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Chapter 11: m

Chapter Eleven: M

The week seemed to drag on forever, it was lonely, it was hot and it was uneventful. With every excuse Louis got to talk to Harry it seemed to completely disintegrate as something else would come up. Zayn had been doing everything he could to keep Louis mind off of any dangerous substance and had been continuously pressuring him to pursue in his music career. Zayn seemed to be quite distracted lately also, with him constantly on his phone smiling cheesily Louis couldn't help but think that it could be Gigi that had kept him so focused on his mobile device. 

As for Louis he felt himself crumble at the fact that he hadn't  seen Harry was beginning to drive him insane, the green orbs of his that made him feel so fuzzy had completely disappeared from his life making Louis feel so lonely. It had began to dawn on him that maybe that test was wrong as much he hated to admit it, maybe he did have feelings for Harry, as stupid as it sounded it was completely plausible. Louis opened up his laptop and went onto chrome googling a test to see if he had a crush (Louis is me always resorting to tests online) seeing a bunch of results appear he nervously clicked on one of them. 

A sudden phone call interrupted his thoughts as the caller ID said 'Zayn', taking a final look at the quiz in front of him he picked up the phone, just wanting to see what he wanted so he could hurry and see if he liked Harry or not. It was killing him that he didn't know, all he wanted to do was just get this test over and done with, he was so sick and tired of the denial and confusion that came with his life.

"Hey Louis, where are you?" Zayn said, laughter erupting in the background, Louis swore under his breath remembering the boys night they had discussed a week ago. In all honesty Louis had completely forget, his mind being clouded with other things, "Louis? You there?"

"I'll be over in a second, just hang on" Louis replied and hung up the phone with a sigh, closing his laptop hesitantly and walking outside of his house, making his way down to Ethan's who didn't live that far away at all. The thoughts of Harry still clear in his head, ones that he wished would just vanish so he could enjoy this one night with his friends. As he came closer to Ethan's house he could already hears the laughs from inside, the fun and enjoyment they were having. Taking a deep breath he walked up the stairs to his porch, knocking on his door before opening it. 

"Hey L! Glad you could make it" Michael grinned and pat a spot next to him on the couch, the 4 of them were playing a video game, one that involved chopping peoples heads off and girls with breasts bigger than their heads, "We are playing this game E found in his brothers draw, his mother would be so pissed if they found out about this" 

"Probably masturbates to those girls on here aye?" Niall chuckled and grabbed a chip from the bowl of chips on the table, Louis sat down next to Zayn and watched as he intently watched the screen. Sighing softly to himself he grabbed his phone out of his pocket and went onto Instagram, scrolling through whatever was in his feed. He was definitely not in the mood for a boys night As the boys laughed Louis felt himself feel more and more dissociated with the rest of the boys, just wanting to disappear into thin air and leave.

"Fuck, marry, kill Louis. Ava, Chelsea and Candice" Ethan asked suddenly looking at Louis, he raised his eyebrow at the sudden randomness of the game. In all honesty he would chose to kill all of them, not wanting to fuck or marry any one of them. The thought of him not wanting to do those two options made Louis feel sick at the possibility of why he might not want to, "Cm-on Louis!" 

"Fuck Ava, because i already have" Louis chuckled trying to keep his voice steady and confident when in his head all he felt was confusion and fear, "I would most likely marry Candice, because she isnt that bitchy compared to Chelsea and yeah i would kill Chelsea. What about you Ethan? Fuck, marry, kill Ava, Chelsea and Candice?"