Timeless • A Kyle Kuzma Fanfiction

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astin

"You are so in love with him."

I groan and throw my head back onto my pillows. "I know."

"You need to have sex asap; you're becoming so mean."

Another groan as I roll over and stuff my face into my pillow. "I know."

"You actual called him Blake's dad yesterday, and like, not in a sarcastic way."

A mini scream this time as the memory comes back. "I know."

My sisters were comforting me in the only way they knew how, which isn't very comforting at all. We'd, meaning Austin and I, dropped off Blake not even an hour ago and she had called Ashley over to gossip and patronize me about Kyle. It really didn't make sense to fight it considering they were right in every way, but they genuinely don't have to be so blunt about it.

"I walked in on them and Astin was two knees away from shoving Kyle's dick down her throat."

I groan and throw a pillow at her. Bullseye.

"So what, As? You're grown." Ashley says, stroking my hair.

"It's not about that though. At this point, I'm not sure if I'm in love with Kyle, his mouth, his fingers, or the thought of what he could do to me if I just let him. But I cannot end up with another Blake. Not right now." I sit up and give Ash a look. She sends me a pitiful smile and I look away.

"Just ask him to wrap it up." Astin tries to reason. But that's the thing, I didn't want him to wrap it up. I wanted it full on; all or nothing.

"Do you want to go back to taking test?"

And there it was. The elephant in the room we were trying to ignore. Leave it up to Austin Chanel to bring it up.

As always.

"Leave it, bitch." I mutter, standing up and stretching. She knew birth control didn't work for me. That's how I ended up with Blake and that's also how I got sick. No matter how many different medications they gave me, no matter what shots, I always got sick.

"Your safety comes before sex, As, and Kyle deserves to know that. Because as much as you think you're holding yourself back, you're holding him back too. We all see how he looks at you. He wants you more than I think even he knows. Just talk to him, quickly, because pretty soon you two are going to combust." Ashley fakes a shiver and throws me my phone. "Call him."

l grumble while taking the phone because even though I didn't want to do it, I knew I had to. The phone rings a couple times before he picks up. "What's up, baby?" Oh did y'all see that? That's the air leaving my lungs.

"Um," I start hesitantly. "How's your pull out game?"

Pause.

Another pause.

Another pause.

Two more.

"That depends."

I raise an eyebrow even though he can't see me. "On what exactly?"

"In the past, immaculate. With you...probably nonexistent."

Austin and Ashley pretend to gag and I shoo them out. "Listen Kyle. I've been hesitant about us having sex because I'm not on birth control and I can't exactly...get on it either. I have some allergic reactions to the pill, and the shot, and the ring- I've tried everything, trust me. At first I was okay with it because I didn't exactly want you but now..." I trail off and let the sentence drop. He doesn't say anything but I know he's there because Blake's cartoons are as loud as ever in the background.