PROJECT GIRL

Thirty-four

MISTER'SPOV:
I was still trying to piece back together my family before I faked my death but it wasn't going so well. I had no luck in finding my daughter and I had my child's mother in rehab not trying to give me the time or the day. I was beginning I think that I should give up. I decided to go see my mans Shawn. He was the only one who knew I was faking my death and now that I'm back I need his help.

"Yo Mister hows life since you got back?" Shawn asked.
I let out a sigh before I replied. " I have tried to find Nana and its going nowhere. As for her mother she is in rehab and she doesn't want nothing to do with me." I explained.
"Bro I told you if you did fake your death that it was gonna make your problem go away but it was gonna hurt and effect people."
"I did it to protect my family not to hurt them."
"That I know but your death and you not being there took a toll on your family."
"So now what?"
"Look I heard Nana dating this dude named Semaj?"
"Semaj?"
"Yeah he some real money making nigga he own a club too. He move that good shit and he living good. I think they are having a baby."
"My daughter is having baby?"
"Yeah this her first and his second."
"How long you knew this shit?"
"For a little bit over a month. These niggas on the block was talking about it."
"Are you sure it's my Nana?"
"Yes bro, look she seems happy you should just let her be happy and leave things how they are you don't know how she will react to her father who's supposed to be dead walking up to her trying to be in her like after all these years."
"So I'm just supposed to do nothing?"
"Yeah that's the best thing."
"I can't I have to find away to be back in her life."
"Look you hurt them with your fake death. Don't bring more pain to them with realizing that it was fake and they struggled for this long thinking you were dead and gone. You missed out on the hardest time in these two peoples lives.  They aren't gonna ever look at you the same. Just leave it to be." Shawn walked away toward the kitchen I stood up and made my way to the door. I was hurt to hear that's what shit oils like for me. I never wanted to leave my family in any of the problems they came across. I just wanted to keep them alive. I wish I could go back just to stay with them.

When I  left Shawn's house I went to my house I had a two bedroom apartment in the Bronx. I had a little money tucked away for me to buy the things I was gonna need. I sat in the couch for a while thinking about everything.

I eventually fell asleep and when I woke up I showered then I dressed in new clothes. I wore a white Polo shirt with some blacked ripped-jeans and some white Air forces low tops.
I the made my way out the door. Every since I been back I've been hustling and stashing my bread. I knew that the streets broke my family but it paid the bills and I knew I had to eat so I reconnected with my old crew and made moves all over the city. My old crew consist of three niggas besides me . Benji , Watts and Kobe.

Benji was always getting to money since he was young boy in the streets. He used to sell weed while we was in middle school. He introduced me to his connect and that's how I got in bro open the door to the game. Watts and I met in jail. I did a bid for five years for a robbery. Watts had my back in there so I made sure to put him on in these streets for holding shit down in there. As for Kobe his real name is Keyshawn but we call him Kobe because back when we was in high school he was a star basketball player throughout all of our four years of high school. While making headlines he was moving heavy weight in the streets I knew I needed to make him apart of my team if I wanted to really make money. When I got to the block the crew was already there.
"Wassup bro?" Benji asked
"We going out to the club you rolling or nah?"
"Yeah I'll meet y'all there."
"Bet."
"Wait who all going?"
"Kobe and his bitch , You and me , Watts and his bitch."
"You know it's about to be lit so I'm down."
"Yeah your ass out here faking your death so you better come out and party we missed you." Kobe said.
"Look I had to do it so chill but yeah I missed y'all niggas too."
"Yeah cut it out with all that soft shit." Watts added.
I did miss my niggas. I missed running around with them after work and during the day. We used to be in the clubs every night partying lie nothing mattered. Years away from them was hell but it was choice that was best for everyone.

Later that day I found myself in VIP with my boys having drinks and ass all in my face. Girls was ready to see me make it rain. This club had bomb music and it was dumb packed. This club was lit. I was enjoying myself but then I had to use the restroom. When I left VIP I walked to the men's room. I saw this lady walk out the office upstairs with this man I guess he was the owner. I took a glance then I had a feeling to Look again and then I recognized her immediately it was my daughter. I new that smile from a mile away. Her smile was heartbreaking just like her mothers.
I stood there first not moving because I was shocked to see my daughter only seventeen but she looked like a grown woman. She looked happy. When her and the gentleman walked down the stairs she looked at me looking at her then she dropped her mouth to see that it was her father. She stopped in her tracks the man on the other hand was lost he was so confused for what had just happened.
"It's really you?" She asked beginning to cry. I almost wanted to cry.
"Who is this babe?" The guy asked.
"Yeah babygirl. It's really Daddy." I said letting out a smile. She didn't say nothing she just fell. I saw that she passed out and I picked her up and tried to tap her face the dude stood over me before taking her out of my arms and rushing her out the club I followed.
"Yo which hospital are you taking her to?" I asked as he got in the car.
"General." He replied then he pulled off quickly.
"I didn't know that my daughter seeing me would make her faint I didn't know if that was a good thing or bad but I knew I missed out on so much in her life so I wasn't about to miss nothing else.

I rushed to the hospital hen I got there I saw the guy standing in the ER waiting. I walked over to him.
"Is everything okay?" I asked.
"I don't know they just took her back there. Who are you?" He asked.
"I'm her dad."
"Do you know what did to her?"
"I know I hurt her."
"You did more than that. You left her and she went through hell for years. She was raped twice. She was almost killed. She was kidnapped. She even lost our baby. She went through so much with her mother and for you to just pop up after you faked your death do you think she is happy to see you. No she's hurt." The guy walked off.
"I never knew none of this stuff. I only did it because it was either I leave or my family would be dead. I'm pretty sure you would of made the same choice. I saved her and her mother."
"I hear you but I pretty sure she isn't gonna want to hear that." Then a male doctor walked over to us.
"Are you Ms. Johnson's family? The doctor asked.
"Yeah how is she?"
"She's woke she is going to have a big headache for the night but I gave her some medication and with a little rest she'll be fine. She is good to go home tonight let me get her discharge papers for you."
"Great what room is she in?" I asked.
"Room 302 sir." The doctor walked away.
We both rushed to her room to see her. I was beginning to think I have made the wrong choice to approach my daughter after leaving how I did.

When we arrived at her door we walked in. She was sitting up in the bed crying, she was hurt and it was all my fault.

"Baby girl are you okay?" The guy asked.
"Semaj I'm fine." She replied.
I stood there thinking why did that name sound familiar? It was because Shawn told me about him. This was the man in the streets also my daughter's boyfriend.
"This what you wanted." Nana asked looking at me revealing her tears from her pretty brown eyes.
"Look Nana I never meant to do any of this to you. It was either that or me standing by you guys and getting you and your mother killed. I did what was best for you I swear."
"What'd best for me?"
"Yeah."
"You don't know how it feels to have someone's who's like a uncle to me fucking get my mother addict to drugs. That nigga beat and raped me and beat and drug my mother."
"You talking about Ronny?"
"Yeah that dirty ass nigga. He tore me and my mother apart. She took his side over mine. She broke me down. I then ran into some dude and he ended doing some wild shit just like Ronny. Dad I was raped twice. I just don't get what was the best for me ?"
I couldn't say much. I was too mad to say anything because the one I trusted to look out for my family broke it apart.
Ronny made it miserable for my family and I wasn't too happy about what I'm  hearing from Nana.
"I'm so sorry that happened to you I left you in the hands of those who I thought I could trust. Now that I'm back I'll do whatever it takes to get you to see that I love you and I never meant to leave you that. It was wrong of me to do that to my family."
"I don't want to do shit but kill you for real this time. I want you to continue no being in my life." Nana broke down and cried. I was even more mad about my choice then ever. Seeing my baby girl cry because of something I did hurts.