You were mine

Chapter 62

*The next morning*

You turned around and pulled the warm sheets over your cold body. You yawned and opened your eyes to the sun shining in your room. You feel a pair of strong arms wrapped around you and Zac snoring lightly behind you. You turn around and stroke his cheek. He wakes up and smiles at you.

"Hi." He said in a groggy voice

"Morning." You giggle leaning up to kiss him. Once you pull away he sighs and looks at you.

"What's up." You say sitting up

"What Lily said last night." Zac said sitting up reveling his toned body

"What about it. Little kids always want a sibling, but I kinda do too..." You say looking over at his face to see his reaction. He looked over at you blankly.

"You want another baby..." Zac said with a monotone.

"You don't?" You said your heart sinking.

"Well...we lost one babe and of course we were so blessed to still get Lily but we also lost another one and I don't want to put myself through that again and I'd always be having to watch out for you and worry about you because your carrying the baby." Zac said getting up and putting on a T-shirt

This angered you. You sat up even more and waiting for him to turn around and look at you. "So you don't want to have a another one for the soul reason of us loosing one. I know it's upsetting Zac but you can't just dwell on that for the rest of your life."

"I'm not saying that Y/n I want one I just don't right now." Zac said sighing in annoyance

"Because we lost one that in the moment Zachary you didn't really care about." You said looking him dead in the eyes.

"How could you ever say that." Zac said getting stiff

"Because it's true. You didn't care. I was in the hospital so that's what you cared about and I appreciate that but now you can't go back and morn about that just because our daughter wants to have a little brother or sister doesn't give you the RIGHT to go and say that's why you don't want to have another one." You said getting in his face proving your point getting angrier by the second.

"I DID CARE I can't believe you don't think I didn't care. You of course were the priority at the time I didn't want to lose you and the other baby which is now a perfect healthy adorable little girl-" Zac said trying to explain himself but you cutting him off

"Yes you cared Zac but you didn't that much to the point where you don't want to have another kid. What's the ACTUAL reason you don't want to have another one." You say trying not to get too mad at him to wake up Lily quietly sleeping in the next room.

"This movie deal....they just offered it to me....and I don't want to be the husband that goes and gets their wife pregnant and then leave for months at a time and not be here helping her." Zac said rubbing his eyes

"So when were you going to tell me about this movie deal?" You said loosening up slightly excited he got a part.

"I just got it last night and I was going to tell you but then Lily telling us that threw me completely off and part of it is the reason being worried about kissing them but also I don't want to be the guy that marries a girl, gets her pregnant, and then leaves for months on end shooting a movie and not being able to help you through the worst parts of the pregnancy. I'm already that guy that got his girlfriend pregnant and all the tabloids saying that I just married you because of the kid." Zac said rambling on. You sat the end of the bed until he finished and looked back down at you sympathetically and you grabbed his hand

"Zac this is good. Your not that guy and you will never be that guy. You got a part and if I get pregnant I'll be ok without you I can do it it'll be hard but I got Lily too but if you really don't want one we don't need to have one. But babe, what about after you get back from shooting?" You say rubbing his hand

"After I get back I would love to have one baby." Zac said smiling.

You smiled and hugged him standing up. You kissed him once and hugged him again. Once parting You say Lily standing there holding her stuffed animal in her hand. She ran over to Zac ad he picked her up.

"Morning sunshine." He said kissing her cheek

"Morning daddy." She said hugging him

You smiled and Lily ran downstairs. You looked at Zac and and said "that's the only thing I'm worried about."

"What babe." He said kissing your head as you hugged him

"When you leave, it's going to be really hard on her."

"She will be ok. I'm going to be gone for 3 months though which sucks but ill call you guys every night and I don't think we should tell her yet." Zac said

"Yea not yet and when do you go?" You said looking at his blue eyes

"In 3 weeks." Zac said moving the hair away from your face and putting it behind your ear

"I'm going to miss you so much." You said sighing

"It'll go by fast." He said

"Yea I guess." You say. You both walk downstairs and see Lily already sitting on the floor playing watching Micky Mouse. You started breakfast while Zac sat on the floor with her and played