What is love?(outsider and sandlot)

Chapter 8

Bella on the top

Bella's POV

" thank you Benny I LOVE YOU💕" i told him and then he yelled out
"I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE BELLA GRACE JONES AND YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL and TALENTED!" I was blushing so much when he said that I really wanted to to kiss him but he swam away when he saw squints on the diving board, so I left to get a drink, when I was walking I saw my worst enemy Lily,she came up to me with her minions Hannah and Abigail,
" what are you wearing Bella you look so fat" they said laughing at me, I was getting kind of sad and looked down
" why are you looking down you little whore" Hannah said I started tearing up at that moment
"Are you crying you know Benny doesn't deserve you, I don't think he even likes you he only probably want you as a toy" I was looking at the ground with tear in my eyes when Abigail said that
"You should literally go die because you are so ugly and you don't deserve anything and nobody likes you anyway they probably think that you are such a little annoying bitch!" Lily said almost yelling at me
" Oh wait didn't Benny kiss me, sorry Bella I think he is taken so leave"
at that moment I ran out and Benny was there with the boys I just ran and was crying, I ran home not letting him follow me. Lily was right I don't deserve to be in this world. I ran in to my room got a switch blade and started cutting lines on my wrist, it felt like a good pain like I deserved to die. And of course my older brother Elijah cane in while I was doing that and I was also crying
" NO BELLA NO not again come on let's go to the bath room to get you cleaned up"
" N-NO ELIJAH I-I DONT DESERVE TO BE A-ALIVE" I said crying my eyes out.
"NO BELLA YOU ARE SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON COME ON did lily did this to you again"
I nodded and he picked me up a brought me to the bath room to clean me up. Elijah put a medical tape on my arm and wrapped it.
" Bella what happened can you tell me or not"
" I do t really want to talk"
" okay well come on let's go to your room that way you can rest"
"Okay" I was still crying though I kept thinking of what lily said. Elijah brought me to my bed and I was crying still
" Elijah can you s-sleep with me t-tonight I don't want to be a-alone"
" of course Bella anything to make you feel better"
I hugged Elijah and fell asleep in his arms.

NEXT DAY....

I woke up next to Elijah my older brother. I got up and dressed in sweats and a T-shirt and a hoodie, I put my hair in a messy bun and walked down stairs, I went to the kitchen and I see my stepdad
"Hey "dad""
" good morning Bella" I was kind of weird out of how he was treating me anyway, I got some takis family size and headed back to my room. When I opened the door Elijah was still sleeping ,I sat on my egg chair that hangs from the ceiling and got my remote control and went to Netflix to watch my favorite show friends and that always makes me feel better about life .
2 hours later 8:50 am
Elijah woke up with me sing the friends intro. Lol.
"Yayy Bella is smiling and singing"
" haha Eli you know friends always cheers me up"
" well I'm glad you are feeling better"
" thank you Eli for everything"
Elijah left my room and I heard the door bell so I went to get it.
When I opened up it was the sand lot boys and Benny. I was a mess I looked so bad but whatever
" What ware you guys doing hear I don't want to talk you guys and Especially not you Benny" I said almost starting to cry I slammed the door and fell to the ground crying and crying and crying some more. I ran up to my room and got back to watch friends. I heard my door open "Elijah go away I'm watching friends and I'm do depressed to talk so leave"
I kept hearing foot steps walk ove to me, and when I looked up it was Benny. Why Benny!!!
" w-who l-let y-you in, GET OUT I DONT WANT TO TALK YOU YOU!" I said crying
" NO bella I don't know what I did to make you do this"
"JUST GO BENNY GO,G-GO !" I said crying and crying in to my hand I tried to wipe away the tears but I couldn't.
" listen Bella what ever I did I'm sorry"
" NO BENNY YOU DONT UNDERSTAND SOMEBODY LIKE ME CANT BE WITH SOMEBODY LIKE YOU,YOU ARE SO HANDSOME, FUNNY, GOOD AT BASEBALL AND HAVE A ACTUAL FUTURE AND I DONT BENNY, I HAVE NO FUTURE I JUST WANT TO DIE DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEELS I JUST DONT DESERVE YOU AND THAT SAND LOT BOYS SO LEAVE AND LET ME DIE ALONE OKAY NOW LEAVE!" I said crying and yelling
I honestly wanted to grab my blade and cut mor lines at that moment.
" NO BELLA YOU KNOW WHY I WONT LET THIS GO HUH BECAUSE I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU BELLA NOT ANYONE ELSE I LOVE YOU BELLA GRACE JONES OKAY I LOVE YOU I JUST-" he cut him self off and kissed me but it was so passionate, at that point we were making out I started kissing his jawline and he groaned a bit and that's when I found his sweet spot, he started giving me hickeys on my neck and we both pulled away and that was when I gave him some hickeys as well now everyone will know Benjamin Franklin Rodriguez is mine now officially mine now!
"WOW" Benny said so surprised
"Do you want to watch friend with me?"
" sure" we both cuddled together and I fell asleep on him I felt so safe...