22 Days|✔️

Memories of Her Forever

"Declan," I breathed "please," he wouldn't stop crying and kissing my hands and playing with my hair but most of all sobbing and saying 'Vera' over and over again. "I can't lose you!" he managed to choke out through deep breaths and tears. "We figured this would happen love, we both knew we couldn't stay together forever with my disease." I tried to reassure him, it didn't work all he did was cry more. "I lived a good life and I love you. Thank you for showing me the world in a whole new colorful way, it means a lot to me and I'll always look over you and your future family." He caught his breath and replied with "I don't want to move on with anyone other than you! I love you more than you love me." I shook my head "I don't want you to stop your whole life because I couldn't continue mine. Please, Dec, for me?" He nodded and held me in his arms for a minute more until Jenna rushed into my room to check on me. "Baby girl, I love you, are you hurt? In pain at all?" She wondered. I shook my head and took a deep breath, it's hard to speak at the moment from the lack of oxygen. "I'm okay, really. I love you too, take care of Sunny." I turned my attention to Declan, "please stay in touch with my sisters. Make sure they're okay with everything. If they need you, be there for them." He nodded, "of course love. God I'm gonna miss you so much baby-" he broke down again and just clung to my arms and hands resting his head on my shoulder. I messed with his hair when one of my hands were free from his grasp.

We all prayed when Sunny got to my hospital room. I never felt such remorse, they all insisted that what is happening is somehow their fault. I felt a sense of peace as I saw the light and the last breath of air escaped my lips. All I can hope for is that everyone in my life that I love live long and happy lives and remember the best times with me.

DECLAN'S POV

Losing her and watching her go was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. Even when my Grandfather who I was extremely close with I didn't feel half as sad at his funeral as I do right now as I watched the love of my life take her last breath and her eyes glass over then look lifeless as she didn't move and fell limp. Sunny reached out grabbed my shoulder and sobbed onto my chest as I held her close. I had to be strong for her-for both of them. I don't ever think I'll feel the same. My feelings will definitely not go back to normal. I don't think I could ever love the same way I loved her. I already miss her my heart longs for her and a piece of my heart has deteriorated into black ashes. I have to keep her in my thoughts and live for her even though I don't think I'll be able.

If not for her then I'll live for Sunny and Jenna, I'll always be there for them. Forever, for Vera.

THREE DAYS LATER

Today was the day of the love of my life's funeral. I was presenting a eulogy, I've rehearsed enough to where I won't cry. It's gonna be an open casket and that's what I have to prepare myself for. I can't see her like that, it'll hurt too much.

No Dec, do it for her sisters. It's what she would've wanted.

It took an hour to get to the funeral home. Only family was allowed at this time, Jenna and Sunny accepted me as family so I was allowed to see her before most people arrived. I walked over to the casket immediately. I saw her pale beautiful blemish-free skin and her frail thin fingers were the next thing I looked at. I started tearing up when I saw that her engagement ring was still on. I tried holding back my tears to be strong for Jen and Sun-day but I couldn't hold them back any longer. I miss her, I miss us, I miss what we had. I just love her so much.

My inner thoughts were interrupted by Jenna grabbing my shoulder. "You know you don't have to be a macho man at your fiance's funeral. You can let it out we all know you're as sad as all of us combined. Just remember the good times you had with her and just remind yourself of her once in a while. You can get through this I know you can Dec," she assured me. As I looked into Jenna's eyes I could see the brightness light up the room. They are just like Vera's, she would've loved to see her extended family again. She hasn't seen them in at least six years. It's a shame, they wouldn't be here to visit if it weren't for the funeral. At least they seem to care about her. Sadly, it wasn't enough back when she was with us.