THE SURROGATE: A LUKE BROOKS FAN FICTION

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

Darcy and I stayed in Jai's room for a while, just talking and catching up, before we decided to go downstairs. At first I was a bit scared to go downstairs because I had no idea what I was going to be walking into. When I got downstairs, I witnessed the most surprising thing; Nicholas and the Janos were actually getting along! They were in the middle of a game of Dare or Dare, and from what I gather, it was Nicholas' turn and he had to run head first into the wall. 

"Hey babe!" he said to me after doing his dare, and he put his arm around my shoulder as he gave me a wet kiss. "Having a good time?" I asked, laughing at how ridiculous he looked. "The best time!" he said, "these guys are so cool!" he whispered loudly with his breath reeking of alcohol. "Okay, what have you guys been giving my boyfriend to drink?" I asked jokingly, only now realizing that almost every Janoskian had a bit of a buzz. Nicholas was by far the drunkest one in the room; he could never hold his alcohol, so it wouldn't even surprise me if he was the first one to get drunk. "Oh nothing... Just a mix of coke, vodka, brandy, whiskey, tequila, and orange juice to balance it out!" Beau answered, and I stood there with my mouth wide open! "Is it possible that you even have a liver left!?" I asked them, my motherly instinct starting to kick in. "Possibly not!" Jai nodded his head. These guys were so wasted, it was no use trying to have any sort of conversation with them at this point. "Okay, have your fun, but we have to leave soon okay!" I said, looking at Nicholas, who had his eyes closed and a ridiculous smile on his face as he nodded; I was almost certain that he might have been a bit stoned too. "Darcy, are you coming home with us?" I asked Darcy as I spotted her helping herself to some alcohol. She looked at me like she was caught off guard, "Uhm, actually... I'm spending the night with Daniel" she said rather awkwardly. "Whoooooo! 'spending the night'!!" said Beau, loudly placing emphasis on the rest of the sentence. "They're going to christian this relationship ladies and gentleman!" James said in an American TV Show host imitation, throwing his arm around Darcy's shoulders. "Okay!" I said smiling. It was going to be very weird going home without Darcy; I don't think we ever spent the night apart while we were both in the same place. 

I sat there on the couch, not knowing what to do with myself, while everybody else had their own fun. "Hey Bella? Can I talk to you for a minute?" it was Luke who asked me this. I looked at him a bit surprised as he held his hand out for me. I took his hand and nodded my head. Holding my hand, he led me into the kitchen, so that we were alone, and away from everybody else.

"Its loud in there isn't it?" I said, trying to play off the fact that my heart was pounding against my chest. I was so nervous to speak to Luke alone, though I had no idea why. He looked at me, and he had this little smile on his face; I had to admit, that was the cutest smile I had ever seen Luke Brooks give. "What?" I asked, also smiling at him now. "Nothing! Its just I missed you a lot!" he said to me, as he opened his arms, indicating to me that he wanted a hug, and since I loved getting hugs from Luke, I gladly hugged him as he embraced me. We stood like that for a few minutes, neither of us wanting to let go. 

"So, what did you want to talk to me about?" I asked him as I had my head laid down on his chest and my eyes closed. "Oh... Yeah!" he said, starting to release himself from the hug. No! please don't let go! This was so nice! The voice in my head pleaded. "What I wanted to ask you..." he said, looking down and scratching the back of his head, "Uhm, how serious are you and this Nicholas guy?" he asked me, and instead of answering immediately, I decided to screw with him a bit. "Well, we're actually really serious. So serious in fact, that I decided I wasn't going to be a surrogate anymore! I'm going to have this baby and we're going to raise him or her together!" I looked over at Luke, who had just started choking on the beer that he was busy drinking. "You're *cough* going to keep *cough* the baby!?" he asked, still coughing away. I tried my best to keep a straight face as I nodded, "Yeah. we might even get married! We haven't went into too much detail on that" I continued, trying my best to make my facial expression match the word I was saying, but I couldn't! I just burst out laughing! "I'm just kidding Luke! The truth is, I'm not quite sure how serious Nicholas and I are" I answered him honestly because I could never actually lie to Luke and to lie to him now just felt wrong. 

He looked at me, and had a sigh of relief. "Do you love him?" he asked straight out, walking closer toward me. My heart nearly stopped beating; not only because he was walking toward me, but also because of the question he had just asked. The truth was, I didn't know the answer to the question at all, and him walking toward me the way he was, wasn't making things better. I opened my mouth to speak, but my words got caught in my throat when Luke's body was against mine and he looked at me with an intense stare. I swallowed hard, wanting to close my eyes, but being unable to for some reason. It was something about the way he was looking at me, I couldn't describe it, can't describe it. With his eyes burning into mine, the sounds around us died out, and the kitchen completely disappeared. It was just the two of us; his penetrating gaze causing something within me to move around, something I had never felt before. No it wasn't the baby or any natural bodily thing, this... This was something else. I needed to stop staring, I needed to break this eye contact before its too late.

"Before I answer that question, why are you suddenly so interested in Nicholas and I?" I asked him, blinking rapidly before looking away. Even with my eyes averted, I could still feel his eyes on me. "Why don't you want to look at me?" he asked, turning his head towards mine and trying to look at me again. I closed my eyes and breathed out of my nose before mustering up all the courage I had. I looked him dead in the face with the most defiant face I could come up with. When did this whole confrontation even become filled with so much sexual tension? This was supposed to be a friendly conversation. "There, I'm looking at you, now answer my question" I said, full of sass. 

He smirked and licked his lips before speaking, "I just want to know about the guy who has stolen my best friend's heart" he ended off, putting his hands on the counter directly behind me as he tilted his head to the side. Okay, I needed to grab hold of this situation right now, because I was getting way too turned on by all of this. "So, do you love him?" he asked again, his head straight now, looking at me. I hesitated, not knowing to how to answer the question because I didn't want to lie to him, but also at the same time I didn't want to give him a sense of false hope. Or maybe I just didn't want to give myself the chance to fall back into the never ending cycle that is my feelings for Luke Brooks.  

I realized that I had zoned out, and by the time I came back down to earth, Luke's face was ever so close to mine. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have a boyfriend! This wasn't right! "Before I answer, do you maybe think you could give me some space? I'm feeling claustrophobic" I said, placing my hands on his chest and attempted to push him to the back. He smiled at my attempt and instead of moving backwards, his head moved closer to mine and his mouth started opening. I wasn't sure what was about to happen, and I wasn't sure if I wanted it to happen. Just as I thought he was about to kiss me, he surprised me and made as though he was about to bite my nose. He laughed and backed up, leaving me completely confused. He stood back with his arms folded across his chest and a boyish grin on his face. Now he looked like the Luke I was used to. I was so confused by this sudden change; I wasn't sure if I liked it or not. 

"You were saying?" he spoke, drinking the bear that he had left on the counter. "Uhm, well, I think its still too soon to tell, but I think I'm falling very deeply for him" I answered, without thinking about it and without trying to even stop myself. I looked down as i tugged a piece of hair behind my ear, and I looked up just in time to see his grin falter a bit. My heart broke at the sight of it; knowing that he's even slightly upset always made me feel terrible. This time around, I was the one making him feel that way, and it made me hate myself. He put on a fake smile and walked towards me again. My heart started beating again, but stopped when he put his hands on both my shoulders. "Then in that case, I'm happy for you. For the both of you" he smiled, walking closer and giving me a long kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes upon feeling his lips. I didn't want him to stop, but when he eventually did, I was glad because in that moment, Nicholas came into the kitchen. "HEEEEYYYYY BBEEELLLLLAAAA!!!!" he said, running around me, "I'M READY TO GO, TO GO HOME!" I looked over at Luke and mouthed the words "I'm sorry" as I took Nicholas by the hand, and left.