Hesitate

Chapter 12

Zero POV-

We were sitting in front of Mr. Miller, he was looking guilty and sorry for something. The atmosphere was serious but I just couldn't consentrate with my stomach hungry so I decided to speak.

" W-well I'm going to the kitchen for a moment" I said as I stand up and walk to the kitchen.

I guess this is not about the deal then, if that was true then he would just say it. I was getting my milk for my cereal when i finally heard voices coming from the living room.

"What's going on father? This is about Zero right ? " Killian ask.

"Yes, I made a damn mistake and now both of you are in danger" Mr. Miller said making me feel scared.

"What!? I knew that you just didn't randomly chose him... But I will protect him I promise I won't let anybody touch any single part of him " I heard Killian say to his dad and with that all my fears went away leaving me with a blush in my face. I finished putting my milk and cereal to the bowl then I walked back to the leaving room. As I step back into the room both men turn towards me.

"H-hey..." I said waving my hands at them as I sit back next to Killian.

"Zero, I have something to tell you. Something that I did but now I regret" Mr. Millar began talking. I just nod letting him tell me what's going on.

"3 years ago I met a woman that I blindly fall in love, she was the sweetest person I met at that time I was confused and hurt... I discovered my wife was cheating on me with one of my bodyguards. She was amazing person, that was until I found out who she truly was but because of my "love" for her I decided to help her in her plans."

"Plans ?" I ask him.

"Her plans was a revenge for her son... That is you Zero. I met your mother when I was working with  another gang. She was engaged to the boss of that gang, I didn't know that until I saw her with him in a meeting. I thought that if I show her that I would follow her with everything I had she would love me back but that was so dumb of me and now because of me you both are in danger." Mr. Miller said now looking at me with his eyes full of regret. What did I have ever done to my mother for her to want revenge ? Most important what  does he means by helping her? Helping in what ?

"What do you mean? W-what do you mean by helping ? You h-helped her in what ?" I ask him anxious for what he was going to said next.

"I-i chose you for a reason that doesn't matter now because it's obvious you are not pregnant but you deserve a explanation. You may wonder why does she want revenge... Well she told me that she always wanted to have a baby girl, she was expecting with so much joy when the doctors told her that she was having twins and one of them was a girl but when the time came the baby girl died as you know and a part of her was in you... When your mother knew that she began to blame you for killing her daughter. As the time passed the hate for you grew bigger and bigger. When I met her again after I knew her true self she asked me to help her. She knew that I had a son that had night stand almost every night, so she asked me to kidnap you and make you two have a baby so she could do the same thing to them like "you did" to her baby girl." When he finished I was already with tears in my eyes. Killian saw me cry and he make a pouty face, I guess he was serious when he said he didn't want me crying again, as he started pulling me into his lap and hug me.

It wasn't my fault... I never wished to be born this way or that my sister had to died. It hurt me to know that my own mother think that way and I didn't even noticed it when we were living together... Maybe in a way she is right, I'm just a freak I should not even exist.

"Little one listen to me, that woman is wrong you were not responsible for what happened to you sister... It was meant to happen. There are things that we can't prevent and those things happen for a motive. Do not blame yourself, understand?" Killian gently caress my cheek making me look up to him and nodded. He is right maybe it was just meant to happen but it still hurts me that my own mother thinks like that.

"I'm truly sorry for getting you into all this mess, this goes for both of you. Because of my decisions you both have your life in danger." Mr. Miller said looking at both of of.

"I'm not sorry though... If you never did I wouldn't know you two... You wouldn't help me with my dad's needs and I wouldn't know Killian, I'm glad that you did chose me " I said honestly. If it wasn't for that bet I wouldn't knew my love for Killian and my dad's health would have been worst.

"Yes dad he is right, beside we have our ways to protect ourselves. " Killian said as he rest his chin on top of my head.

"That is the thing son, if she knows that I told you two her plan she is going to start a war between his husband's gang and ours... she also threated me to tell your grandpa my feelings for her. That can cause of another war between your grandpa's gang and ours.. I had promised him that I will protect your mother as long as I'm alive, eventhough your mother hurted me I still need to be loyal to my word, and now her life along with the two of you are in danger because of me." Miller said as he rest his head on his hands feeling tired.

"Then what can we do? " I asked out loud.

"For now, let's pretend that you two don't know anything... I want to find her before we do something--" Killian interrupted before Mr Miller could finished.

"I want to help too" Killian said. I look at him worry, I don't want him getting hurt.

".... Okay but we should talk about it later. It's getting late I should get going." Mr Miller said as he walk towards the door but before he exit he smirk and say.

"By the way, congratulations for you new relationship. I'm happy for you two." He said and walk out.

I was still sitting on Killian's lap when he suddenly picked me up and walked towards the kitchen.

"I bet you're still hungry! How about we make some pancakes? " He said while putting me in top of the counter(I think that's the right word?).

"Sounds delicious" I said smiling at him.

"Okay then pancakes it is" he said as he start getting all the ingredients.

"Killian... " I said looking at the ground.

"Yes? " He stopped doing what he was doing and walk towards me between my legs, putting his hands on my waist.

"Nothing bad would happen to us right? " I said finally looking at his eyes but with tears running down. I have cried a lot this day but I know that I'm a very sentimental person since I was little, so this is normal for me.

"What did I tell you about crying, beautiful? " Killian said as he kiss away my tears

"I can't promise what is going to happen in the future, because the truth is that... I don't know.  But I can promise one thing, I will try with my everything to protect you from whatever we are going to face in the future" I stare at him, for the first time I actually feel important and precious to someone.

The way he was looking at me make my heart beat fast. I started to lean in and he did the same. When our lips connect every worry and fear went out of my mind, the only thing that I was thinking was him. How I wish this moment last forever.

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I had a lot of time waiting for my appointment at the clinic so I decided to write a little bit more now that I'm better than yesterday... I hope you like the chapter !!!

Please understand that English is not my first language but I'm trying my best at improving it!

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