7 years.

Babak Empat

'I'm wearing white shirt and jeans', say her.
'I'm in black shirt, I'm standing in front of McDonald's'.
'Okay I see you', sambil dia lambai tangan dia.

So, I finally meet my girlfriend. Chinese look, long hair, tall and slim. And I'm shorter than her, hahahaha.
'Dah lama ke tunggu?'
'Tak lah, I pun baru je sampai'.
'You sorang je ke?'
'I datang dengan kawan college I tadi, tapi kitorang split bila dah sampai sini, takut you segan. Lagi pun tak cool la kalau I bawak kawan jumpa awek, hahaha'.
'Hahahaha I okay jela'.
'So, kita nak pergi mana? Ni kan tempat you, I'm new in town', kataku sambil tersenyum.
'Jom kita naik atas, you teman kan I beli barang. I have something to buy'.
'Okay'.

Ketika menaiki escalator, Aleeya and Mira kebetulan ada kat belakang. Kitorang nak pergi tingkat tiga, dorang dua naik escalator kat tingkat dua. Time tu aku tak perasan lagi dorang kat belakang sampai la Mira saja cuit belakang aku. Aku terkejut and malu malu la tengok dorang, then I introduced them to my girlfriend and told her that I'm always sleep in their room.

Lepas je kenalkan dorang. Kitorang split pergi cari barang. Girlfriend aku membuka mukadimah

'You teman yang mana satu tidur?'
'Aleeya. Tapi dorang dua duk bilik yang sama'.
'Oh... Cantik. You tidur satu katil ke?'.
'Em.. Ya, but I swear nothing happen between us. We're just friend'.
'I... Don't like it. I'm okay before because I don't know who are them. But now I know. I don't think that I like the idea you accompany her to sleep'.
'Em.. Dia kawan I. You tahu kan. Bila duduk jauh, kawan kawan semua macam family. Bukan I buat apa apa pun dengan dia'.
'I tahu I boleh percayakan you. Cuma.. I jealous'.
'Hahahaha okay you're cute. Hahahahaha she's just a friend. You shouldn't be jealous about it'.
'I know. Kita pun baru first time jumpa. I shouldn't be bother about it right?'
In soft way I said 'Listen to me, whatever you are thinking right now, it wasn't happen at all okay. She's legit straight and it is impossible for whatever you think is to happen okay?.
'Ya I know. Sorry I just... '
'It's okay. Then is it okay for you if I'm not sleeping in one bed with her?'
'Ya I'm cool with that'.
'Okay. Just don't worry too much ya'.

After that, kitorang semua balik skali, Mira, Aleeya and aku. Before balik bilik Aleeya and Mira dedua cakap 'Jangan lupa datang bilik, kot kot dah jumpa awek taknak datang bilik dah', sambil dorang gelak. Aku senyum je.
'Ye, tahu. See you guys later'.

Before g bilik Aleeya aku mandi dulu apa semua. Aku still terfikir pasal girlfriend aku. Entahlah. I meant Aleeya legit straight kot, mustahil la apa dia fikir tu akan berlaku. And aku anggap Aleeya kawan. Salah ke teman kawan tidur? Banyak soalan yang bermain di fikiran aku time tu.

Sampai bilik Aleeya, belum sempat duduk pun lagi.
'Bro dia tak suka awek kau, hahahaha' kata Mira sambil pointed at Aleeya.
'Ahah, I tak suka awek you. Kenapa you suka dia?' sambil dia gelak.
'Hahahahaha, dia buat apa kat you sampai you tak suka dia ni?'
'No reason, I just don't like her and I don't like seeing her with you, hehehe'.
'Dia baik la'.
'Kau jealous ke Aleeya?', tanya Mira.
'Mana ada, buat apa I nak jealous'.
'Gaya kau macam jealous jeeeee', Mira menyakat lagi.
'Takda lah, wekkkk'.
'Habis kau tengok awek dia cemana? Hahaha lawa ke tak?'
'Lawa aku lagi, hahahaha' kata Aleeya.
'Hahahahahaha perasan lah kauuuu', sambil Mira gelak.

Aku tak amik pusing sangat sebab aku tahu dorang gurau je and aku gelak jela tengok gelagat dorang. Cuma malam tu, Aleeya memang macam lain sikit dengan aku, dia macam manja and sensitive lebih sikit malam tu. Entahlah apa tak kena dengan dia, gaduh dengan boyfriend lah tu. Oh ya, malam tu aku pun elak jugak dari tidur satu katil dengan Aleeya, and dorang cakap aku takut awek, hanat betul dorang.

Long story short. After a month and half there, I have conflict with my girlfriend as someone from her university saw we're together. There's many thing that people said to her, well because as you guys would know this kind of relationship, not many can accept it. Tak semua kawan dia boleh terima dia couple dengan pengkid, kata lain nya, lesbian. Some said 'Patut la kau tolak laki yang nak kat kau, lesbian rupanya' and classmate dia pun pandang serong kat dia dan macam macam lagi. I felt so guilty towards her and I ask her

'Are you okay there?'
'Should we end this, for good?'
'Are you sure?'.
'If this could make thing right, why not?'.
'If that's what you want....'
'I.....am sorry'
'No, don't be sorry about it. I understand, things gets hard isn't it?'
'Ya, it's too hard for me now'.
'I wish you well, and take care.'

Malam tu, aku jalan kaki pergi bendang, ditemani bulan dan bintang. Hati aku...kosong. Aku termenung, banyak benda yang bermain di fikiran. Tengah aku mengelamun

'You okay ke?' tanya Aleeya sambil menghulurkan air kepadaku.
'I okay je', sambil aku tersenyum.
'I can see that you're not. Your eyes...different. Apa jadi?'
'Girlfriend I mintak break, and we're officially broke up today'.
'Kenapa? Bukan ke you dengan dia doing just fine ke?'
'Ya, well, things happen tho', senyum aku pahit.

Malam tu, time tidur. Maybe sebab break dengan girlfriend aku, so aku tak lelap sangat dan aku terasa ada orang peluk aku. Aku bukak mata, and yes Aleeya, she's hugging me. Aku pun cuba la untuk melepaskan tangan dia dari tubuh aku, and...

'Please don't', said her.
'Are you having a bad dream?'
'No. Ally...'
'Ye Aleeya, you kenapa ni? You're acting weird'.
'Ally you nak tahu tak... Sebenarnya I suka you from the first time I saw you'.
Aku terdiam
'I'm sorry Ally. I tahu I patut tumpang sedih you sebab you baru lepas break up dengan girlfriend you. Tapi lepas I tahu you break dengan girlfriend you I rasa happy sangat. I jealous bila you keluar dengan girlfriend you. I tak suka bila you bagi attention you dekat dia. Sebab tu I happy bila I tahu you guys dah break'.
'Aleeya. You're saying something that really weird now'.
'Ini apa yang I rasa Ally. I suka you. I suka you sangat. I tahu I ada boyfriend and I tak patut suka you, tapi I tak boleh halang apa I rasa Ally'.
'Aleeya, I rasa you mungkin confused? Yela sebab I teman you apa semua, sebab tu you macam ni?'
'No, I'm not. I tak confused. I tahu apa I rasa'.
'Aleeya, you ada boyfriend. Apa you buat ni salah Aleeya'.
'I can break up with my boyfriend if you want'.
'Apa you cakap ni Aleeya? You gila ke apa? Kenapa I nak you break up dengan boyfriend you untuk I? Aleeya wake up Aleeya wake up'.
'Shhhh.. Don't be too loud. People can hear you'. And in instant, Aleeya put her lips on mine. I was like whattttt....

At that time my voice is quite high sampai Mira macam terjaga, I was so afraid Mira would see this kind of situation but luckily she's continue to sleep as we heard she snoring. I slowly push Aleeya.
'What the fuck are you doing now Aleeya'.
'I love you'.