I was told that I am kind-hearted, even if not everyone sees it
even if some people view it as a weakness
or naivety
but this kind heart does not come naturally or with ease
it was built from such strain and weathering
that over time it has sewn itself back up so many times that surgical precision is the only thing that truly comes inherently
being kind is not some flaw that was brought upon from a loving and safe household on my part
on the contrary it is formed by the lack thereof
the lack of steady meals and electricity
the lack of stability and contentedness is what has birthed this kind heart
given life to the constant attempts at giving others the benefit of the doubt even if it may come back at me, you see because others are worth it
others are worth the small heartache which in itself is simply not comparable to what this kind heart has had to endure to get here
i am not weak
this heart has strength
strength to endure not only its own endeavors but cary along those of others
no it is not natural, it does not come easily but is with a constant choice
a trial of reminders to keep others in mind and what their not-so-kind heart has also had to undergo
which is what makes this kind-heart strong
and is why i will not let the warnings and betrayal brought upon by others to end my kindness
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2019 Poem Journal
Poetrysome parts are written with more care than others. grammar is overlooked for the preservation of the moment. enjoy this journey, or don't, but this honestly is to be continued.
