Hell To Pay

Snow Falls

It's been 4 days since Sam caught in a coma. Everyone is getting hopeless as they found out from the doctor that her overdose wasn't an accident. It was intentional because she took things that's not even makes sense for a junkie. Chad is almost having a heart attack to heard that his sister is actually trying to kill herself. It broke his heart because she didn't even say anything to him that could make him suspect these kind of act.

"You think she's gonna wake up?" Chad says to both Anthony and Flea who's been there for him for a couple days. "What the fuck you're talking about? You know she will." Anthony tries to comfort him and Flea also support what Anthony just said. "Chad, I remember Sam being the toughest person on the road. She's strong and you must believe in her."
"I know. But since the doctor told me about what she takes before overdose... We know she's trying to kill herself. When someone doesn't want to live anymore, the chance to wake up will definitely decrease."
"Hey. Doesn't mean we can't bring back her strength. Give her a lot of love, let her know that no matter what happened, we will be there for her. And even if it doesn't work, at least we already tried."

••••••

"How's she?" Chris takes a sip of his drinks and then looks at Taylor while everyone is taking a break.

"Still the same. There's no response.. Chad start to get very frustrated. I don't know what can I do to make the situation better. And I feel extremely awkward when Josh leave me there to talk with her. I mean... He's her boyfriend after all."

Taylor put down his sticks and get down from his chair to takes his drink. He tries so hard not to think about it but he can't help himself. "I think he did the right thing. All that matters is Sam can wake up. Whoever the person that help that to be happen, would be another story. He must know about that and insists that you talk to her to give you the chance."
"I know... But still...."
"Just forget that Taylor. Anyway I might will go to visit her as well, along with Nate and Dave. Do you want to go there with us or will you go earlier?"
"I'll go with you."

••••••

Times goes by so slowly when he looks at her closed eyes. Josh feels like he needs to say things to her because the chance for her to wake up is getting smaller each day. He doesn't want to live knowing that he could say something just in case she can't make it.

"I've.... Thinking about this for these past days...." He takes a deep breath before he continues his words. "I love you so much... And I know you love me too. But to propose you... I just realized that it wasn't the best decision. I don't know what I was thinking but... After the proposal, you seems unhappy. You told me to give you some times. And I didn't think about it back then. But I should've known that you just feel bad to say no.... Don't get me wrong, I really... really hope you will suddenly say yes to me. But it would be nothing without your happiness." Josh can feel his eyes getting wet but he tries not to cry, or at least doesn't sounds like he is.

"You know... I always insecure about Taylor... That I'm nothing compared to him... Because something keeps knocking on my mind that you two aren't get over it. And I always scared to be the other person.... But I don't mind if he can bring you back. The most important thing is.... You can coming back for me. For Chad. And maybe for him as well... I... I know he's still got a thing for you when I saw him talking to you yesterday. I know how man is in love when I see one...."

"....and I can't lie that I'm so amazed on how he handle his personal emotions. To comfort someone that he love, knowing that she might married someone else. If I was him.... I don't know.... I might doesn't have the strength to face you."

When Josh about to say things again, a group of people come in so he hold it back and turn back. He see Taylor, Chris, Dave, and Nate. "Umm.. sorry, did we come in the wrong time?" Taylor notice the tears on the corner of Josh's eyes but he just smile and get up. "No... You just came in a right time. I... I need to probably get something to eat. Just make sure the Nurse doesn't see 4 of you inside the room. 2 person max."
"Okay... Umm... I'll let Dave and Nate first. Me and Chris will wait outside then."
"Alright. See you later Taylor."
"Yeah. You too."

After Josh left them, Taylor and Chris go out from the room and just stand in front of the glass in the waiting room. Looking in where Dave and Nate sit and seems to talk to her. "You still feel bad, don't you?" Chris looks at him, seeing that Taylor seems uncomfortable. "What?"
"About cheating on her. You still blame yourself, right?"
"Well... Kind of. I hope things were different, maybe... Just maybe I would still be with her and maybe these mess would never happen."
"No. You don't know that. This is new to us. Even for Chad. If no one could know why she did it, neither do you."
"I don't know... Chris. I feel like I gave her another bad memories that somehow contribute on her snapping like that."
"What do you mean?"
"I.... It was slipped my mouth and I said I still care about her... On the day Josh proposed to her. Maybe I confused her.."
"No, it can't be because of that. I'm sure a lot of things happened in her mind that day. Don't blame yourself." Right before Taylor can say any words again, both Dave and Nate leave her room so that Taylor and Chris can coming in.

"We're done. You two now can go in there." Dave's hand gestures telling them that he and Nate will go out to eat something. After they are leaving, Chris open the door with Taylor behind him.

Chris is the first to take a seat and put his hands on her arm. "Hey buddy. Sorry I can't visit you for the last 4 days. I owe you my caramel pudding later. That's how much I want you to wake up. You know how much I love that pudding, don't you?" Taylor actually happy to see Chris bring the cheerful vibe in the room instead of grief or sadness like these past days. He doesn't realize that he giggles a little bit. "Oh, anyway. Taylor is also here, if he bothering you, I can definitely kick him out. How about that?"
"Haha. Yeah sure, you can kick me out Shiflett." Taylor laughs and then punch Chris's shoulder a little bit. "Did you see that Sam? He even punch me. How cruel is that?"
"Alright, alright. I'm cruel? How about I'll bring you for a walk like a lil puppy? I'll take you to the Alison Conservation Park just across the hospital, I'll show you how cruel I can...."
"Shut up Taylor." Chris sounds so serious that it almost annoyed him. "Excuse me?"
"Sorry I didn't mean to be rude.. I'm just repeating what she just said, very quietly."
"Wait, are you serious?"
"I am! I'm still trying to figure out wether I hallucinating or not."

Both of them keep the room quiet and trying so hard to catch a sound from her. "I hear nothing Chris."
"I'm not joking okay.... Or maybe I was just hallucinating... Sorry."
"That's okay. I'm just.... I hope you actually heard something."
"Yeah. Me too."