Hesitate

Chapter 8

Killian's POV-

Damn... I'm going crazy. I don't what happening to me. I really need a distraction that's why I accepted to see Jasmine. This days I been trying to spend less time with Zero and more time with myself because the more I'm with him just by seen him smile or just hearing him talking about how his day was, makes my heart beat fast ! I can't let that happen I only known him for a couple of days, but the real problem is that I'm not fucking gay. All my life, I've been  attracted to woman this must be a confusion.

Yeah that's what it is, I'm just confused. He is having my baby maybe that's the reason but for now let's have fun.

"Hey! you're finally here" Jasmine said. She is only a fuckbody like almost all the woman I've been with . We called each other when we want to fuck that's it.

"Yeah let's just start " I say beginning to feel guilty. I shouldn't have leave him like that. He going to be eating alone...

"Wow you're really romantic " she said. Why do woman have to be so dramatic?

" I'm not here to be romantic" I said as I started to unbuttoning my shirt.

"Looks like you are in a hurry. What the reason ? " Jasmine ask. God so annoying. Maybe I should have stay with Zero and talk more with him ....

Fuck it! Stop think about him.

"Let me help you forget about your problems "

Yeah I must forget about him.

~next morning ~

Fuck what time it is ?
I slowly start to get up when I remember about last night.

Shit I need to go! Where are my clothes!?

"Killian ? Where are you going? It's hella early right know"

Fuck it's 5 Am I didn't plan on staying all night. I need to get home.

"Killian answer m-" I quickly left without looking at her. I don't think he is still waiting he can't be that dumb ....right ?

I got to my car and started to make my way back to my house. Yesterday... I was still thinking of him while fucking her. I can't be falling for him already, right? I mean he is the sweetest boy with the most beautiful smile and with the softest voice, I have ever met. He is always caring towards everyone even if he doesn't know them. His eyes shine whenever we talk about his dad or puppies. And how I love to hear him laugh whenever I do something stupid.
He is clumsy but the funny clumsy it make my day more interesting... He just make me want to know him more and more. But I can't let my self fall in love with him for so many reasons. First of all I don't even know if I'm gay. He make me confuse myself !!

I guess he is already sleep. All the lights are off. I make my way to the house and open the front door and my eyes met with a beautiful sigh. This boy make me unable to stop thinking about him.

Zero was sleep in the couch with his lips sightly open and making soft noises. I guess he really is dumb. I slowly walk to him and carefully pick him up.

This boy...  how can I not fall in love with him when he is this cute. ?
I placed him him his bed and pecked his forehead before I leaving the bedroom.

I guess I can give it a chance ...
I hope I don't regret it.

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I may take some time to update more chapters because I don't have any idea of what the plot line should be.

For the meantime I'm going to write a new story !! Please check it out.