November 28, 2018
R is for Romantic
Are you a romantic?
Do you believe in courtship or do you consider that old-fashioned?
If you must know, I am part of that old-fashioned group. I still want to be courted, serenaded, and given handwritten letters to. I still believe the guy must pay for the date especially during the courtship, and it's not being sexist to do so. I expect guys to still hold the door for me in buildings or in the car. I still hope and believe in chivalry. How about you?
Are you affected by the way this current generation view love? How everyone wants love but are too scared to give it, so they settle for imitations, for replicas that looks like love but isn't. Like everyone wants the privileges of a relationship but no one wants to commit because no one wants to get hurt, so they try to protect themselves by not officially attaching yet consequentially still get attached minus the label, and then they don't know who they really are in the other person's life. I'm not saying everyone is like that. But I do feel the word 'love' and the declaration 'I love you' have been used loosely nowadays.
What are your thoughts about this? What kind of a boyfriend would you say you are? Do you even know?
There's one question I really want to ask: Do you think you're mature?
Curls, confession: Lately I've been feeling like I have to let you go. Yeah, you make me smile, you inspire me, you energize me but you also make me sad, you also make me hope for something that could not be, you also make me miss something that I never had. It's so confusing with you. I keep on confusing myself when it comes to you. Are you a good influence or a bad one? Do you make my life better or worse? I even question if it's right to write all of these letters because you're innocent in all of these. It's not your fault that I noticed you and developed whatever kind of feelings for you. Those are mine to deal with. And yeah I am dealing with it through these letters, but I feel like somehow I still dragged you into it. Like sometimes I feel like you make my life better but then worse especially when I remember all of this is futile.
I wish you happiness, I really do. I wish you would receive what you've been praying for. I wish you would find someone who'll make you happy. I wish you would find it soon, maybe then I would be able to let all these go.
I want to say goodbye already, Curls.
We'll have our goodbye,
Just Anon
