Y/N
Choi Beomgyu.
The only boy that I've never thought would see breaking down right in front of me. The only boy that is known for playing with every female's hearts on the land then ditch them for another one. The only boy who doesn't cry; that's what people said. The only boy that walks the planet with that goddamn attractive face and let's add his mysterious and sexy persona.
He's the only boy whom I dared to date despite my friends' warnings. The only person that I never thought could have the power to change me without him noticing. I noticed me changing. I noticed myself changing slowly.
He changed me. I always knew that but it never came to my mind that I have the capability to change him from his old ways. Until his friends told me that they noticed a new Beomgyu.
Of course, I didn't believe that bullshit because hello? This is Choi Beomgyu we're talking about, he's never capable of changing and I'm just Y/F/N, just some girl from his list, just some girl to be left heartbroken by him.
Until I noticed it too. Beomgyu did changed. He changed because of me, he changed for me.
But the time he changed, it was too late. My feelings that I felt for him before already faded away. The spark that I feel everytime I held his hand died. There were no colors coloring my cheeks everytime he compliments me. Everything. Everything is gone.
I see his eyes, it's glistening with tears. His eyes emphasized the utter sadness he was feeling, his lips quivering, unable to stutter a single word, his face that spells nothing but melancholy.
"B-but why?" he croaked, slowly holding my hand. "Don't you love me anymore?"
I pulled my hand away from him. I sighed. "Not anymore."
"But I changed... for you." he said those words with complete misery that just makes me want to take back every word I said to him, the way he said it makes me just want to tell him that I was just pranking him, that everything I said is just a joke.
"Y/N... please... let me make it up to you. I know I haven't been treating you like I should've treated you these past few months and it's just so stupid of me to do that. I realised that now. Please..." he said with tears now falling from his eyes as he pulled me into a hug.
He's making it hard for me. For him. For us.
"Beomgyu..."
"Please let me be the better man for you, Y/N... Just don't leave me, please." he cried, burying his head on my shoulders.
I tried to pull away from Beomgyu but no matter how hard I try, he won't let me go.
"Beomgyu... let me go, please..." But what I said just encouraged him to hold me tight, never wanting to let me go.
"Please don't leave me..."
I sighed and finally grabbed the chance to pull myself away from him. When I looked at him again, I finally saw the Beomgyu I never thought that I would ever see.
"Y/N, why?"
I gulped before answering. "You want to know why? Why I don't love you anymore?" I'm starting to raise my voice and my tears are daring to. I paused before answering. "It's because you've never been there for me. Every time I need you on my side, were you there? No! You didn't!" I sniffed.
Fucking tears.
"And yes you're correct, you've been treating me like shit for these past few months and that just makes it worse! Sometimes, I even wonder why did I even dated you in the first place!"
"Y/N..."
I hung my head and more stupid tears fell. "Everyone I know are against us. My parents always tell me that you're not the one, my friends tell me that you're that kind of guy that you date before you know the one you will end up with forever. They talked shit about you but I defended your name because I fucking love you! But what did you do? You did nothing, Beomgyu! Fucking nothing!"
I said what I truly feel. I finally said to him my feelings that I've always wanted to get out of my chest and now that I've told him... I don't know whether should I feel relieved or what. Gosh, everything's so complicated.
"You were never there, Beomgyu. You never were." I said. "And now you know the reason why."
I gathered all the strength that I had inside me to turn my back on him and walk away, leaving him there standing alone at the football field. I knew Beomgyu before I dated him and when I started dating him, I thought he will leave me heartbroken just like his ex-girlfriends but it turns out, the result is opposite. I left him heartbroken.
AUTHOR-NIM
Beomgyu was never there for Y/N. That's what she said because she doesn't know the full story, she hasn't tackled Beomgyu's side of the story yet but it seems that she'll never get to listen to his side.
What Y/N doesn't know is that Beomgyu is always there for her. He's always been there.
A/N: short but there will be a part 2 yall so don't worry :3
anyway tHANK YOU FOR THE 2K READS HOLY SOOBIN'S WINK I LOVE YOU ALLLLLL!!!
