Star Shines In Her Eye

Love The One You're With

I woke up every hour that night, I was wracked with guilt and sorrow, there was a thunderstorm making it hard to sleep, as well. I didn't know what was happening between the brothers but it was best that I stayed out of it. I finally woke up after the broken sleep, rain still coming down and I had about 5 missed calls from Sammy and some very annoyed texts from Jake... fuck.

Jakey 🎸
What did you do, Kaz? Josh literally will not come down from his room and turned off his phone. We've got rehearsal in 2 hours.

Jakey 🎸
Seriously? With Sammy? C'mon! After everything we all went through in Sawyer?

This was followed by 3 more ranting texts about being a bad friend, I deleted them immediately, I knew how bad I'd been, I didn't need reminding. I tried to call Sammy back but it was interrupted by a knock on my bedroom door. "One sec!" I called out, I shot up and put on a silky floral robe I got for being in a friends wedding and unlocked the door. Sammy was standing there, drenched from the walk from his house. "Hey Sammy, I'm so sorry." I put my face in my hands and threw myself onto my bed. "We canceled rehearsal today so I decided I should probably come see you." Sammy said as he sat on the edge of my bed. I sat up and put my arms around his neck, putting my face in his wet hair, he will always be my best friend and nothing could ever change that. He stroked my back as hot tears ran down from my face. Sammy pulled away from me to look into my puffy, red, eyes. "You're still so beautiful, even when you're a crying mess." Sammy put his thumb on my chin and kissed me, his other hand tightly on my waist.
I whimpered slightly, knowing what was sure to happen, again. Sammy moved his large hands down to my hips and pulled me close to him. Sammy truly loved me and I could tell by every move he made. He untied my robe with one hand, his lips still on mine, and pushed the silk aside to kiss my bare shoulder. He moved the other side of the robe off, revealing my breasts. Sammy cupped them in his hands as he kissed my neck. I laid my head back on my pillow as he moved his kisses down, I lifted my hips so he could remove my panties. Sam took his calloused fingers and teased my slit, a look of concentration on his face. I moaned as he parted my lips and slowly circled my clit with one finger. He was doing so little but every moved turned me on. Less was definitely more, at that moment. I fumbled with his belt while I moved his fingers in and out of me, playing me like his bass. My face was hot and I felt desperate. I finally removed his belt and he helped me by getting his pants off himself. He positioned himself between my thighs and slowly moved his hips and plunged himself into me, making me cry out his name. I hoped my parents weren't home. Sam kissed me hard on my lips "I love you, Leah." "I love you, too, Samuel." I closed my eyes and threw my head back as he made love to me until we both came within seconds of each other. Sam made my decision for me, he was the one I would be with. I just didn't know if that meant for the tour and the job I was offered, I was less worried about that in those moments though.
The storm carried on all afternoon and well into the night. Sam and I laid in my bed, holding hands, listening to records and laughing as the rain poured down outside. I don't know why I hadn't noticed how well we fit together before but I was glad to have it now. Sammy sat on my floor in just a pair of his old boxers that he left at my house, looking through my record collection. "Where's the Jazz, little one??" "You're fault, Samuel! That's you're arena, you buy it, I'll play it." Sammy finally landed on Rubber Soul and placed it gently on my record player. I came down to the floor and snaked my arms around him, from behind. I hadn't thought about Josh, mostly because I was pushing him out of my mind. I was having such a good day with Sammy, I didn't want to ruin it with my thinking.
     We went to bed after we ordered Chinese and ate it on my bedroom floor. I snuggled into his chest and took a deep breath, his chest was warm, we hadn't showered all day but he had a distinctly Sam smell, I never wanted to leave this room. We woke up the next day and had sex again before he left for rehearsal, but it felt like so much more than sex. When we were together I felt easy and I felt like myself. I wanted Josh to love me so badly but I knew he would never be able to feel the same way as me. The air felt thick in my room and the smell of sex lingered. I laid back down and made myself cum, the third time in 24 hours, thinking about two different boys, I didn't know why I couldn't have just focused on Sam.