THE SURROGATE: A LUKE BROOKS FAN FICTION

CHAPTER TEN

"Darcy please! I'm begging you! Please, please, please, please, please do not make me do this!" I pleaded with her as we edged closer and closer to the house. "Just tell me why!" she asked, sounding frustrated. "Why don't you want him to know how you feel?" she asked, suddenly calming down and looking at me. With a deep, long, sigh, I closed my eyes and told her, "Because... its just, what if he doesn't feel the same way about me? What if me doing this, just completely screws up our entire friendship?" I asked, fighting back tears.  "Aww..." she said, sounding sympathetic, "I completely get where you're coming from" "So I don't have to do it!?" I interrupted her, feeling hopeful. "You didn't fucking let me finish!" she wasn't sounding sympathetic anymore "I get where you're coming from... But you will never know how he feels about you, unless you confront this now!" she said, briefly taking her hand off the steering wheel, and placing it on mine. "You suck!" I said childishly, folding my arms over my chest and angrily looking out of my side of the window, and deciding to give her the silent treatment. "Can we at least go for ice cream? To calm my nerves?" I asked her with my arms still folded over my chest; so much for the silent treatment. "And risk you running free? I don't think so!" she said full of sass, "Plus, we're almost there!" Words cannot describe how pissed off I was at her at the point right there! I was pissed to the highest level of pisstivity!

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"Luuuuukkkee!" Darcy screamed, running ahead of me into the house, "Bella has to tell you something!" she screamed, not even giving me a chance to get into the house. "Where is she?" I heard him call from inside; suddenly I couldn't move. I could not bring myself to go inside that I house, I just couldn't. The fear of rejection was too great and had consumed my body. "Okay!" he screamed as he came outside. Sweet baby Jesus, I have never seen Luke look this fine before! I mean, he looked normal, but fucking hot at the same time. He was wearing a swim trunks and, of course, he was shirtless; usually, Luke does not walk around shirtless, but when he does, dear Lord I take in every breathtaking second of it! My eyes traveled down every inch of his torso as my mind ran wild with thoughts. The hardest part for me is always resisting the urge to just grab whipped cream and lick it off his abs. And his hair... holy hell! His hair was all curly and wild, exactly the way I liked it! Damn it! Control yourself Bella! 

"Hey Bella! Why are you standing out here?" he asked, wrapping his arms around my waist as he hugged me. "Can you just hug me longer? I don't want to let go yet!" I said, inhaling his scent, he still smells amazing! "Yeah, sure, but you have to tell me why you're standing out here" he said, giving me a kiss on my head, melting my heart at the same time. Moment of truth time Bella. 

"Okay..." I said, releasing myself from the hug and nervously tugging my hair behind my ear, "I have something to tell you" I started exhaling deeply and looking down to the ground. "What is it? Bella what's wrong?" he asked as he lifted my chin up with his index finger so that I was looking up at him. I could see the concern in his eyes, I could hear it in his voice even! Was I really going to do this? What if I just make things awkward between us? If I do this now, will things ever be the same? I kept on asking myself all these questions... And then Darcy's words rang through my mind "You'll never know how he feels unless you confront this" I hate it when she's right! Fuck! 

"Okay... What I'm about to say is going to change things either for better or for worse..." I said as I lead him to the bench in the garden. "What? Are we getting married?" he laughed, in an attempt to lighten the mood, but I just couldn't bring myself to laughing. I'm nervous as hell. 'palms are sweaty, knees weak arms are heavy, vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti' Eminem rapped in my mind. every word to that lyric, aside from the vomit one, was true. I swear I could hear my heart beat, beat, beating away. 

"uhm... okay I'm just gonna come out and say it!" I said finally giving up and closing my eyes, "Luke, I like you!" I said shutting my eyes tighter, and I felt his hand on my shoulder, "I like you too!" was his reply. "I don't think you get what I'm saying" Okay Bella, deep breathe I kept telling myself, fuck it! I'm telling him now! No more delays! "What I mean is... Luke, I think I might be in love with you" and I shut my eyes even tighter if that were possible. There was a long awkward silence that followed; I opened my eyes and looked at him. When I looked at him, the look on his face was sort of unreadable; it was a look of pure shock, and in a way disgust at the same time.