Existent

Men;

You grew up believing that one man,

Was supposed to be your hero- and today,

You don't even know how to pronounce the name

You once called him

He chose to trade promises of adventure for

A finger sealing your mouth closed, never speak a word

Surrender your body to a man without a soul

A dirty secret, never to be told

You grew up believing,

That the thin sheet of dignity

That plastered your privacy closed

Was all you were

And if that worth was taken,

Glitter would never be gold,

You could never be sold-

But the man that was supposed to be your hero,

Ripped you wide open, whole

Took the windows out of the house that was your body

And raided you from within

The man that was supposed to hold your trust

Invited everybody in

So when boys disguised as angels,

Came knocking on your door,

Begging for pictures,

Coaxing you for more

You were inclined to feel like that's all you really were

So you'd send pictures of your body

While you stood in front of a hole hanging on your wall

That seemed to drain every last drop of security

That kept you going, at all

You grew up believing,

That your family was what mattered most,

Is that why your uncle

Treats your past like it's your ghost?

Mistakes your sexuality

For an invitation

Disregarded your age like it was open season

On finding your fantasies at the age of 41

At family gatherings, it seems as though your sinking within your skin

And his eyes are watching

Daring to come in

But this house is not for sale,

The men who were supposed to safe guard it,

Mistook my open curtains for an entry in

but,

I'm building a moat around this princess' castle

All your broken promises a gate that you wont

Be able to come crashing in

The tears that I've discarded will fill a depth I cant describe

I hope that you'll try pass me,

Only to drown in your attempt to reclaim

What was always mine,

And has no trace of your foolish sin

I don't need a man who was supposed to save me,

I don't need a man to crown me queen,

I'm destroying the boundaries you created,

And I'm crowning myself king.