CAPTURE>>Why don't we

CHAPTER SIX: HOME

BILLIE'S POV:
A couple days later jack and I are discharged from hospital. Our parents are in the ward packing up the rest of our things while jack and I have stepped outside to have a word.

B: well...I guess this is it
Ja: no it's not, we are staying friends of course
B: jack
Ja: yeah
B: I meant this is it for the hospital
Ja: ohhh...it's the uh...medication...it's making me all droopy
B: mmhhm I'm sure. Hey...you never did tell me why you were really in here
Ja: I did! My ab-finder-
B: jack!

He looks down trying to avoid eye contact, I grab his hand and gently lift up his chin so that he looks at me

B: if you can't trust me then...who can you trust
A small smile forms on his face

Ja: kidney transfer...it was pretty bad. I was fortunate enough to get one before...I...you know
B: I'm so sorry, I had no idea
Ja: I'm fine! Come gimme some sugar
B: I worry sometimes you know
Ja: haha I know you love me
B: true

He holds me tight in his arms and I never want to let go. I feel so safe and guided with my face buried in his broad chest.

M: you ready to go honey ?!
B: just a second mom!

He takes my hands into his and I can't help but smile which is rare because I don't do that but Jacks special

Ja: promise me you'll call me as soon as you get home?
B: yeah I will
Ja: promise me!
B: I promise

We both giggle. I want this moment to last forever. He reaches out and tucks my hair behind my ear and he smiles brightly at me. I reach up and play with his soft noodle hair

Ja: Do you see how much better it is with that fringe out of your face, I can see your face more clearly now and you've never looked more beautiful

I fight the urge to look down at the mention of the word beautiful but it's too strong and it takes over forcing me to look away as the memories slowly start creeping in

Ja: hey, don't you do that on me
He gently lifts up my head and in an instant the memories fade

Ja: I'm gonna miss my sweet cheeks
B: I'm gonna miss my noodle head
Ja: and remember...don't change, your perfect just the way you are and I love you just the way you are
B: I love you more
Ja: impossible
D: alright! Let's wrap it up
B: coming dad!

With one last tight hug I leave my best friend and head into the car. When I get home I collapse onto my bed with aches all over my body. I'm laying in bed thinking about Finneos, his birthday was a few days ago and I'm so bummed that I can't go visit his grave just yet, I'm still recovering and it's hard for me to move around. The tears start falling and I hug the large framed picture of him I keep on my bedside table. My phone rings and Jacks number flashes on my screen. I quickly wipe away the tears and try get my breathing under control- I don't want him to know that I've been crying

*call*
Ja: hello?
B: guess who
Ja: I can recognize that annoying voice anywhere
B: alright I'm hanging up now-
Ja: no! Wait...I was just kidding
B: not the funniest
Ja: it was just a little banter, I'm just bustin' your chops

Finneos used to say that all the time...he was always 'bustin' your chops' . I can't hold it in any longer and the tears start falling again

B: *muffles*
Ja: Billie? What's wrong?
B: nothing just...*sniff sniff*...my brother used to say that all the time
Ja: are you okay? You sound like you're crying?
B: I'm...*sniff sniff* fine
Ja: please don't cry, it's okay
B: is it?!
Ja: yeah!
B: no it's not! How could he just die and leave me like this, it's not fair!
Ja: Hold on, I'm coming over
B: don't be silly, you don't even know where I live
Ja: then tell me
B: no
Ja: why?
B: because I'm fine and there's no need for you to come over
Ja: you're not fine and you need me
B: I'm not giving you my address, I'm fine Jack really. It's nothing I'm not used to, I can handle it
Ja: your not fine and it's my job as your best friend to be there for you, it's my promise and I'll never break it
B: I know that and I appreciate it but I'm fine
Ja: I'm not taking no as answer
B: let's see how your gonna get to my house if you don't know where it is
Ja: I have your moms number don't I ?
B: wha...why do you have my moms number?
Ja: not important...see you soon!
B: jack!
BEEEEEEEP