Untying a knot (falling in love): MATURE CONTENT

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"Alright class chairs tucked under stand behind your chairs" Mr Blake said which indicated the end of the lesson. I shut my books shoving them into my bag along with my pen, pulling it onto my back whilst tucking the chair I was sat on under the table. Emily returned to our table after placing a couple handouts on one of the many shelf's at the front of the class.

"Hey Mil, i Thought you and Luke could use a bit of alone time to talk about things openly. So I'm just going to go get some things done, okay?" Emily said quietly leaning into me.

"Thanks Em" I said smiling at her. I didn't know why but she just always had this ability of reading my mind and it was surprising. I did want to have alone time with Luke but I didn't particularly mind that much if Emily was there or not. But it would be nice i was on my own with him for once in a while.

Luke dismissed the class as I stood still behind the desk watching Emily join the flock of students filing of out the door. She turned back at me to give me a smile and wave before leaving the class. The door shut with a thud as me and Luke were finally alone.

I turned to Luke letting out a gasp of air that I didn't know I was holding in. I was just relieved I didn't need to act anymore, acting was tiring.

Luke strolled over to the door locking it shut before returning to his desk sitting down. He gestured for me to come over with his index finger like I was a small kid. His eyes were glued to the computer screen as he clicked around with the mouse. They glinted like chocolate from the light of the screen.

I obeyed Luke's instructions walking up to his desk taking a seat on the chair that was next to him.

"You okay?" He asked finally looking away from the screen to face me.

"Mhm" I nodded.

"Well..I gotta show you something" Luke said, a slightly worried look washing over him as he dragged his hands away from the keyboard placing them onto his knees.

I nodded once again whilst I watched him go back to the computer to his email inbox. He went through a couple folders checking each one till he reached one which was untitled. He clicked on it revealing that it was empty but for one email. He clicked on it as a new window appeared, and my heart stopped when I came across the name.

I snapped my head turning to Luke, my eyes widened. The Palms of my hands felt sweaty as I digged my nails into them.

"Read it" Luke said pointing to the email.

I quickly scanned the email, and what was written frightened me.

But who it was from frightened me more.

But what I was more frightened from, well wasn't by anything but I was scared out of my mind for Luke. And I was now uncontrollably shaking.

The email was this;

TO: MrLBlake@**********university.sch.uk
FROM: HussainBegum606@yahoo.co.uk

You little dirty perverted psycho.
Your going to pay big big time for marrying Millie. Your going to be so sorry for even touching Millie. Your going to wish you were never born. Last time I caused you only a head injury, oh but Blake I can do much much more than that. Much worse. Much worser. I won't leave you with a single bone not broken. I will hurt you so bad you won't even be able to keep your eyes open. You'll be struggling to breathe. You won't be able to move.
You will be done.
Finished.
And then Millie will be mine.

"Luke.." I let out. My voice had been reduced to a hoarse whisper. My throat was dry and my head was suddenly pounding just begging that this email was fake. That this wasn't real.

Cause I couldn't stand to see Luke get hurt any longer.

"Millie, Millie no, it's okay" Luke said holding me close to his chest. I didn't realise I was crying till Luke was wiping the tears that had made their way down my face. I clung onto him sobbing, like a baby would do to their mother not wanting them to leave. Instead I didn't want Luke to get hurt. I didn't want him to have to go through anymore pain. Both emotionally and physically.

"Luke no..I don't want him to hurt you..I don't you to be hurt anymore..I don't want you to go.." I cried pathetically.

"Sweetheart no" Luke said, the pet name he'd just called me instantly calming me. "I'm not going anywhere, never. I'm always going to be here by your side. No matter what the hell happens to me. I'm never ever leaving you for anyone or anything, I promise" Luke said playing with my hair. His soothing voice making me relax and finally control myself. But my tears were unfortunately not stoping anytime sooner.

As my mind was going through a thousand thoughts I couldn't help but wander, why did this man who was holding me care so much about me? What was I to him? Surly there were many many other girls who were 1000 x better than me. Because I was just an 18 year old university student who had many controversies in her life and honestly wasn't attractive at all.

"Luke..why do you care so much about me?" I said in a small voice.

"I..Well, because you mean a lot to me" Luke said into my ear,

"Why?" I dumbly said.

"If I'm completely honest with you? Since the day we started to be open with eachother that's when you changed my life and made everything seem bearable. Your my perspective to be alive. You keep me going throughout everything and just make me live life better. Your literally a drug I need because without it I get so low. You make me so happy millie. You make me so proud and your the sweetest girl I've ever Met. You deserve so much better than what life throws at you" Luke said without hesitating once, holding me closer to him.

This was honestly one of the sweetest things anybody had said to me and it made me so happy that it was all honest.

"And Millie..I'm so so scared of loosing you. I don't want to ever go through that phase of life. I just don't want to leave you, or you to leave me but I know somehow that's going to happen because that's the stages of life.." Luke said, hearing his voice breaking a bit. It shattered me.

"B-but..why?" I let out.

"Because.."
And the next thing he said made me cry harder than I did before.
"Your my everything".

I held Luke tighter crying and crying, my head spinning from all the tears. Of how hard I was crying. My throat hurted and I just felt so tired and drained. And at some point Luke was crying as well because I felt his tears land on my forehead. I reached up and wiped Luke's tears placing my hands on his shoulders.

"As much as how sweet you look when you cry please don't, it breaks me. You don't deserve to feel like this" Luke said returning the favour of wiping tears.

"Same goes to you..it shatters my heart seeing you like this" I said.

Eventually we both stopped crying. A while of just being sat together calming down passed as I leaned over to Luke's desk placing my hand on the mouse. I clicked the bin icon at the bottom of the email sending it straight to the trash. "I'm not letting anyone hurt you no matter what" I said coming back to the position I was in before.

Luke gave me a sweet, thankful smile as the water from the tears he'd shed before glistened in his eyes from the day light.

I sighed letting myself fall back onto Luke's chest, his arms around me in split seconds. It was a automatic reflex he'd always had for me.

"We're such wrecks" I said.

"We are" Luke said.

His words

Your my everything..

They just replayed in my head, and stayed with me ever since then.