January 12, 2019
Z is for Ze End
Took me a while to write this. Life happened. I'm sure it did for you too.
We had a new year. A lot of changes. But most of all, I don't know what to say.
So let me start with this.
I'm sorry to myself. We are acting out of character, I know. I'm sorry to you too, Curls, that you have been part of this craziness. I promise this is the last letter. Nothing more from me from here on out.
For me as much as it is for you.
Thank you if you ever read this. I'm sorry if you were creeped out. It was not my intention. I just need to get this all out of my system and to try to make sense of why you affect me so much, how you affect me so, so much.
I'm sorry to myself. We acted like a fangirl when we know we aren't. I'm sorry to you too, Curls, if all of these bothered you. This felt like a very elaborate fanmail. Trust me, I tried to reason out with myself, try to stop myself from doing this. I actually felt really dirty when I finally succumbed to the desire to do this. Dirty because it felt like a lowest of some sort, like how did I, a rarely rational but still reasonable human being, become reduced to this?
I'm scared of what people would think of me, scared of what you would think of me. And even as I am scared, I am also curious as to what you think of me (if you even spare me a thought at all).
I wish you all the best in life. That's actually a line I often use when I send friends 'Happy Birthday' messages. It's not your birthday, but it is a new year. So Happy New Year! I hope that whatever's bad has been left behind, and that moving forward all, or most, of what would be coming your way are just good vibes and good times that would give you your best year yet.
I hope you find your plot twist, if you still are wishing for it. Though I do think you have already found her. I pray that you become champions. Something that is not farfetched as I know you and your team will do great. I am sure you'll lead your team excellently. I mean it's you. Are you even terrible at anything?
I hope these made you smile. I hope somehow these letters brightened your day. I hope these gave you inspiration.
I hope I made you smile somehow. I hope I made you laugh though I don't remember saying anything funny. I hope I'll meet you, but maybe it's better if we don't.
So this is it,
Just Anon
PS. Told you we'll have our goodbye.
