Too Fast For Love

Chapter 9: Promises

The guys had a break off tour for a little bit of time which was perfect because we came home in time right for my birthday. I was also 16 weeks pregnant now. I was starting to show a bit more now. I was sitting in the living room back at my apartment. Ember and Alice we're home as well, sitting on each side of me.

"So when do you get to find out whether it's a girl or boy" Ember asks rubbing my belly.

"I have an appointment on Tuesday" I say looking down at my belly and smiling. All I could think about was how well Nikki and I were getting along and how happy he was about this. Everything seemed like it was falling perfectly into place.

"I hope it's a girl, cause then we can take her shopping with us, dressing her up in the cutest clothes" Alice said happily. Then the phone started to ring. Alice got up and answered it.

"Here she is" Alice said handing me over the phone. It was Nikki.

"Hey babe, what's up" I asked.

"Wait what, I can't understand you" I added.

"Okay, I'll be right over" I finished saying, hanging up the phone. I already knew what was going on, but the girls didn't. I didn't want the girls knowing about Nikki's heroin addiction. It was already enough for me to know and deal with.

I left the house and drove down the street to Nikki. Once I got to their place, I knocked on the door. Vince answered it.

"He won't let any of us in. He's been calling for you" Vince said.

"He's been like this for like 3 hours now" Mick said scratching the back of his head. I walked down the hall to the closed door that Nikki was behind. I could hear him throwing and moving around stuff. I knocked on the door.

"Nikki, it's me. It's Kat" I said hoping he'll open up.

"Are you sure it's just you? I can't let them take me" he said getting closer to the door.

"Yes baby, I promise it's only me. just unlock and open up the door, please." I tried to hold back my tears. I hated when he got like this. It fucking kills me every single time. I felt that I wasn't doing anything to help or make him better, and that's all I wanted to do.

He quickly opened the door, grabbed me and shut and lock the door. He took me over to the small closet in the room and closed the door, letting in a little bit of light.

"They won't stop yelling. They are going to kill me" he said gripping onto me tight. He then grabbed something from the ground next to him. It was a knife. My heart started to race. Who knew what he was going to do with that knife, even if it wasn't his true intentions.

"Nikki, can you please put down the knife" I asked politely turning his face towards mine. His eyes were bloodshot from the lack of sleep. I could see the fear in his eyes as well. He dropped the knife back down as I held his face in both of my hands.

"Baby, you're safe with me. I'm going to take care of you, okay? I'm not going anywhere" I say trying to not let my voice crack, revealing how scared and sad I was. I had to be strong for him, for the both of us. He nodded his head as I helped him out of the closet and laying him down on the bed. I closed the blinds, only letting some light come in so the room would be pitch black. I laid down next to him and he moved closer to cuddle up with me. He lifted up my shirt, revealing my small growing tummy.

"I love you little one" he said kissing it. I smiled at Nikki knowing that I was able to somehow snap him out of his crazy, fucked up high. Before I knew it, both Nikki and I knocked out, him laying next to my stomach with his hand still resting upon it and me sitting slightly up on a weird angle.