Eccentric (Niall Horan)

Chapter 37

Given the fact that Louis wants me to have nothing wih Niall whatsoever. He still wants us to be at peace, especially since he practically knows and saw what happened earlier. 

"Do you like me?" I ask him causing his head to turn and look at me dead in the eye. My question took him completely by surprise.

"What?" He questions.

"You said it was he same mistake, and well every girl you always seemed to like. And also before you had mentioned that you were jealous that I was riding with Niall" He had said it and he knows exactly what im talking about.

He nods slowly. Smiling a bit, but trying to hide it. As much as I want to, I would have liked to be happy right at this moment, and it isnt. Why? Im not sure, all thats happening is so confusing.

"You dont look very pleased" His face is full of worry. Scared that I might not like him back. 

"Its not that, Im just shocked" I confess, half of it being true.

"What is there to be shocked about? I thought you already knew?" Its his turn to be shocked and honestly. I might have gotten the hint, but I really didnt think it was that improtant until he admitted it.

"I uhm..." I scratch the dead skin on my wrist gulping loudly and afraid that Louis might have heard it.

"Look Century, I do like you really. I think your beautiful and the most amazing girl Ive met so far. Everytime I see you, theres a smile on face and I know that I will be able to hang out with you and just being around you is heartwarming" For some reason his words dont affect me, they're not sending my butterflies flying in my stomach. 

"Did you tell that to the other girls that you liked?" Louis frowns as he sighs. 

"No, I never actually talked to them. They never gave me the chance and besides they were with Niall. They were up all in Nialls situation they never saw the outside world" Im hearing someone elses words. Thinking of someone else as Louis tells me his feelings for me. I feel like a complete jerk. Louis has always been kind and funny, and whats even worse is that he doesnt know of what Im thinking about.

"And that face you have is giving me signals that you dont feel anything for me. Do you?" His eyes show hope for a moment, but it quickly disappears like that.

"I honestly and truly have no words to say to you" I continue to pick on the dead skin on my wrist, becoming more nervous and uncomfortable 

Louis nods, looking away and at the steering wheel. He's understanding of what I feel. Comprehending that there is no way or form to change my feelings. He has already lost hope, and now I do feel something. I feel completely and utterly guilty about this.

"What did you mean by that this time its different?" It all seems that now everything Louis says, Im not able to understand.

It takes a while for Louis to look up from the steering wheel. I know he's upset, and that he is trying his best to try and hide it but it takes him an even longer time for him to finally come up with the words and answer me.

"Your different. Thats what Im trying to point out. You have your whole life ahead of you, you have already planned your future, you have eveything under control and with Niall in your way it'll ruin everything. He will do it, unintended or intentionally. Thats what I am afraid for. Your to good to be destroyed into bits by someone like him. Especially by someone like him"

"What did you mean by he is finally realizing?" I feel like we are in a position of a student and a teacher.

Louis takes his time again. Glancing at me a couple times and his Adams apple bobbing in his throat. Every now and then I can tell he is looking through the rear view mirror as if he is waiting for someone to come. Or afraid that someone might come.

"He is finally realizing of what he is capable of doing. I saw it in his eyes, he is trying his best to stay away from you. He knows you have done nothing wrong but he cant help but bring himself back towards you" He stops ready to say something else, debating if he should or not. That is until he finally comes to his senses and says the words I never thought I would hear.

"I also cant help but think, that he has begun to develop some feelings for you too. The same feelings I have fo you" There it is. How can I not help but feel happy. My insides are boiling just thinking that someone like Niall, can like such a person as myself. Now I dont know what to feel. Happy? Sad? Worry? Freaked?

Its like all he feelings are jumbling in my stomach, making a mix of all the feelings you can ever feel and make a new feeling out of it. What will it be called, I dont know but these feelings bursting inside me isnt making it at all better for me. 

"There is something you should know though" Thats the other thing I was looking for. The statement that was going to make this situation worse. Its also the comment that Louis will try to prevent me from changing the thoughts I have of Niall.

"Niall, he has a lot of secrets we all know that. But he has one certain secret that I need to tell you" He looks me in the eyes. This is definetly not what I was expecting. 

"What is it?" If he wants to tell me why is it taking him so long.

"He will most likely kill me for this, but you see-" I hear the sounds of an engine roaring. A motorcycle. I looke out the back window and see Niall making his wheels screech as he hops off and storms his way to Louis' side of the door. He opens it and pulls Louis by the collar, taking him out of the car and then pushing him back against it.

"You think you can just tell everyone about me huh?"

"Niall!" I shout to him and run out of the car to them.

"What makes you fucking think you can tell it to her!" Niall shouts in his face.

"Niall!" I shout again and grab his tensed arm. He changes his mood immediately. He lets go of Louis. Pushing his arm into my hand. Its cold outside and his skin is cold as ice. How hasnt he gotten sick, or frostbite?

"I fucking told you things because I trusted you!" He growls. He makes sure to emphasize the word trusted. Past tense and I know that Louis didnt miss it.

"I didnt tell her" Louis breathes massaging his neck.

"Yeah you fucking didnt, I wouldnt have let you" You can see the fear in Louis' eyes. Its not the type of fear that he is afraid of telling me this supposed secret to me that will cause Niall to pound him. Its more of the type of fear that he had that made him scared that he knew Niall would already know that he's telling me. Afraid that Niall would lose his trust.

Niall then realizes Im still holding onto his arm. He's not the only one, I finally realize that I have been too. He makes no attempt to pull away. He's looking into my eyes with full emotion. He knows what I feel in this moment too. I can pracitcally feel his heartbeat through his arm.

"I thought I told you to stay away from me" He says his voice low so that only I can hear him. I let go intstantly and take a step back. His eyes shift and change with a different color. Its not angry, its more of sorrow.

"Dont talk to her like that" Louis says trying to walk towards me when Niall steps into the way.

"You stay away from her too. I dont want you near her at all" Niall says it like a threat. But what exactly is he threatening to do.