7 years.

Babak Lapan

Sedar tak sedar dah masuk sem enam kitorang kat sini. For last sem, kitorang kena buat internship for six month. Kena cari tempat sendiri and boleh buat kat memana je. For this time aku pilih belah utara jugak lah. Senang. Hujung sem dekat sikit nak gerak g college balik. Itu apa yang aku fikir lah. Internship punya tempat aku tak kisah pun Aleeya nak pilih mana asal kan dia selesa.

'You dah tahu ke nak buat internship kat mana? Dah cari dah?'. Tanya Aleeya.
'I ingat nak buat belah belah sini je. Dekat sikit nak balik college'.
'I ikut you eh?'.
'Buat apa nak ikut I? Hahahaha'.
'Ala nak ikut la. Dah last sem niiii'.
'You taknak balik ke, KL kan banyak tempat yang you boleh intern. You pun boleh stay dengan famili you. Jimat dah kat situ'. Aku tengok Aleeya sambil aku gelak.
'Kalau I intern KL, you nak ikut I tak? Boleh stay rumah sekali'.
'Taknak lah. You tahu I tak suka tempat crowded kan. KL semak lah'.
'Sebab I tahu you taknak lah I nak ikut youuuuu'.
'Sure not you want to follow me ni? Hahahaha'
'Eish you niii! Banyak cakap lah. You taknak I intern skali dengan you keeee?'
'Taknakkkkk'. Sambil aku gelak tengok muka dia. Dia merajuk. Aku tambah gelak lagi. Aku bab bab pujuk orang memang fail, even orang tu awek aku hahahaha so memang makan hati jelah dia dengan aku hahahaha.

Selang dua tiga minggu lepas tu. Ada update dari tempat yang aku apply tuk intern tu.

'I dah dapat tempat. Kat Langkawi'. Kata ku kepada Aleeya.
'Untungla. Hahahahaha'.
'How bout you?'
'Haven't heard anything yet from them'.
'Takpalah, maybe dorang busy. Nanti dorang call lah tu. Tapi kalau dorang takda call nanti you pun boleh call jugak dorang follow up tanya. Tak salah pun'.
'Baikkkk'.

Kitorang lunch skali kat cafe lepastu tu. Kebetulan phone Aleeya ringing.

'Yes. Speaking. Really? Where it was located? KL branch or Langkawi branch? Oh okay. I understand. Thankyou!'
Belum sempat dia cakap apa apa, aku dah 'Congrats sayang'.
'Cuba teka I dapat kat mana?'
'Alah nak main teka teka pulak. Malas ah hahahaha. Taknak bagitahu sudah hahahaha'.
'Ala you niiiii'.
'Hahahaha. KL lettewww'.
'Nope. Nope. I got same as youuuuu. At Langkawi'.
'Wowwwww, really? Then we shall be together lah gitu? Hahahaha'.
'Ya of course. I purposely apply it there to be with you. Truth is I don't want to be far from you and I'm glad I got it'. Senyum dia.

Aku jenis yang tak tunjuk sangat apa aku rasa, and aku pun bukan jenis yang akan halang apa yang dia nak buat, sebab tu aku tak kisah dia nak apply kat mana even tempat tu tak sama dengan aku, asal kan dia selesa, Itu je. Aku taknak put pressure pada dia, if aku cakap apply tempat sama dengan aku confirm dia akan ikut, aku just taknak buat dia rasa pressure sebab maybe dia ada pilihan lain kan, yang lagi sesuai dengan dia. Itu apa yang bermain dalam fikiran aku before ni, tapi sebenarnya aku happy dia pilih nak dekat dengan aku. I meant, this is the last sem. Lepasni aku tak dapat dah nak stay skali dengan dia, nak tengok muka dia hari hari, nak bahan dia lagi hahahaha. Time sure flies man, apa lah akan jadi lepas habis sem ni, aku monolog sendirian.

Kat langkawi. Kitorang sewa satu bilik untuk jimat cost hahahaha student kan, duit tak banyak so kena jimat. Bilik tu besar gak la, lima enam orang tidur pun boleh muat lagi. Dalam bilik tu, ada aku, Aleeya and Shaa (kawan kitorang jugak) cuma dia tak tahu aku dengan Aleeya ni couple, dia just tahu kitorang kawan yang sangat rapat la haaa gitu. Atas persetujuan bersama, dalam bilik tu, Aleeya dengan aku tidur atas katil, and Shaa tidur kat tilam bawah which tilam tu ada dua so tebal jugak lah.

So far, dalam dua tiga minggu ni our internship is quite good. Nama pun internship, tak bagus pun buat buat bagus jela, nak belajar kan hahahaha.
Even kat tempat intern ada jugak some guy yang hit on Aleeya, biasalah bro, budak intern memang ramai je orang nak try. Aku buat tak tahu je sebab aku tahu Aleeya macam mana, so aku biarkan jela. Benda tak effect relationship pun buat apa nak bising. Cuma tipu la tak jealous. Jealous jugak aku bila dia keluar dengan laki even orang tu aku kenal, tapi sebab dorang keluar reramai and Shaa pun ada skali, so aku tak kisah sangat. Aku pun percaya Aleeya so, ya nothings wrong for her to go out and have some fun. No big deal, cuma time aku keluar dengan kawan aku, dia selalu jugak suruh aku balik awal or bawak dia skali time lepak, tapi tulah, time kitorang tak sama. Bukan taknak bawak dia skali, tapi time tak sama. Ha gitu lah cerita dia.

Aku dengan Aleeya punya time kerja lain. Kerja aku gila sikit lah sebab takda manning meanwhile Aleeya relax sikit, normal. Aku jam8 pagi dah masuk kerja and Aleeya pulak masuk kerja jam9 pagi, aku balik kerja jam9 or 10malam meanwhile Aleeya jam6petang dah balik kerja. By the way, Shaa and Aleeya satu tempat intern. So kat situ korang dah boleh nampak time differences between us is quite big. Selalu bila aku keluar g kerja Aleeya dengan Shaa masih lagi tidur, and bila dorang balik dari dinner, aku yang dah tidur. Honestly aku memang penat lepas balik kerja, so bila Aleeya ajak makan aku selalu tak dapat nak makan dengan dia. Aku explain kat dia kerja aku, and aku penat apa semua, aku minta dia faham sebab bukan aku taknak spent time dengan dia, cuma kerja aku seriously buat mental dengan physical aku penat. I really feel sorry to her sebab masa aku banyak kat tempat kerja sahaja, kitorang spent time pun bila cuti skali, tu pun sangat jarang berlaku. Dalam dua bulan ada sehari je kitorang dapat cuti skali. Sebab tu Aleeya banyak bising jugak kat aku, dia pernah persoalkan kenapa kita intern sekali kalau macam ni jadinya. Aku pujuk la dia, dan itu pun salah satu sebab kenapa aku tak kisah Aleeya nak keluar dengan sesiapa pun, as long dia pandai jaga diri dia sendiri.

Ada satu malam, aku baru balik kerja. Aku ingat lagi, time tu jam1030 malam. Time aku baru nak park moto, helmet pun belum sempat cabut lagi, ada kereta sampai and park depan rumah. Aku nampak Aleeya keluar dari kereta tu, dalam masa yang sama laki tu pun keluar dari kereta and dia macam give something to Aleeya sambil pegang tangan dia, aku tengok jela scenery depan mata aku tu. Hmmm, aku pun terus masuk rumah. Tak lama kemudian Aleeya pun masuk. Belum sempat dia cakap apa apa aku g mandi dulu, baik aku mandi before aku sembur girlfriend aku, aku kena tenang tenang dulu. Usai mandi, Aleeya tengok je aku macam nak explain something, aku pulak diam je. Malas nak cakap apa sebab aku penat, mental and physical, honestly it was really not a good time to talk sebab aku ada perasaan marah tu. Aku decide nak tidur, pasal laki tu esok esok jelah borak. Aleeya duduk atas katil masa tu.

'Tepi sikit. I nak tidur. I penat'.
'You taknak tanya I apa apa ke?'
Ah sudah, dia ajak borak. Aku tahu time ni perasaan aku memang tak okay. Dengan nada yang agak tinggi aku cakap

'Should I ask you or should you explain to me?'
'Well..it's not like what you think.'
'Then tell me. What the hell I should think? What the fuck are you doing while he was holding your hand?'
'He just give me back my phone because I left it in his car'
'So he give it to you and touching your hand then. Is that how it supposed to happen?'
'He...confess to me that he like me. That's why he was holding my hand'.
'So you just let it be my dear?'.
'But I push him after he hold my hand, at that time you already come inside the room!'
'Do you like it, if someone holding my hand other than you?'
'No'.
'Then should I stay and watching it while he's holding your hand?'
'No'.
'You got my answer already. Don't yelling shit at me because I'm not the one at fault. You are! I trust you! I even allow you to go to anywhere with anyone. Is this what you give back to me? Some more you said you go with Shaa, but how come you alone by the time you come back? Are you even lie to me now?'
'Do you even know why am I being like this! It was because of you! Since we're start internship you don't even have time to be with me! To go out with me! You don't even care about me! You okay with everything I do! You don't even bother to ask me what I am doing! You don't even fucking love me anymore!'
'Gosh, what the hell are you talking about now?'.
'You don't even interested in what am I doing. You too busy to pay attention to me. And I felt like you don't love me anymore'.
'Man, I fucking love you! I trust you, that's why I'm okay with everything you do. Because you have my trust! Do we should ever be together if I don't trust you! Goddammit!'
'I don't know, I just feel like you don't love me anymore and I don't like this feeling', I remember at that time she's crying.
'Do you know that everyday, every morning I kiss you before I go to work. Some nights when you can't sleep and wake me up, I woke up eventho I'm tired, and sometimes you're hungry in the middle of the night I sit with you at the table to make sure you eat. You know how much I love you. You know I'm willing to do anything for you. And you also know that this time...you really hurt me'.
'Hm..I, I just want your attention'.
'You have all my attention sayang. I just...hope you also understand me. My work'.
'Can you at least have same day off as me? So that we can spent time together'.
'I'll ask my boss. I'll work out on it. Please give me some times'.
'I'm sorry for being childish. I love you so much'.
'It's okay..just don't do the same things. I can accept anything except nobody can touch my girl'.
She nod her head and hug me at that time.