** smut, strong language, triggering scenes such as self harm and abuse **
I wrote this story like 3 years ago when I was a cringey angsty little teenager so yeah. I'll probably rewrite it into something better when I have time. Lmk if I should kee...
WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SEXUAL SCENES. DO NOT READ ON IF YOU WISH NOT TO READ ABOUT SEXUAL ACTIVITY.
m i l l i e
I
wanted
to
fucking die.
But here i was in a car with my husband. and I honestly didn't mind one bit. if i was being honest it was the best place i needed to be right now. But the meeting..the teachers. I just hated every single thing at this moment. I'd been crying floods and floods earlier, and i still wanted to. But i didn't want to bother Luke anymore than i already did. He kept asking me questions about what happened and if i was okay, but i just didn't know how to answer. My mouth just felt like it was glued together.
Suddenly the Car stopped. I heard the sound of a handbrake and an engine being turned of with jolted me out of my daydreams. I looked around, but we were no where near home. we were in the middle of what seemed like nowhere. It was empty little park in which the far end there was a river and a deck with a bridge above it. there was miles and miles of grass. But it was completely deserted. the only people there were me and Luke. The sky was a mix between Blue, pink and orange. It was clearly Dusk. But i was clueless to why Luke had stopped the car here.
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(The deck looked like this, but it was at the far end, smaller)
He opened the door and got out. I followed him, scared of what was happening. He was standing in front of the car looking into distance with his arms crossed. i shakily walked over to him.
"L..Luke, what are you doing?" I asked quietly. He turned to me and just stood staring at me. I was confused and lost. after what felt like forever, he held his arms open. I stepped into them as he wrapped them around me. I embraced the comforting smell of him. Tears started falling down my face, I just hated everything at this moment and I only wanted to be with Luke.
"Luke.. I love you ..i'm sorry" I cried.
"Baby why the fuck are you sorry" Luke said into my ear running his fingers through my hair that had fallen out of the bun i'd put it into at this point. It was literately a visual representation of my life.
"I don't know..i hate everything" I mumbled through tears.
"It's okay, don't worry Mil, i'm here" Luke said.
He held me as i cried. I loved him so much and i didn't even know how to express it. it made me cry harder, i was a complete mess right now.
Quite a long time passed, as Luke held me in the Dusk. I stopped crying and i was now exhausted. I wanted Luke and nothing more.
Luke pulled away, But his arms remained around me. "are you okay?" he said kissing my forehead. I looked up at his face and shrugged my shoulders.
"Wanna talk about what happened at the meeting?" Luke said. He sat on on the hood of the car pulling me into his lap. i decided i would just tell him everything anyways.
