the next best thing

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its the silence of not having any distractions

im left to think and my head is just so inexplicably sad

i just needed a distraction from who i am 

from everything

so i found a razor

i know how it sounds but i sincerely promise i have gone through all the stages, each harm free

but i guess its not the guy anymore

i just miss the me i was when i was with him

i miss not feeling so alone

and irrelevant

no longer yellow

so i found a razor

i needed a distraction from the world being so different 

from not being his yellow girl anymore

after all, maybe red is the next best thing

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