my best friends, always has been." I looked back up to him and he searched my eyes trying to read me. He knew I was holding back. "Listen, I like you." I clarified hoping he'd just let it go.
"What does he think about you and I hanging out?"
"It's none of his business." I began to get snippy. I didn't like that he thought something was going on between us as if this were some competition. "I like you Issac." I said again more sternly.
"So I have no threats?" He smirked not realizing that I was over this conversation.
"No, none okay let's drop it." I shrugged pushing my plate away.
The waitress came by all smiles asking, "Any room for dessert?" Issac looked to me and I shook my head. I had no more appetite.
"No just the check please." He said to her and looked back to me. "I'm sorry I'm ruining a great night." He sighed. "I just know Trevor, and I was worried I mean, look what he did to your sister."
"You don't know anything about that!" I snapped realizing I was ready to defend Trevor over Aimee. "We should go." I said quietly taking the napkin off my lap and looking to him.
"Of course." He grabbed the bill and put one hundred bucks with it. He cleared his throat and got up from the seat coming over to grab my coat for me.
"Is there any girl I should be worried about?" I asked jokingly standing up from my seat. He came up behind me helping me put on my coat as he chuckled.
"No, not at all." I pulled on my coat and his hands slid down my arms. I smiled to myself letting this go and leaving with him holding hands.
Overall it was a fantastic night. He listened to me, he didn't judge me until Trevor came up- he was just awesome and I was interested. So he dropped me off at my dads home and walked me up to the door.
"I had a great night." I smiled up to him letting go of his hand. "Thanks for dinner."
"I'm looking forward to a second date? Something far more exciting." He smirked looking down to me and I chuckled.
"Already have the second date planned?" I asked and he nodded happily.
"Of course! I don't want to miss any opportunities to see you. So I was thinking Friday." We both laughed and he moved closer to me being sure to touch my arm.
"I'm not opposed to that." I searched his eyes and he looked down to the ground shyly now.
"Well I guess I should ask now if I could kiss you." He looked back up to me slowly and I chuckled again nodding.
"Of course you can." He laughed and touched my arm again as my phone began to go off in my purse. I sucked my teeth and began searching for it to shut it up. I didn't want it to ruin this moment.
After rummaging around I finally found it seeing I was receiving a call from Trevor... he never called me. I frowned down at my phone confused and a bit alarmed. Something had to have been wrong for him to call me. I looked back to Issac shrugging and he put up his hands shaking his head.
"Go ahead." He said quietly and I stepped away from him relieved and answered the phone quickly before it went to voicemail.
"Hello?" I answered and he sighed into the phone. He sounded tired and weak through the phone and that was rare. He was either in pain or in danger. "Trevor? Are you there?"
"I need you." It sounded like he had the phone sitting beside him. He sounded so vulnerable and it just broke my heart... I had to get there and be there for him. I looked up to Issac and he nodded being so understanding.
"I'll be right there ok? Don't move or do anything." I said into the phone and then it went dead.
"I'll drive you." Issac offered and I looked up to him sorrowful but gracious.
We got back into his car and drove to Trevor's home seeing all the lights were off in the house. The front door was unlocked so we just barged in and i immediately started yelling his name.
"Trevor?" I began searching the house with Issac behind me searching as well. I remembered his room being upstairs so I ran up there pushing his door open to see he wasn't in the bedroom. So I went into the bathroom seeing him lying there on the floor pale and sweating. There was a moment of shock and I felt woozy and off balance but I quickly got beside him tucking my hair behind my ear.
"Trevor!" I nudged him and he groaned letting out a shaky breath. He was incoherent and I wasn't sure if he was dying or not. "Trevor speak to me." I tried to help him sit up when I heard Issac's footsteps. "Call the police!" I called to him and Trevor weakly shook his head.
"No," he moaned. "Please I- I threw them up."
"Trevor what did you take?" I asked pulling him into my lap and pushing his matted hair from his face tearing up at the sight of him. His eyes were fluttering, unable to keep them open and his lips... they were pale and quivering.
"I just wanted-" he frowned unable to say his next words. "I just wanted to be with her again. I miss her."
"Aimee?" I asked rubbing his arm to keep him warm because he was shivering too.
"No," his face twisted up and he took in a shaky breath. "My sister."
Issac came back in the room and I hadn't even realized he left. He came back with a blanket and two bottles of water. "If we aren't calling the cops we have to get him to puke again." I looked up to him trying so hard not to cry and just be strong. He noticed my doubt and immediately got into action.
"Do you know what he took?" He asked helping Trevor sit up and over the toilet. "Either you puke or I'm sticking my fingers down your throat." He told Trevor not so politely.
"I-I puked already." Trevor coughed and Issac shook his head.
"You have to do it again ok Trevor? Just to be safe." His voice was kinder now, worried about his well being.
"Yeah." I added rubbing his back as his nodded sticking his head over the toilet. Issac draped the blanket over his shoulders and Trevor coughed and puked literally taking every bit of energy he had left in him. Together, me and Issac helped clean him up and put him into his bed. I made sure he drank water while Issac cleaned the scene up.
"Don't tell her, please." He whispered and I knew now he was talking about Aimee. I nodded and wiped his forehead with a cold towel sighing.
"Trevor what happened?" I asked and he shut his eyes tightly not wanting to speak. "Just get some rest." I swallowed hard and he grabbed my arm tightly.
"Please, stay with me." His breathing was still weak and slow so of course I was going to stay with him. I looked up to Issac who was standing in the doorway of the bathroom looking to me.
I looked back to Trevor nodding and saying quietly, "Of course." He let go of my arm and I got up sighing and brushing off my dress as I walked up to him.
"I'm sorry." I shook my head and he smiled weakly at me.
"Please, you care about your friends. If you weren't here he would've died." He looked down sorrowful and holding the now empty pill bottle. "It was just filled last Friday for him, he could have died."
"Did he take all of them?" I grabbed the bottle from his hands shocked seeing that it was anti anxiety medication/sleeping pills. He really could have died..
"No, but I'd say he took about almost half of it, the rest I picked off the floor. Is he okay?"
"He's still pretty weak um, I think I'm going to stay with him." I looked up to him slowly hoping he wouldn't take any offense to that.
"I think you should, he's going to be sick and will need all the help he can get. I know how his parents can be so it's best to leave them out of it." He sighed and shoved his hands in his pockets. "Do you have any idea what led up to this?"
"No, he finally broke it off with Aimee today and seemed fine afterwards. I didn't-" I was about to blame myself and started tearing up. "I should've checked up on him but I was pissed off."
"It's not your fault, you're here for him now." He placed his hand on my shoulder reassuringly and I nodded sniffling.
"It's just unlike him, and what he said about his sister I-" I finally let out the tears shaking my head remorseful. Issac held me until I calmed down and stopped shaking.
"I'll come by tomorrow to check up on you." He smiled pushing my hair from my face.
"Thank you for all of this, I don't think I could've done it without you." I looked up to him nodding. "You've done so much."
"Is it a wrong time to get that kiss?" He asked and I placed my hands on his shoulders and kissed him on the cheek making him chuckle.
"You should get home, I better check up on Trev." I sighed pulling away. I really wanted to kiss him believe me, but I couldn't do it in front of Trevor, not after this.
"Goodnight Emelie." He smiled and gave a small wave before he left the room.
I went over to sit in the edge of Trevor's bed sighing and rubbing his leg.
"I'm glad you called me." I said quietly and he groaned. "I'm glad you're okay too, you could've died."
"In that moment, I wanted to." My eyes shot up to him stung. I just wanted to tell him how selfish of a decision that would've been and how it would have ruined my life. I just knew I had to be careful with my words, he was fragile.
"I'd be lost without you." I began to tear up again looking over his weak face.
His eyes fluttered open and he gave a small laugh. "I couldn't take being in my mind anymore Em, I've lost everything."
"No you haven't, not yet." I shook my head trying not to become hysterical. I was upset, I was angry, I felt awful. I just didn't want to bring him down any further than he was.
"Come here." He mumbled and I got up and walked over to him putting my arms around him tightly just hoping I put him back together just a little. I just started crying though and he ended up trying to comfort me. I ended up laying beside him on the bed and we just cried together now. It was an awful sight but I think it was needed for both of us. It just ended up being a very emotional night.

"You know I love you regardless of everything that has happened Trevor, you can always call me." I told him and he smiled finally getting the life back into him.
"I've always loved you Em, always will." I sighed dropping my shoulders and then I hit him only lightly on the arm.
"You can't do this again okay? You can't scare me like this." I felt like I was going to cry again. Gosh. I was just so overwhelmed with so many emotions. I wanted to hit him.. I wanted to yell at him.. I wanted to scold him until I couldn't speak any longer... But being so close to him right now- all I really wanted to do was kiss him. I just knew that was forbidden. If I kissed him, I'd lose Issac's trust. I hated that. I hated being torn.
"Thank you for being here for me." He coughed frowning and then laid his head on my lap. I sucked in sharply but began to run my fingers through his hair gently. I had this fuzzy feeling in my stomach, so many stupid feelings. I ran my fingers up and down his back and traced them along his face and jawline letting them save this into my memory. This was a real wake up call for me.
I continued to run my nails in his hair and back until he fell asleep and I began to doze off with him. I just kept getting mesmerized by how soft his hair had been and how relaxed he was. I wanted to touch him and feel him really but instead dozed off dreaming that I was.
The color was back in his face and I was plagued with flashbacks of him and his beauty. I did love him and nothing would ever change that. He will forever be in my heart. I think he will forever be my first love.