Eccentric (Niall Horan)

Chapter 39

Im completely in awe with Niall. I almost run out after him. I make it to the door but when I look out the window, Niall is already on his bike and placing his helmet over his head. I open the door, running out and thinking that I could make it in time but all I see is the trail of dust he left for me.

Louis and whose ever car he brought is no longer parked in my driveway. I wonder when he had left. 

I could care less right now. Right now, Im thinking about Niall. I have mixed feelings about this. Im thinking that having feelings for Niall is a bad thing. But at the same time, I feel... wonderful about this. This is not my only crush, but I feel like its been a long time since my first crush.

Could this be just a crush? Or more than just a crush?

What hurts is that Niall wants me to stay as far away from him as I can. Thats the problem, I cant and I dont want to. I feel different when Im around him, I feel like a new me. And Ive come to a conclusion.

Whether Niall wants me to or not, Im not going to stay away. And nothing is going to prevent me from doing so.

Inside the house, the phone begins to ring. Im still in my place with my feet planted. I dont make a any kind of action. Im stunned, shocked, in the feeling of my liking? Is that how you would say it?

The phone stops, and yet I still havent moved. I dont have the energy anymore. All Im thinking about is the kiss Niall gave me. The sex he made to me. Ive never felt anything for anyone. Especially not anything like this. All I can feel are Nialls fingertips sinking into my skin. The way his cold skin turned warm after in contact with mine.

My phone rings, tracing me out of thought.

"Hello?" I dont even bother to check who it is.

"Century! Oh my god! I was worried, are you out of the house? Ive been trying to call you" Cassandra screams into my ear needing to pull my phone away for a bit.

"Well I'm fine, if you are wondering. But yeah I am out of the house, infront of the house actually. I wanted to be outside" I explain making my way to the backyard. Now im just realizing that it really is cold outside. And with just a flannel, it doesnt help at all.

"Oh why are you outside?"

"I wanted to practice my dance outside" I say quickly.

"Oh arent you cold? Its freezing here, isnt it over there?" I can hear her teeth gritting on the other line. 

"Uhm its pretty chilly, but with all this excersizing, I would care less" With Cass, it makes it harder for me to lie with her. I can pull it off with Jason, since he is the most oblivious person on earth. But Cass is the mother of the house, not even Dean who was great at lying was he ever able to lie in her face. Its a little easier over the phone.

"Oh, you sound like your shivering, are you sure your not cold? Where a long sleeve" She suggests as I hum in response.

"Yeah I know, Im actually going to uhm head inside and eat something. Im starving" I walk through the back door, for no apparent reason but I do. 

"Oh okay, honey. I guess Ill leave you to eat. We'll be back tomorrow night okay?" I hum again. We say our goodbyes and once the phonecall has ended, I place my phone on the island table and walk straight upstairs and into my room. 

Opening the door to my room I look at the scrunched up sheets. Nialls face is still in my eyes. Memories of last night still pop up in my head. Since the moment that I saw him again earlier today, I havent stopped thinking about it. All this had started because of when Jesse had called Louis to come and see me. Im still wondering why in the first place she had called them?

Why was she crying?

Why did she do this?

I shake my head and thoughts and sit down on my bed. I pull on the sheets ready to pull them off when the smell of Niall reaches my senses. Smoke, and the liquour I had pulled out last night are still fresh on the sheets. How did so much happen this week. And it wasnt even during the week, its the weekends. 

Quickly I grab all the sheets and run downstairs into the laundry room. Shoving them in the machine I make sure to clean up the living room after last night. 

Once Im finished I jog back into the kitchen and grab my phone. I look through my list of contacts, searching for Maya's name. I find her and begin to call her. after about five rings, she answers.

"Hello?" Her voice sounds different. She probably doesnt even know whose calling her right now. Her voice sounds rough, husky. As if she was just...

"Hey, its Cenury" I say into the phone and hear rustling on the other end. 

Maybe I called her during the wrong time.

"Oh my god Century!" Her voice is high pitch as she screams. 

What is it today? National scream in the peoples ear day? Im probably going to be deaf after this.

"Hey" I sit on a stool beside my leg. 

"Whats up?" Its becomes completely silent.

"Uhm I actually just needed someone to talk to. Its that, alot has happened ever since you left" I almost tear up. And hearing her voice now, has completely changed from when she had first answered.

"Oh yeah, sure of course tell away" She says. And I do. I tell her exactly everything from the day before she had left. From all throughout the week, the reason why Im alone in the house right now. She listens to me, not interuppting and speaking unless I ask her a question. Maya knows everything now. And honestly I feel like I can trust her. She knows what has happened with Niall, the intimate moments. She gasped when I told her but she payed attention.

"So wait you werent, a virgin?" Why do people expect less from me. 

"No, I wasnt" I choke out making it barely audible.

"I hope you dont mind me asking when had it happened?" Amd I ready for this? Should I tell her, I mean its not like she would be the only to know it.

Jesse is the only other person that knows, but we arent in good terms right now for some reason. 

"I uhm, when I was thirteen"  I get up from my stool and walk towards the living room. I sit on the couch and lay down, waiting for Maya's response to all this.

"Are you serious? Thirteen? What the hell were you thinking about?" She sounds angry, and I can tell that she herself has also moved from her previous position.

"Look Maya, its not exactly the way you think it is" I cant seem that I will be able to explain. Im choking on my own words. 

"Oh" Is what I hear Maya breath out. "I didnt realize" Her voice is soft and heart-warmimg. I feel the chills run down my spine as she says so.

I close my eyes and cover them with my hand. I can feel the tears filling inside and the lump beginning to build inside my throat. It was such a horrible experience that sometimes I wish I could take it all back.

"Im sorry" Maya says through the reciever just as the very first tear spills from my eye.

"Its ok" I cry softly. Now covering my face with my arm. Im very grateful that Dean had found someone like Maya. Shes so understanding and an attentive listener. She hasnt judged me and sadly I sort of did when I first had met her.

"What happened?"