Hesitate

Chapter 37

Zero POV---

I stare at my father, who once was the person that had all my trust. Javier, who was in my arms, started crying.
It was time for his milk, the nurse have told us before she left to make sure to feed them.

I began to panicked since I couldn't move because of my pain and I didn't wanted to have my babies starving. Just after Javier started crying, his little brother followed his action. It made me want to cry with them...and that's what I did. I'm a bad parent I can't even feed my babies with this condition.

"Hey, why are my babies crying?" Killian stood next to me.

" I can't feed t-them..." I sobbed.

"Hey that's why I'm here Zero, don't cry. Right now you can't breastfeed them but we can make them a formula " He smile at me, wiping my tears away, with his left hand while rocking Jonell with his right arm.(Zero does not have bobs if you are wondering that 😂 he still just like a normal man but his body can produce milk just like he can also get pregnant)

I guess my father was feeling uncomfortable with the situation. He just stood there without saying anything, watching us like if we were the most weird thing in the world.

"I will call the nurse, so she can bring the things.... are you sure you are going to be alright?" Killian asked me, referring about my dad.

"Yes just don't take to long, I'm afraid to make one of the babies fall" I told him. He smile at me and kissed my forehead as well the babies' cheeks, who were both in my arms.

"If you make him cry, I would not hesitate to beat you up. Even if you just got out of the hospital." I heard Killian said to my dad before leaving.

The babies were calmer than before, looking at me with curiosity.

The room was left with an awkward silence. My father still standing in front of the door, his eyes never leaving the two precious babies that were on my arms.

"It... are they m-my grandchildren?" My dad was finally able to said something.

"Yes... there are." I said not looking at him. I'm sure if I did, I will end up crying my eyes out.

I felt my dad move closer. I was about to look at him when I felt him hugged me. I wasn't sure what to do, so I let him do it without complaining about it.

" I'm sorry... I'm sorry... for everything I said the other day. I-I was scared to lose you. I-I already lost your mom... I lost your sister too. I didn't want to lose you." He said sobbing. I frowned at his statement.

"Even if you were afraid, you shouldn't have told me that. Y-you told me to-to kill my own children!! H-how do you expect me to forgive you t-that easy? Dad... I l-love you but y-you hurt me... I needed y-you at that time. I was also s-scared, I was afraid to l-lose my babies, afraid that I wouldn't be-be able to meet t-them." I left myself confess all my feeling as tears exploded from my eyes.

"I'm so sorry sweetie." He hugged me even tighter being careful not to hurt the babies. Gosh... how I missed him. We stayed like that for a few minutes letting enjoy each other company.

"Can I... hold them?" My dad asked broking the hug. I smile through my tears and nodded.

He carefully grabbed Javier in his arms. As soon as the baby was on his arms he let his tears out.

"I'm so sorry..." he apologized over and over to the baby kissing him all over the face making him giggled.

I giggle too at the sight. He then grabbed Jonell leaving me holding Javier.

He did the same to him, he apologized and kissed him but this time it was different. Jonell started crying, and I began to panic. I was about to tell my dad to let me hold my baby when the door went open loudly, raveling Killian,who was looking very angry, and Mr. Miller with my two best friends behind him, Lucas and Ivan.

"What the fuck did you do? Why is my baby and Zero crying? " He asked with a cold voice while grabbing Jonell from my dad arms. It been a while since I saw him that angry, last time was when I cried when a few teenagers had made fun of my baby belly.

"Kill--" I was about to call him but I was interrupted with the sound of a punch (lol I don't know if this makes sense🤣)
My eyes widen when I saw Mr. Miller punched my dad hard on the face. I could see blood falling from his nose. Killian was about to do the same thing but I stopped him.

"Stop Killian! He did nothing wrong stop!" I yelled, cleaning my tears.

"He did nothing wrong you said Zero? He told you to kill my grandchildren!! I don't even know why you let him hold them!" Mr. Miller yelled at me making me cry again. I hate when people yells at me...

"H-he apologized a-and he is my d-dad that's why I a-acepted his apology..." I sobbed. Killian made his way to me and pecked my temple.

"Shh it's okay... Dad don't fucking yell at Zero, you old man." Killian yelled at his dad.

"Who are you calling old man, kid!" Mr. Miller yelled making Jonell and Javier cry again.

"Stop yelling for godnesss sake!! If some dare to yell again I'm going to break their balls understand!" Ivan yelled making all people in the room go silence.

"Explain..." Killian said to my dad going back to his flat voice and plain expression.

"I came here to apologize to zero and you and of course the babies..." my dad responded looking guilty but still confident of himself.

"Why do you they will forgive you---" Lucas was interrupted by Ivan who pinched his arm making him whimper in pain.

"Be quiet this is none of our business. It's their decision." Ivan told him making Lucas be quiet.

"I know what I said before was horrible and I'm not trying to justify myself but I want to mend my errors I want to be part of Zero's life and if you let me I want to be part of my grandchildren's life too..." he said looking at us with pure honestly on his eyes.

Killian sigh.

"Is not really my decision...Zero have the word in this as long as he is happy I'm fine" he said, making me smile brightly at him. I was afraid that he wouldn't want my dad into our children's life but I'm glad that he doesn't think like that. I kiss his cheeks making him chuckle.

"This is your last chance to mend all your mistakes, dad " I told him.

"Thank you son." He smile brightly at us, I could the happiest in his eyes.

"Okay okay enough with this shit !! I want to hold my grandchildren too!!" Mr. Miller walked closer to us.

"Hey noo!! I want to hold my nephews first!" Lucas pushed Mr. Miller out of the way.

"How many time do I have to tell you, you dumbshit!! I'm the uncle" Evan said as he and Lucas began to fight over who was the uncle.

I laughed at the sight. This is what makes me happy. My family.

"Okay okay no one is going to hold them. Fucking idiots! We need to feed them first." Killian said to them annoyed with the situation.

"I want to feed them first" all the people on the room said making me and Killian chuckle.

Yup... this is what makes me happy. I wouldn't change anything. My best decision was to accept that bet.

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Hello !!
I hope you enjoyed this chapter feel free to correct my mistakes!!

So I have read my chapter all over again 😂 and I notice how I said that this chapter was coming to an end like for about two times 😂 I'm sorry I have made this book so long. There are still some chapter left... I want to make the ended good so i can satify myself and of course the readers !

Have a good day!

~ g maker 💚💚