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i watched her walk out making me groan, what is with me, how am i gonna tell her that
i groaned and ran my hand through my hair, why should i even care anyways
i don't have feelings for her so why should i care if she's hurt-
but i do have feelings for her and i do care and i do regret saying that
last night was something else
i've wanted to sleep with her since the first time i laid eyes on her, at first it was bc of how she looked but now it's not bc of her body or her beautiful look
it's her
she can say the wrong things at the wrong times but i guess she can be dis functional at times
i enjoy the way her eyes sparkle when she laughs, her smile when she see's bailey, the weird faces she makes when someone says something dumb, the way her voice can be so calm or soothing, how caring she can be and put people before herself, how quiet she can get at small things or get shy, the way her lips feel against mine, the way i wrap my arms around her waist, i just want her
i wanted to kill sophia the moment she told me matteo took briyana, i felt that same pain in my throat that day
she wouldn't budge to leave me when i told her to go and for a second, just a split second, the world stopped for me
she just wouldn't leave me there when matteo was coming
he could've killed me and took her again or killed both of us, she risked that just to make sure i didn't stay and bleed to death
i didn't care about me, or the gunshot wound, or making it out of there alive,
i needed her to be alive and come back to the house, not die or get hurt
that house was gonna explode at any moment and i needed her to get out of there but she just wouldn't go
after all this shit i've told her and how big of a dick i've been, and now is when i realize how cold i can be to her and that's why she can get quiet or rude at times
i don't enjoy being rude to her or a complete asshole, i was raised and shown to always be like that
my father would always take me to these private warehouses here in italy when i turned 7 and that's when i started learning everything about mafia
i met stephen when i was 13 at my first meeting with all the other mafiosos
when you turn 13 in the mafia that's when your capable of beginning to go to all the meetings and start doing missions
the first time i saw someone killed was when i was 14, and it was my mother
franco, he was the scariest and biggest mafioso until my father killed him
my mother was such an amazing and kind women, always disciplined me and would always show me right from wrong and how soothing she can be when i would get mad, she was the best thing until one day she was gone
