NO FUN ☹ (imallexx x memeulous x willne)

TWENTY ONE

january 8th 2019

george, 1:37am:
i just realised we haven't actually discussed what we're going to do about will

alex, 1:37am:
ffs george i'm trying to sleep

george, 1:37am:
bullshit. you never sleep this early

alex, 1:38am:
true, but i can try

george, 1:38am:
will keeps texting me but i'm not reading any of them. i don't know what to do

alex, 1:38am:
same :/ i was just reading them and they're making me feel bad

alex, 1:38am:
he keeps saying that he's sorry, he's trying to get better, he loves us and doesn't want to lose us

alex, 1:38am:
i think i've cried myself dry lmao

george, 1:39am:
want me to come to your room?

alex, 1:39am:
please don't. i look disgusting

george, 1:39am:
i don't care

alex, 1:40am:
honestly it's fine george, i think i'm just going to put him on do not disturb

george, 1:40am:
but what are we going to do?

george, 1:40am:
it feels so pointless to just cut him out again now, but he's not changed at all

alex, 1:41am:
this sounds stupid, but i don't want to lose him again

alex, 1:41am:
i got so used to missing him, i forgot how awful it felt. but now he's back i remember how much he means to us

george, 1:42am:
that doesn't sound stupid

george, 1:42am:
but he put us through hell last year

alex, 1:42am:
i know

alex, 1:43am:
but maybe things will actually be different this time

george, 1:43am:
but what if they're not?

george, 1:43am:
what if it just gets worse?

alex, 1:56am:
i think it's worth trying again

alex, 1:56am:
i can't lose him again georgie. the more i think about it, the more awful i feel.

alex. 1:56am:
i still love him too much. don't you?

george, 1:57am:
of course i do. but i just don't think getting into this again is going to do any good

alex, 1:57am:
i think we should give him one more chance

alex, 1:58am:
if he really is sorry this time, one chance will be enough

george, 2:02am:
ok, one more chance. but if he fucks things up again, we have to leave him for good, ok?

alex, 2:02am:
ok

george, 2:03am:
also i know you're not going to like this, but tomorrow we need to talk about everything that happened last year

alex, 2:03am:
oh

alex, 2:03am:
do we have to? :/

george, 2:04am:
yes. we really should have when he first started messaging us

george, 2:04am:
we need closure from everything that happened or we'll never be able to move on

alex, 2:05am:
since when were you a fucking therapist?

george, 2:05am:
alex come on, you know i'm right

alex, 2:06am:
fine, but i'm gonna cry the whole time and you're the one who'll have to deal with it

alex, 2:06am:
so who's the real loser here? you.

george, 2:07am:
i don't mind

george, 2:07am:
goodnight al, try and get some actual sleep please

alex, 2:07am:
night <3

alex, 2:43am:
hey george?

george, 2:43am:
yeah?

alex, 2:43am:
you know how you said you don't mind if i look disgusting from crying?

george, 2:44am:
yeah, what about it?

alex, 2:44am:
well it's just i don't really want to be alone right now

alex, 2:44am:
so can i sleep in your bed tonight please?

george, 2:45am:
of course you can x

alex, 2:45am:
thank you so so so much :) i love you

george, 2:45am:
love you too mate