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Chapter 14: o

Chapter 14: O

Louis heart was beating fast, his hands were clammy and his throat felt tight. Walking up to Harry that day was something he didn't want to do for once, he suddenly didn't want to see his beautiful green eyes or the dimple that Louis wanted to kiss, he didn't want to see his perfect curls or hear his strong British accent.

What if he said no?

The thought was running through his mind, making him feel nausea, the trembling in his hands and the need for relaxation. Drugs. Louis shook the thought out of his mind, he didn't need drugs to cope, he could deal with a little bit of anxiety, it was completely humane to feel like this, you didn't need drugs.

As Louis got closer and closer he could hear Harry's laugh, he could hear his beautiful giggles through his ears, making him tense up. Clenching his fists nervously he looked behind him, seeing Zayn give him a small thumbs up in support making Louis only feel more nervous. Taking a deep breath he tapped Harry on the shoulder slightly, feeling the smaller boy jump and turn around, the scared look on his face being replaced with a smile.

"Hey Louis!" He beamed looking up at him.

"Hey Harry, can i speak to you?" He asked, Harry nodded and Louis watched as Will and Liam stared at him waiting for him to begin speaking, "... alone please"

Louis watched as Harry's friends walked away, patting Harry on the back slightly resulting in an eye roll from the younger boy. Louis began to feel sick at this point, his heart was beating faster than he had ever felt before and he didn't know if he could physically speak, too nervous to even say a word. Harry stared up at him waiting for a response, Louis feeling like an idiot for just standing there saying nothing.

"Are you busy Sunday?" He asked, looking down at his feet not wanting to see the expression on Harry's face.

"Yeah i am, why what's up?"

"I was thinking maybeyouwouldliketogotothecarnivalwithme" Louis said quickly not sure if Harry even understood a word he said . Looking up he saw Harry cocking his head slightly in confusion, probably wondering what the hell he just said, Louis took a deep breath, "Sorry, i was kinda fast then. Uh, there's a carnival this Sunday, about an hour away. It's pretty decent I've heard and apparently lots of fun- I looked at some reviews to see if you would like it. Sorry I'm rambling aren't i? Would you like to go with me, yeah that's what i am asking! It's okay if you don't. Completely understandable-"

"I'd love to go with you Lou" Harry grinned and looked down towards the floor blushing slightly, making Louis heart beat faster than it was before, "I can bring us some baked goods if you like? To eat while we are down there"

"That would be lovely"

"You like the muffins yeah?" Harry asked then turned red immediately after, "Not that i know what you order of course! Just because you gave me some that one time and yeah"

"Muffins would be great Harry" Louis smiled and placed his hand on Harry's shoulder to calm him down, "Bring whatever you like down, I'm happy if you're happy"

"Thanks Lou, 'm happy" Harry said and Louis sighed in relief, happy things turned out for once in his life.

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Louis took out the white powder sighing as he remembered promising to Zayn he'd stop. It's not like he will find out, he wasn't going to take as much as he did last time, only a little bit to help him get through the day. grabbing the slab of plastic from the bottom of his draw he placed a little bit on it, frowning before snorting it, frustrated at himself for not being able to keep a simple promise.