Lies between my tears

Bonding

Today i invited my friends to come over in my house and drink, they keep on asking what's the occasion but i just simply smile and tell them that i just want to have a good time with them and i want to release some stress.

I dont know what will happen tomorrow but now I just want to spend the time with them, i wish i P'mae and grandmom are here to cook for us but they are still busy taking good care of our aunt im missing them so bad

We had fun,we eat play sing and dance like we are inside a bar, i keep my smile on my face, i didnt show any sadness infront of them

We are busy playing spin the bottle when P'kao  speaked out of the blue

" Hey kong, about the viral photo of yours" he said but he stopped because P'pete pinched him

I  gulped the beer im holding  and wipe the remaining beer in my mouth using my hand before i speaked

" uhhmm Pi's you know me right? You know that I cant do such stupid thing as that. I know lots of people are judging me now, lots of them disgusts me now. But please trust me with this one. I wont ruin myself and my reputation with those king of silly actions" i answered and looked up to prevent the tears from falling

" we know kong, thats why we are here to help and give you our support" rome said and smiled

" fighting na" Fiat said and that all gestured their arms a fighting sign ( sorry i dont know how to call that one hahah😊😊🤔🤔)

" Real friends support you no matter what. If you want to be a tunafish then its our job to encourage you to be the damn tunafish that you can be" P'kao stand up and cheerfully said

" Right"

" if you want to be a mermaid then let rome and fiat help you with that" P'ouajun added
Fiat immediately slapped his arms

" i was just joking nong " he added but fiat just rolled his eyes heavenwards

I didnt notice that my tears began to fall again due to happiness, P'krist holded my cheek and wiped the tears on it

" nong stop crying will you" he said while wiping the tears on my face

" uhhmmm P' i have a question to ask?" I stared at him and hold his hands very tight

He was surprised on my action but he just smiled

" whats that kong?"

I closedmy eyes while releasing a heavy breath my sweat continiusly flowed to my face like bullets

" uhhmm. You know that there's still a tremendous amount of  homophobia in our culture. It's regrettable,it's stupid,it's heartless and it's immoral. But there it is right? And here i am P'" I breath heavily

My heartbeats fasts like thier is horse running inside it

I looked straight to his eyes " i have lots  of flaws, but still you are hereto give me smile and happiness"

I gulped " i'm gay will you accept me as your boyfriend?" I continously said and closed my eyes hoping and waiting for an answer
The surroundings began to silent i only hear crickets from the outside

I felt a grip on my hand

"Nong kong look at me " he said and held my chin to look at his face

He smiled " i think being gay is a blessing, and its something we should be thankful for every single day. Don't ever be afraid to show off your true colors" he said and pulled me close and locked me on his arms

" i've been waiting for this to happen, i've waited for you so long, yes i will be your boyfriend" then he released me from the hug and kissed me

The deafening silence earlier changed into a loud shout cheering and clapping from my friends and his friends too.

We ended the day happy. They went home home one by one P'krist asked if he can stay for tonight but i said that i can manage to stay alone for this night and besides i already ate too much of their time. Before thay leave me they keep on telling me to lock all doors and windows and keep my line open for them to call me. I should also send them LINE messages immediately if i feel something terrible.

I look like a kid. But im really thankful that they are this  caring for me.

Rome also told me that he can accompany me again but i did not allow him to stay with me i know that P'pick and rome missed each other already

" are you sure kong?" Rome asked me before entering the door of P'picks car

" im okay besides i know you miss each other so much na, " then i winked at both of them
They both giggled

" you take care of yourself okay, just send me a message okay " he added

They waived at me before starting the engine.

"Take care too, drive slowly" i said and waived back to them

My phone vibrated i pull it out from my pocket to see who send me a line message

" take care of yourself na, sleep well and i love you" a message from P'krist

" take care too i love you more" i replied and put my phone inside my pocket and went inside the house

I was left alone. I locked all doors and windows and as i secured it i immediately went to my room and laid down.

45 minutes pass and my eyes are still wide awake my mind doesnt want me to sleep at all everytime i close my eyes  my mid suddenly flash so many  memories.

Now i have a caring friends a lovely family and a boyfriend.

Love is old
Love is new
Love is all
Love is you

What a beautiful quote indeed.
Love is everywhere, its on my head, heart, surroundings and in my family and friends.

I get off from my bed and sat on my study table to write a letter.

A letter for everyone.

A/N

Thanks to (OFF) P'kaii's shirt on the theory of love trailer i saw the quote love is old love is new love is all love is new on the back of his shirt hihi its a big help here

P.s : have you guys watched the uncut version of sotus? Its very witty i salute the one edited and subbed it hahahha i keep on watching it like evrytime .

Lee peraya 🐢🦁