Lies between my tears

Hugs and kisses

Singto

I run out from the house hoping that P'arthit is still there

As i walked outside i saw his car ready to go

I run towards it but he already driven the car off from our gate

"P'waitttt" i shouted

I tried my very best to catch his car, my sweat is already covering my eyes and i only have the sunset and the light  post  for me to be able to see the way

" P' arhthit wait!!" I shouted more

I saw his car stopped i walked towards it with my trembling knees and swollen eyes

He did not got off from his car instead he opened the window and stared at me

" P'.. i..m"

" what now?!" He said with irritation

" im sorry, im sorry i didnt let you explain im sorry im such a kid im sorry i left you behind im sorry i did not take and answer your calls im sorry" i said contniously the tears on my eyes  flow down to my cheek nonstop

He opened the door and went out

He then pulled me and locked me on his embrace

" I'm sorry too i did not explain it to you" he said

" no P' im sorry im short tempered and jealous" i kissed his neck

He pulled me inside the car

" lets talk here inside" 

As we sat down i took a deep breath and calm myself down, i wiped the remaining tears on my lashes and speaked

" im ready to listen now P'" i said

" err.. okay ... that day when we went to siam square and you saw someone kissed me.. actually that's the woman i love the most and i treasure" he said and stared  at me

I dont know what to do right now. I felt that my world crashed and my heart is scattered into billion picieses

" wh—whaat?" I send in a trembling voice still my head is facing down. The water on my eyes that i already wiped began to crawl down again

" i love her more thsn my life" he continued

" how about me P'" i speaked i need to know what is my position on his heart, if he wants to end our relationship here because he love someone i can take it wholeheartedly, i cant ruin a relationship besides that a woman  i dont have enough things to do to fight here

" i love you too... you know that right?" He said and pulled my chin using his left hand

He smiled and gave me a peck on my lips

" i love you more you are the one who owns my heart in the first place" he added

" but how about the girl you are talking about?"

" i love her too because she stayed at me on my downest times, she helped me multiple times already, we stayed together and i know she loves me too. The day you saw her kissed me in the cheek it is a goodbye kiss, she will fly back to chang mai to meet his boyfriend, thst time she asked me to accompany her to buy gift for her boyfriend" P'arthis explained

I felt like i was doused with cold water all over my body, i was stunned and dumbfounded

" are you alright?" P'arthit said

" I-..err..im sorry" i whispered

"What was that?" I didnt hesr you correctly

" i'm sorry for misunderstanding you,
I'm sorry for being a bit rude to you,
I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and i'm sorry for the tears in your eyes" i said and held his face