If Loving You Is Wrong

CHAPTER 41

Toya's POV

It's going on two weeks since I moved down here with my new man kendal, and to be honest this was the best decision I could of made. The only issue that I really have is that he's always traveling to Atlanta, talking bout he handling business.

He was coming back home tonight from one of his so called business trips and I wanted to make sure I made him happy once he gets home. I decided to call up one of the cooks to come over and make all of his favorites. The only problem with this plan was that it was almost three o'clock in the day and I was still in bed.

Me and one of my friends from Orlando went out lastnight and I had a ball, It's been a minute since I went out especially for the fact that I had a young baby and a nigga at home who stop taking me out and looking at me like he was in love with me.

"DING DONG!" I heard the doorbell ring so I hurry bounced up out of bed to answer it. When I got downstairs to the door it wasn't anybody there just a big box and I didn't know if to open it or not so I just tried lifting it up inside but I couldn't. It wasn't until I felt moisture on my hands I realize what it could of been, I never screamed so loud when I notice what the moisture was.

My hands was covered in blood, and so was the front porch. I ran upstairs to get my phone and call the police.

"Hello 911 what's your emergency," I caught myself before I could say anything. If I was to tell them a dead body is outside on the porch of a known drug dealer's house how is that gonna look on me, so I hanged up the phone.

I called kendal to see what is it I could of done but his phone just went to voice mail. At this point I was afraid I didn't even wanna come out of the room, or even out of the house to move the box.

Finally my phone started ringing and it was a call back from kendal, "HELLO," I shouted with terror in my voice.

"Yo what the fuck you screaming for, damn what's sup."

"Just now somebody rang the door bell and when I went down stairs it was a box, baby I tried to move it and blood was every where I think it's a dead body."

He started laughing as if I told the sweetest joke ever, I just was on that phone more confused than a mother fucker.

"You think this shit funny kendal, I'm here by myself that could of been worse what if it was someone instead of just a box."

"You don't keep up with the news huh, well let me keep you posted member ya dude that was locked up you was calling up and texting before you came down here telling that nigga how you missed him and you can't wait for him to get out so y'all could be a family, well he out."

The only thing I could of hear was the call ending, I didn't know what to do or even worse if he was gonna do something to me next. Tears was streaming down my face because honestly I didn't wanna believe it was true and if it was I was gonna pack up all my things and leave before he get home.

I sent a text to Nickel's phone to make sure that it wasn't true what kendal was saying because I really didn't want to believe it.

I got no text back so I tried calling, the only thing I got was a operator informing me either the phone was off or out of range. I was starting to believe I was getting my karma for all the wrong I've done, including abandoning my four month old daughter.

This is what I signed up for, I know the lifestyle kendal has but I never thought for a minute he would bring it to me or get in involved. My first week he had me travel to Mexico to pick up a package, and trust me when I say, I got lucky.

I heard a car door shut so I ran over to the bedroom window, "No, no, that's impossible he told me he wasn't gonna be home until tonight," I started talking to myself.

I ran into the bathroom and turn on the shower, locking the door behind me. I pressed my body on the door while sliding down, I was scared and I know he wasn't gonna come home and act as if everything was going to be cool and all goody, goody.

"BANG, BANG, BANG," he started banging on the bathroom door and I felt every knock.

"Yo open up this door I need you to come out here NOW."

I got up and wiped my eyes because I couldn't let him see that I was crying or the fact that I was scared. When I walked out of the bathroom the only thing I felt was the hardest slap to my face which made my head jerk back hitting the wall.

"You really had me fooled, so this was ya plan all along huh. YOU A WHOLE FUCKING FRAUD BITCH, I should kill you right now for trying to play me."

I just stayed on the ground holding my face from the pain.

"Answer me, you was trying to have ya nigga rob me or something. Listen this ain't the same ken you remember from back then, things different now and if you think that shit you pulled is gonna get by you have me fucked up, NOW GET THE FUCK UP."

I wasn't moving as fast as he wanted me to so he started grabbing me by my arms with a tight grip for me to get up faster.

"Come here, this right here is mine all mine," he started running his hands up my night gown, "believe me if you didn't have good pussy the way you do I probably would of had you killed but nah I grow to love you and at this point you belong to me, you ain't got no fucking place to go so if you had it in your head get it out now, YOU HEAR ME," he raised his voice a little louder.

I started shaking my head in agreement, "Nah open your mouth I wanna hear you say it."

"Yes I belong to you, I ain't going no where."

He gripped me by my neck and pulled me in for a kiss but stop, "so you got any more secrets you wanna tell me because if I find out anything else you dead."

I swallowed hard, if I ever wanted a opportunity to tell him I have a daughter I think right now should be that chance, "No we good."

I couldn't find the words to tell him and I didn't want to because what if he put my child's life in danger all cause of me, so instead I decided I wasn't gonna tell him.

"Ight then now come on let's take a shower I wanna get some of that in there," he continue rubbing on my spot. "Oh by the way I didn't kill dude, I got a friend in the morgue who let me take the body. I guess someone else wanted your nigga dead cause they did the job before me."

Who would want him dead, well I mean that was a dumb question as to who considering he was in jail for murder.

Kendal got up to run the shower so I just sat on the bed to try and get myself together before I went into the bathroom with him. I felt a vibration on the bed from his phone going off so I picked it up to give it to him but I couldn't help myself once I saw the name.

Jessie:  "I miss you so much baby, can you hurry come back your son keep asking for you😩❤️"

It couldn't of been possible that he was cheating on me with Nick's sister, I couldn't believe it, I just didn't want to believe it.

To be sure I unlocked his phone and went straight to his messages, I kept peeking in the bathroom making sure he was still in there. When I opened the contact messages and see that it was Jessie the phone slipped straight out my hand.

I was shocked, I was hurt, I felt manipulated, this man told me kids couldn't fit his lifestyle, that he didn't want any kids but he got a whole son he's hiding with my ex's sister and to top it off he brought a dead body to our door step of the man I was deeply in love with just to tell me if I ever leave him he would kill me.

I wanted to pack up my things and just leave because none of this was making sense to me, I've only been here two weeks and he was already sleeping around on me. But what was more confusing was the fact that Jessie told me her son's father wasn't in his life but she texting my nigga phone about her son. Maybe he wasn't his son and she was only trying to put her kid on him.