Relapses are complicated. I'm fighting with my anorexia/bulimia again. I thought I was out of it for ever this time, but it triggers me so much when people say I'm skinny, because I know that I'm not skinny anymore. I really want to go back to that time when I was nearly underweight and tell myself to keep going. Now I'm feeling so fat, but at the same time I know that this is the right thing. I want to throw up after every meal, but I don't because I don't want to waste food. And what do I do, if I'm not happy with myself? Yeah let's take the blades out of the razor and cut myself. I'm so stupid. I'm going back down and the problem is, that I kinda want to do it. No one would notice and no one will stop me.
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Poems and thoughts
RomanceI'm sorry a bug double uploads the chapters. Mainly english original poems. Hope you enjoy and please comment and like.
