Stay Away

17- Little One

Manvi's pov:

"Maan...." I heard his voice.
I turned around instently and looked into his eyes. It showed a combination of expressions.... love, fear, happiness, and lot more. I was confused.

'What does he have to talk now? And why did he call me Maan ?....' the questions popped up at the back of my mind.
"Yes" I answered to break the awkward silence.
"I.... I ha.....haveeee something to..... tell you...." he dragged avoiding eye contact.
He looked down and I stared at the new suit I gave him that he was wearing.

"Yeah tell me Mr. Shah" I said sensing something new and uneasy. He looked straight into my eyes again and started talking...

"It had been 4 long years since you left my life. You left me blank without any clue as what was happening. I tried calling you and texting you but all in vain. I tried through various sources but was unable to reach you. Maybe you felt fine after you left but things changed upside down after that for me. I felt terrible without you and even tried suiside few times...."

He stopped noticing my eyes widening a bit.... then he went on....

"Akshaya was the one who saved me every single time and gave hope that you would be back. Your memories kept popping up every time I tried to forget it. The feelings became hard. The most painful part was not knowing the exact reason why you left me and moved on. I tried hard to remember what I did wrong but failed. I lived a hell of a life for 4 long years without you being near me. Many meaningless days and sleepless nights......"

A tear slipped my eyes as I din't expect this from him at this time. I bent down my head to hide my tears but I knew he noticed it as he said....

"Please don't cry maan... I can't bear your tears... that was the reason I din't force you all these days you were here. I know you will cry as I talk about this. Even today I did only because Akshaya wanted me to ask it out." I looked up and noticed Akshaya looking at us from a far distance.

Bringing myself together I finally managed to ask....

"So what do you want now Vidyut?"

"I..... I want you to tell me the reason why you left me. So that, maybe I can correct it."

"Nothing is going to change after this. There is no use in telling you the reason now. Things won't change and I won't change. There is no possiblity for us to be back together."

"Maybe knowing the reason would releave me a bit. Don't you realise how difficult it is to miss my love even without knowing the reason?" He asked making it both sharp and soft at the same time.

Finally after debating to tell him or not I asked,

"Will you leave my life completly if I tell you the reason?"

All this time I kept my head down not willing to look at expression but finally after what I asked him I dared to look up at his face.
He was close to breaking down. Tears damming in his eyes.

"Seriously Manvi? You want me to leave? Leave you?" He asked and teares started flowing down his chin.
He looked straight into my eyes.... a hard and broken down look pasted on his face.... I was unable to look at him this weak and vulnerable. I had never seen him this way before.
I had only seen him to be brave and smiling.

My voice softened and I spoke. A voice which I had never heared before.

"Ok Vid.... don't cry. People may notice us" I said hiding my feelings...

"Seriously? Even now you are worried about people around us?" He asked which finally made me to say.....

"Okay fine. I accept. I am unable to look at you this way. I want you to be ever smiling." I said.

"How do you even expect me to be ever smiling when I had lost my entire happiness even without knowing the reason?" He asked.

After a brief pause I said....

"How do you expect me to stay with you after what you had done.... after how you made my life upside down.... after.... after what you had done to my little one?" I said in a voice little louder than the earlier. But I regretted telling him that. I regret how I said that out in a flow of emotions..... now I need to explain it to him..... to all of them...... my goddddd..... what have I done????? How am I supposed to explain it? Will they even believe it? Will he believe it in the first place???

I suddenly felt a great weakness in my knees and my head was spinning like anything. Things at the back started fading out. The sounds from the club were less and less audible. A complete blackness and silence was taking me up. All I heared before I fained in his arms were.....

"Little one?"

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Author's note:

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