Lies between my tears

Decision

We sat facing each other, Ohm's eyes are still swollen

" What are you really doing here?" he asked me

" how are you doing here?" I concernedly asked him

I don't know I'm being kind, smooth or something, I just know that now Ohm needs someone to lean on, someone that will understand him

" why do you ask?" he said

" Actually i come here to give you this" then i handed him a bag

he slowly opened it

"this is from my mother, how come you have it?" he asked

" your mom visited me at the hospital, she begged for forgiveness, she begged me to withdraw my case" i said casually

I saw his facial reaction from a tough man turned into pale and scared, his eyes began to water but he immediately looked up to prevent it from falling

" Why did mom do that, its such a shame"  he said and faced down

" You've done so many things, stupid things towards me Ohm, you hurt me a lot, you almost killed me twice, i don't know if I can forgive you with that" i continuously said

" you don't have to forgive me Kong, " he strongly  said and stood up

" Ohm we both know what happened to our pasts, we are both aware of that, you hurt me  more than what i deserve because i trusted you more than you deserve. It's weird how you can actually feel it in your chest  and stomach when something really hurts your feeling" I said

He stopped from walking and I saw his shoulders shaking

Is he crying?

" I'm sorry kong, I did that due to jealousy, i know im too immature" he speaked

his voice is starting to crack and any moment now I know he will burst out crying

" I'm really shy infront of your right now, you can go home now, thank you for bringing this things to me" he said

" wait Ohm, i have something more important to tell you: i handed him the medical result of her mom

" What's this?"

" Medical results of your mom"

" What do you mean" he immediately opened it

" Your mother is suffering from tuberculosis now, yesterday she was rushed to the hospital, the doctor said that she needs to be confined to be examined but she insisted, she said that  she needs to earn money for you to be able to come out here, then earlier this morning she passed out in the  street, we saw her and brought him back to the hospital" i said

" You know what, your mother really loves you, your mothers love for you is like nothing else in the world. it knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all thst stands in her path, I'm jealous of you having a caring mother" i continued talking

" how's mom's condition now" he said as he wiped his tears

" i don't know either" i answered

i was shocked when Ohm suddenly kneeled down in front of me

" What are you doing?, stand up" i said and pulled him up but he insisted, he started crying

This is the first time I saw him cried and begged.

" I said something that can't take back, I've done something that can't never be erased on your memory, i cant remove on your system, And  all i can think about is rewinding the clock to that moment just before  stupid took over me, please kong forgive me, please help me, please . I only have mom on my side, everyone  left me behind except her" he said as he continued kneeling down and holding my hands.

" I know what your feeling right now Ohm, but its not that easy to let this things go" i said

" Please help me, i will do anything, i will do everything, help me visit my mom help me get out here"

" i don't know Ohm, I want to help you but.... there is something inside me telling me not to trust you again" I said and walked out

" ohm trust is like a broken mirror, even though   you try to glue it up it will never be back into its original shape"

I walked straight outside, i didn't even give a glance on his reaction, i don't know if im becoming heartless, or what, the only thing i know is that i'm hurt.

" How was it kong?" Rome said

" He wants me to withdraw the case" i said

"  and what did you tell him, Don't tell me that you said that you'll withdraw it?" he added and crossed his arms

" of course not, " i shouted

" but i Pity him, He cried so hard he even kneeled in front of me, asking for my forgiveness asking for my help" i added

" Don't believe on that, he's a great actor" Rome added

" But what if he's telling the truth, what if he really mean it, all the things he said" P' arthit said

" are you siding him P?" Rome said and narrowed his eyes

" no i, just saying that, what if he really changed, Singto you know how it feels to live without a parents right, its very sad, how much more on his case, he only live with his mom and his mom is sick, try to put yourself on his shoes, maybe you'll get him" he said and walked straight to the taxi.

P' Arthit is right, I have family and friends that's always on my side, but ohm only have his mother and his mother is sick.

I'm confused right now, should i give him a chance?

but what if he hurts me again

did he really changed?

i have a lots of question now

God please give me a sign, a sign that will enlighten me.

I was about to open the door of the taxi when i heard my  phone rung

P'pete is calling

" Yes P"

" Kong where are you right now? come back here in the hospital, the patient we brought is having a hard time to breath properly she keeps on vomiting  blood and she has a high fever P'phanatold me that she needs to be confined" P Pete said continuously

" okay P' where coming, right away" i answered back and returned my phone on my pocket

Is this the sign that i was asking  for?

" what's the matter?" P' arthit said

" Ohm' mother is in critical condition now,  we need to check her up" i said

If this decision will help me then i'm ready to take responsibilities for the consequences that might happen, but for now i need to help, i need to help them.

i hope that i wont regret this soon.