Lies between my tears

Dreams

I opened my eyes and a shining bright light welcomed me. I slowly stood up as i blinked and scrstch my eyes for several times, i walked towards the light when a familiar face  suddenly appeared and smiled at me

"Pluemmon?" I said with my excitement and trembling voice he is wearing a plain white polocshirt and white pants he is also wearing a big smile on his face.

He smiled and walked straight to my direction

" come here P', i'll show you something" he held my hands and lead the way to walk towards the bright light

It's eerie and i cant help my self but be amazed on the scenery that im  staring right now

"Here P' come sit " he then offered me a chair to sit in

"Where am i?" I curiously asked him

" you are dreaming, a dream that will make you choose between staying here or waking up" he said i feel shivered all over my body

I immediately touched my chest to see the wound that was caused by a gun shot earlier and i was shocked tjet its no longer there.

"It's gone P'" pluemmon said with a smile on his face

" i remember i was shot earlier? Right here?" Then i pointed my chest area where i was shot buy a gun

"Am i dead?" I said and looked straight to his eyes with questioned look

He smiled in returned

He pressed my hand. A sign of comfort and care

We stared at the clouds of dreams wherein you can see your past memories

" thats me?" I excitedly said and pointed the clouds that has my face on it

" those clouds infront you P' will show you all of your struggles in life, since you was a kid until the day you were shot by a gun" he said and stand up

" where are you going?" I held his hands

He looked at me and slowly remove my hands that is holding his

" you are the only one allowed to watch it P', we are not allowed." He said and continued to walk out

He smiled at me for the last time before going out

" you should decide whats best for you, or you'll regret everything" he said as he vanished in the white surroundings

I focused my eyes in staring at the clouds, it showed me my past life where my parents leave me behind, the a sudden flashback rolled in my mind, i suddenly felt pain in my heart, my eyes began to water too.

"I'm sorry, i need to leave you guye here, i promised to return back" the last words my mother said before leaving us

Then thst was the last time i saw her she never go back to us, she never send us a letter. She anandoned us.

My father left us too he went with another woman he left us wothout saying a word.

The clouds of dream suddenly changed it colors and turned to red

Red is a sign of happiness

" singto" i saw me and arthit playing in the park, the moments that we are happy playing and enjoying our days, i can see the smile on my face that time a smile that i dont know where it is now. I look so happy, until the day he left me behind too. The picture skipped many years until Ohm came and comforted me.

Then the clouds of dreams turned into color black a sign of pain and hatred

The last scene is the thing happened earlier l,when i was shot by a gun in my chest. I saw P'krist crying  saying that i should be brave, telling em thet he's back

After it the color changes simultaneously
A color thst describes many emotions

"Singto im back,please stay strong, dont leave me again, i look for you for so many fucking years and now thet i found you i wont let this to happen i missed you a lot" he said while sobbing

Life is about taking chances. Losing and finding happiness. Appreciating the memories, learning  from the past, and realizing people change.

Sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down to my cheek

I feel different kind of emotions right now

I'm happy
Sad
Scared

I also saw myself wearing the sweetest and purest smile that i ever had the smile that i think i can no longer have.

"P'now you should decide, wheter you'll stay with me or go back to life" Pluemmon said while holding my hands and smiling

I smiled back and pressed his hands

"P' remember always go with the choice that scares you the most, because that's the one that will help you grow" he added

I'm hurt in my whole life, judge and fooled by everyone the pain that i experienced changed me it made me made to trust less, overthink more and shut people out, but there are still lots of people thats waiting for me my friends, family. And my love and long lost friend arthit

I hope that this decision that ill be choosing will change my life

I know that i can give up, because its the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold to together with the people around me  would understand,if i fall apart, that's true strength. And this struggles tought me that i will
Never know my strength until i faced my fears.

I smiled to Pluemmon

" im ready"

That's when i realized that a true friend was. Someone who would always love you the imperfect you, the confused you, the wrong you, because that is what people are supposed to do

" are you sure P?" He asked me

" yes i'm sure, i know that my choice will change me, for a better person maybe? Or for the worst one" i said and brush his hair

" if thats  what you wanted P'" he said and smiled back

Strength doesnt come from what i can do. It comes from overcoming the things i once thought that i couldn't

We hugged each other and he held my hands and lead  the way to walk inside again.

A/N

What did singto choose????

Im sorry for updating so so so slow

Im really bussyyy

Thank you for the support

—lee peraya
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