7 years.

Extra.

Last week, masa tengah jalan jalan dekat KLCC, aku terserempak dengan Rina, and she's asking for a cup of tea. So, we both go for it for the sake of old time. Banyak yang dia cerita, mostly of course about Aleeya. Even I already said that our stories really long past, but she insisted that I should know it.

Since our thing is already in the past; I'm quite baffle to write about this, but I've write this since this story basically about us. So, I think people also should know what Aleeya's feeling, what she's thinking, the situation she's in. It's only fair if people know stories from both sides. So basically this chapter is from Aleeya's side.

Aleeya's POV.

'Aleeya. Stop drinking. You so fucking wasted already. Where's your fiancé? Why he let you drinking too much?' said Rina.
'Don't ask me. I don't know his wherebout'.
'Come on. Let's go back'.
'Rina... You know I loved her right?'.
'What are you talking about Aleeya?'
'I love her Rina. I love her so much. I really love her with all my heart, but I'm doing something that I couldn't take back... I curang dengan dia. I layan orang lain belakang dia'.
'Aleeya. You drunk enough. Let's stop talking. Come I sent you home'.
'Rina.. I tak tahu Rina. Kenapa I curang sedangkan I sayang dia sangat Rina. She's treat me like no others. Why would I do something that hurt her so much Rina?'... She's crying.
'Aleeya. My boyfriend here. We continue to talk later okay? Wait I call your fiancé to pick you up'.
'No. Don't call him. I want her. I want her. Please call her'. She starting make scenes this time.
'Okay okay. But I don't know if she'll picking up or not.'

Few days after that.

'Rina.. am I that bad?'
'Kenapa tetiba you tanya macam tu?'
'Rina.. Ally taknak ada apa apa kaitan dah dengan I. She deleting everything. She doesn't even want to see me also'.
'Em. Kalau I Ally pun I akan buat benda yang sama kot Aleeya. Well, she's only look at you but you know what you're doing to her right? So, it just a thing that anyone would do'.
'Rina, you tahu I sayang dia kan?'
'If you loved her you wouldn't do something like that right?'
'I...', Aleeya terdiam.
'It's your past, don't let it affect your future Aleeya'. Kata Rina.

Few weeks after that.

'I pergi tempat kerja dia Rina. I don't know. I really missed her. What worst, I pergi stay kat tempat kerja dia dengan suami I'. Kata Aleeya.
'What?'.
'When I saw her I'm really happy Rina. She looks well'.
'Good for her then'.
'I mintak dia amikkan gambar kitorang. And I did something quite stupid. I hug and kissed my husband while she's taking our picture. I do that to see how's she react to that, but it turns out I'm the one who's feeling hurt because she doesn't seems care at all'.
'Gosh.. Kenapa you nak tengok reaction dia Aleeya? Tak cukup lagi ke apa yang you buat kat dia sebelum ni Aleeya. Apa motif you tunjuk you bahagia depan dia?'
'I nak dia jealous Rina.'
'What? Gila la you Aleeya. Apa yang you buat ni tak masuk akal. Apa yang you cuba achieve ni Aleeya? Dia elok elok kerja tak kacau you, gila do you ni. Serious gila'.
'Because if she jealous, then I know she still have me in her heart'.
'So, kalau you still ada dalam hati dia. Apa you nak buat? Get back to her? Leaving your husband or what?'
Aleeya menyepi then she said..
'But.. Rina you know what worst? I turun pergi tempat dia while my husband showering. When I saw her, I just couldn't control myself and hug her... Tapi, dia tepis I Rina. She said don't come near her again and just leave just like that. I felt so devastating at that time Rina..'
'Aleeya..'
'I don't know Rina. It just, damn Rina. I hate this. I know I still love her Rina. Deep in my heart I know I still love her Rina'. Mata Aleeya berkaca dah time ni.
'If you going to be missing her. Going to be heartbroken like this. Then kenapa you curang dengan dia at the first place Aleeya? Why?', aju Rina.
'I tak boleh kawen dengan dia Rina. Sayang macam mana pun I dekat Ally, I tak boleh kawen dengan dia Rina. No matter how hard I think, there's nothing I can do about that Rina'. She burst in tears. 'When things getting hard, I always remember her. She gave me warmth feeling when no one else could'.
'Have you talked to her before about this?'
'Ya. We've talked. Dia selalu support I. She said she willing to do anything as long as we're together, but to get married is too much. She said that we can live together, but to be married is to defies everything. It felt so wrong'.
'Aleeya..'
'Rina. You know what. I selalu terfikir, apa akan jadi if dia a guy. If she's a guy, then I would be the happiest person on earth. I tahu I isteri orang Rina, but I always thinking about her. Curang dengan dia is the most regrettable thing that I've ever done. She's the most understanding person that I've known. If I can turn back the time, I want to have a talk with her. At least I still can see her, we can break up nicely. We can be friend. I can still turn to her, because I know, she always be there for me'.
'Aleeya.. Is something happen? This is the first time we talk about her after you break up with her'.
Aleeya menyambung. 'You know, I pernah terfikir that we both should get married somewhere outside here then we both can always be together. But if we do that, then we'll really be throwing everything aside. Religion, family and such. Rina, I think a lot about how we can proceed with our relationship. But no matter how hard I'm thinking, it just impossible Rina. I nak family, I want kids, and she really couldn't give me that. So, that why I started to meet everyone'.
'But, it is also wrong for you to treat her like that Aleeya. For me, I rasa you patut slow talk dengan Ally about you guys punya relationship, not you terus curang dengan dia Aleeya. And now you dapat apa you nak. Are you happy now?'
'I don't know Rina, I'm feeling quite empty inside'.
'But Aleeya.. Since when marriage is the benchmark for happiness? You should be happy with whatever you do. To be honest, even if she's not a guy, she can make you happy, so I don't see anything wrong with that'.
'Tapi Rina sampai bila Rina, sampai bila I nak macam ni...'
'If you said so, there's nothing much I can say anymore. So anything that you do. You should be happy with your life choice no?'
Aleeya terdiam.. 'I missed her Rina. I really miss her, I don't know what to do Rina, I couldn't she her anymore, she's blocked me in everywhere now'... 'I still remember the last word Ally said to me "I want to be your happily ever after Aleeya, I really do; but I'm not even your once upon a time. This isn't a fairy tale, yet I still hope for happy ending.. And in the end, we couldn't do anything for us..", it sucks Rina. It really sucks'.
'Aleeya.. I think, you should slowly try to forget your past. Because no matter what happen in the past, and no matter what do you think, you're someone's wife, you're married now.. '

At the end of the day. Both of us having a hard time to forget each other. But as time goes by, the pain become bearable and it slowly healing. Healing is loneliest journey I must say, and just like parallel line, we both been living our own life without crossing each other fate.