THE SURROGATE: A LUKE BROOKS FAN FICTION

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

I was sitting in my car, driving at 80 miles per hour, my window was completely rolled down, the wind was blowing through my messy hair, the radio was on, though I wasn't listening to what was playing, and I had no idea where I was headed. I just needed to be alone for a while, so I've been driving around for the past 10 minutes, trying to find a place to simply get my mind in order. As I reached a red light, I looked down at my stomach, "Where do you think we should go?" I asked -by now, I was used to speaking to my stomach, he... or she, was the only one I could actually speak to- buht I felt no response, "Don't know where we should go either huh?" I said as the light turned green, and my eyes were back on the road. I took a sharp left turn, and decided that the beach would be the best place to go.

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I put my phone off as soon as I arrived, and walked down towards the sandy beach. The weather was fairly nice -it was partly cloudy, and the wind was blowing slightly- buht I liked the weather like this, plus, the beach was so to say empty -the only people on the beach were an elderly couple walking along the shore, a young woman in the ocean, surfing, and a dog walker walking his dogs- I found the perfect spot, it wasn't too far from the water, buht it wasn't too close either. I sat there, just looking at the calming waves of the ocean. Something about beaches always calmed me down, just sitting there, with my hands and feet in the sand, and watching the ocean, always put me at peace with the world. Suddenly, my mind was flooded with thoughts of what had happened earlier and the peace I felt, was now slowly draining my body. I sat there, with my hands on my knees, I felt the wind blowing through my hair, and I was beating myself up for being so damn stupid! How could I go out with a guy like Nicholas? "He was a right and proper asshole! He was disrespectful to your parents, he forbade you from having any contact with any of your friends, especially Luke! He took every opportunity he got to tell you how useless he thought you were, and you couldn't go anywhere, or do anything without him being there, and without him knowing first!" spoke the voice in my head as she counted down all the shit Nicholas put me through. I wasn't thinking straight when I agreed to date him, I wasn't thinking about my baby! -I looked down at my stomach and sighed- Maybe I rushed into that relationship to fast, "Or maybe you were trying to convince yourself that you were over Luke" the voice in my head spoke to me, and I tried to shake off what she said, buht I couldn't deny that maybe she was right. Back home, as hard as I tried, I just couldn't get over Luke, as the days went on, I could feel myself missing him more and more. I kept on replaying that phone call in my mind; "Bella, I love you" were the words that kept on replaying in my mind. For a second there, I actually fooled myself into thinking that there might have been a chance for Luke and I to be together, buht then reality hit; I'm pregnant, and what kind of guy wants a pregnant girl to be his girlfriend? I don't want to put him through all this. He deserves a girl that's just so much better than me, and who has less drama going on in her life, and well, I hope that he finds that girl one day, because at the moment, it doesn't feel like I'm that girl, Luke strictly sees me as only his best friend, and I should try to see him in that way as well. My mood was changing, and now I felt myself getting sad as the tears welled up in my eyes. I felt a tear rolling down my cheek, and that's when I felt my baby kicking again! Almost as if he/she was trying to say, "Don't cry mommy!" I rubbed my stomach and smiled. "You're right; it's getting way too morbid for my liking too!" and I wiped the tear off my cheek.

I wasn't ready to leave yet, so I decided to sit there for a few minutes more. I looked around the beach, at the elderly couple who was still there -the surfer girl and the dog walker had already left- I sat there, just looking at this couple in awe. They were walking along the shore, holding hands -they looked like they were in their mid 70s, both of them were wearing white shorts that went up until their knees, the husband was wearing a blue T-shirt with grey stripes and his wife wore a top with a pink jersey over it- though they looked old, they still seemed so in love. I couldn't help buht feel a bit jealous, buht at the same time, I felt kind of hopeful -hopeful, because maybe there was a chance for me to find love like that too- They were looking at each other in the eyes, and laughing and smiling with each other, they just seemed so happy! "Maybe there is such a thing as true love" I whispered to myself as I was getting up.

Before I left, I went to get myself a giant vanilla ice cream cone from the ice cream truck that was standing nearby -because I was having cravings- with Nutella and sprinkles on top. "So what do you suggest? You think we should go over to Luke and the rest of the guys?" I asked my belly as I got into the driver's seat and was switching my phone on. As if on cue, the baby started kicking excitedly, and to be honest, it made me kind of happy. "Well, we have to go there anyway; it looks like they need us!" I said as I was looking at my phone, and saw that I had 12 missed calls from Daniel! "What the hell?" I whispered to myself as I heard one the many voice messages he sent. "Oh My God Bella! Why aren't you answering your phone? Oh God, I have no idea what to do! The boys and I are trying our best, buht we fucking need your help!" was the voicemail, and he sounded distressed! Wasting no time, I started my car, and I rushed over to the Janoskian house as fast as I could!