The Day (Diyue )

16: Trauma

Shen Yue's POV

It felt nice letting out how I felt but I also still very much had a heavy heart because I had to break the news to my younger sister when she was the most happy in her life.

A small knock is heard on the door and I mutter a come in and she comes in with porridge, a cute to when I felt sad according to her.

Dakjuk, didn't sound too bad right now.

"Dig in, You sounded so urgent though text yesterday sorry I couldn't get back to you quickly I was out with Kido"

A bright smile is on her face.. I couldn't hurt with such sad news... mom would want her to be happy and not break down like she had when dad left us when she was young.

She deserved to be happy.. I couldn't be the one to take that from her.

"It was nothing just me passing out dude to pregnancy but I'm fine and so is the bay , thankfully , I wouldn't want to harm Dylan's baby anyway"

She pokes my cheek playfully and it makes me smile a bit .. her silliness never failed to put me in a good mood.

"So was he just worried about the baby or was he worried about you as well?"

I playback his words from yesterday.

"You don't have to do this alone, I'll take care of you, don't hold this in, I'll be here to take care of you, you matter to me as much as the baby, not just because you're my surrogate but my friend , okay"

I force away the stupid smile that was wanting to come out with what he said.

He said I was never alone... no one had ever said that to me before ...  I mean besides my own family..

No man had told me that besides my... that man.

The pain that man had caused me was still prominent.. and I think it had scarred me.

That man had scarred the way I had viewed men.. and I think it wasn't okay.

Not all men were going to be like him, liars and selfish.

Dylan Wang was far from that, I knew that now.. but I also knew that I couldn't trust so easily.

I was use to trusting people easily.. and I don't think I was going to start now, even thought he had proved to me he was trust worthy.

I shake my head. Screw that guard I have up , it always reminds me that I need to have it up in order to feel safe.

You let your guard down with two men so far, stop.

I shake my head. "I HATE YOU"

My little sister face falls and she quickly rushes to me.

"Shen Yue, are you okay ??"

I nod swallowing the lump in my throat.

"I think I'm scarred, he mentally messed me up, every time I want to trust someone or let them in , I always think back to him"

I grab my hair pulling it a bit frustrated, why couldn't I let it go.

He said he didn't love me anymore and that he felt sorry for my mom.