(Diyue AU)
She had to do anything to make more money even if it meant giving in into her sisters absurd idea, even if it meant becoming a surrogate for the famous basketball player , Dylan Wang.
The day they found each other , they completed one ano...
A few weeks had gone by , to be honest I was keeping count much , every day I'd send Dylan a picture of me with the bump and he'd immediately ask the same thing , if I was okay and if the baby was going to his check ups.
To Dylan Wang:
Baby is okay , check up went well according to the doctor we are 16 weeks today and baby is beginning to move a lot more :)
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Dylan Wang: Amazing!! Can you send me a video , also how are you doing ?
To Dylan Wang: Baby is good along with surrogate
Dylan Wang: I asked about you, shouldn't over step seeing I was a dumb ass before you left I took out was I was feeling on you
To Dylan Wang: For the last couple weeks I've kept our relationship only surrogate , no friendship ... let's continue that way
Dylan Wang: What I feel for you , it took for you to leave China for me to realize , nothing will ever make up those ugly words I said , but I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to such an amazing woman, noona , you are a woman a broken man like me doesn't deserve , and you aren't broken ... you are the strongest person I've ever meet , you just need to heal yourself a little , who am I to tell you that huh? , anyway stay safe always , I hope you return safely... thank you for the baby bump pictures
"...So you do, wow.. go figure, you guys are probably together.. and have been this whole time, you guys have so much in common, broken families and are broken people, you two deserve one another, how do I even know the baby you are carrying is mine!"
If I was being honest those words stung still when I got to South Korea but it had been a over two months , and now I looked back and realize he wasn't wrong about one thing, broken... I needed healing, maybe that's why we were so close , Wu Dugu and I.. we were two broken people who shared the pain of having a parent who didn't care what happened to us.
But we were just two people who needed healing from those ugly scars those parents left us , after all we still had a good parent who loved us with their all.
We weren't lucky enough to have the love of two parents , but one parent who was there and loved us was enough.
I learned that after watching a small seven year old girl at a store.. she was telling her mother about how kids would make fun of her for only having one parent and how it didn't bother her.
Because maybe she didn't have one parent but she did still have a parent who loved her the same amount two parents would which meant she was luckier... and didn't hate her father but loved him even thought he left and didn't deserve her love.. she still loved him from afar , he was still her father.
I cried , as I ate my ramen.. those words a small child truly hit home.. and it gave me an epiphany.
If a small child didn't hold grudge over her parent that neglected her.. I didn't have to necessarily have hate in my heart anymore even though that man had hurt me, I could just love him from afar and the good times we shared together.
And ever since that day , a weight was lifted of my shoulders , I felt like I could breath.
And Wu Dugu texted me last week, he said a part of him felt complete and he hoped if we could still remain friends.
Wu Dugu: Although my biological father isn't my father at all , I still love him , but I feels good to know I have another brother ... although we had feelings for the same girl , awkward.. lol anyway , hope all is well
To Wu Dugu: All is well indeed, I'm sorry for ignoring you , I didn't want to hurt you even more
Wu Dugu: Honestly you could never hurt me, I can't loose you .. besides I might've just been confused... I think I mistook what we had in common for feelings , I thought no girl could love a broken guy like me , let's stay friends.
To Wu Dugu: Don't worry someone is out there that deserves you, girl will love you with your past
Wu Dugu: My brother is an idiot he told me what he said to you , don't worry I punched him for you ;)
To Wu Dugu: You didn't have to punch him lol... there's nothing between us anymore , I just have surrogate relationship with him now that's all
Wu Dugu: Lies, when you return I want you admit in person you don't have feelings for him
To Wu Dugu: Surrogate relationship remember?
Wu Dugu: Donde fuego hubo, cenizas quedan, my telenovela said that the other day , it means where there was fire once , ashes remain.. meaning what you two feel could be revived again
I lock my cellphone unable to reply... I just what was I supposed to say.. that I was over him when I wasn't , I was trying so hard to remain only a surrogate , but It was hard especially what Dylan said today.
My stomach got butterflies, from his encouraging words... I didn't want to get attached , I've healed a little but I can't start a relationship with a man I'm only supposed to carry a baby for.
Why can't Dylan be like Kanye and Kim... where he had someone, that way what I felt hadn't happened , and I could just have the baby and move on with my life.
Why do I have to keep fighting what I feel, when it's become a lot stronger than before , I'll be honest I lie to myself everyday and shrug off that man's smile from my head... but then I remember that when all of this started I was simply wanting money for my mom's chemotherapy... now things we different I had gone to close ... to where I had feelings.. although the had said hurtful things I knew he didn't mean them..
He was hurt too, he had a painful past .. I wasn't the only one who needed to heal from all the pain... Dylan needed to heal to.
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What a chapter huh?
Next is going to get better :)
Only a few chapters left... till we part ways with The Day formerly known as Mr.Basketball player
