Lies between my tears

Jealous

Singto pov

After every storm there is still hope
After every rain there is always a rainbow
After every  sufferings comes relief

Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better.

I'm starting over again
We are on process having a fresh restart
A new pattern of thoughts
A new emotions
A new connection to the world
A new belief system in myself
In my life and in my family.

We are having a picnic outside our house when P'krist stood up answered his vibrating phone. A smile drawn on his face while talking to the person in the line.

" who was that?" I asked him after returning his phone back to his pocket

I saw him smiled and quiver

" none" he said and wrapped his arms on my shoulder, his hands dangled on my shoulder and i saw the ring on his finger, i smiled and gaved him a quick peck  on his cheek.

I'm happy now
I'm very happy but why?

Why?

Life is vey unfair i became happy for a short period of time then the next i have to go through another impossible ordeal.

Life is so rickle one moment it gave me a little taste of happiness then the next it's drowning me in suffering and pain again.

I run towards my room and cried i cried as an ocean

Why do i need to see that right infront of me?, why do he need to hurt me again?
I thought he love me?
I thought im the only love of his life?

" kong! Come out now let's talk" my love knocks on the door continously

I did not talk to him for a couple of days since i saw that day

Hour passed and i heard Rome speaked

He opened the door using the spare key that i gaved him, he entered with a curious and concerned face

" hey mung what happened to you? You
Locked yourself up here for almost a week" he said as he sat on my side

" and ...." then he covered his nose using his hand
" you stink shit, when was the last time you took a bath" he added

I gaved him a boring stare and covered myself with the blanket

I'm not in the mood to talk now, i feel my head is spinning due to hangover i heard tht he picked the scattered bottled on the floor

" why did you drink alone like this , you should have called me, your being selfish" he murmers while picking the trash on the floor

Today my forest is dark. The trees are sad and all the butterflies have broken wings. For the past days and nights i put my head to my pillow and try to help ang motivate myself and tell myself that im strong because i've gone one more day without my love.

My eyes began to water again

" hey talk to me!" Rome shouted and pulled the blanket

I sat facing down
" what" i said in a boring tone of voice

" what happened to you?" He said

" im broken, i saw P'arthit last time in the siam square kissed by a girl on the cheek"

" what are you sure about that?"

"Actually its been days since i noticed that he is busy with someone else last time he talked in the phone for almost an hour, whenever i ask who he talks to,he always say that it's nothing, nothing to be bothered about" i said and wiped the tears on my eyes