Second Chance :: Nathan Chen

Chapter 38

Song: In Too Deep by Why Don't We

Kierra's POV

I toil with the pregnancy test, desperately hoping it's wrong.

But it's not, and I know that.

Either way, I have to accept it, sooner or later.

The thought of being a parent sends chills down my spine.

Sitting down on the bathroom floor I scroll through my camera roll, deleting every single picture of me and Vincent.

We were so important in each other's lives. And now, I will never be able to look him in the eyes.

Sniffling softly I wipe my eyes.

Nathan has the right to know.

He has the right to know everything. And it's his decision whether or not he stays or leaves.

I sigh my hand resting on the doorknob.

Pushing the bathroom door open I walk into the living room where Nathan sits slumped upon the couch, phone in hand.

"Nathan?" I ask slowly unsure of what to say.

"What?" Nathan questions turning to face me. "Oh my gosh, Kierra is everything okay?"

I stand there numbly as Nathan envelops me in a hug.

"Nathan, I'm uh not sure how to say this," I begin my eyes not meeting his. "So I guess you can see for yourself."

I hand him the pregnancy test clutched tightly in my left hand.

Nathan stares at it his face unreadable.

"Kierra, is this yours?" He finally asks.

I nod my head ashamed.

"Oh my gosh, I'm gonna be a father!" Nathan screams joy flooding through his face. "And Adam's going to be a grandfather."

The thought of Adam brings back memories of Vincent.

I have to tell Nathan.

"Oh my gosh Kierra, is it a boy or a girl? Please let it be a girl! She'll be such a sweetheart!" Nathan squeals as I stare at him, chewing my lip.

I make a move to open my mouth, but I stop for a second.

"Is something wrong?" Nathan asks looking at me.

Now is my one chance.

"Nathan, the thing is..."

I freeze for a second, I can't tell him.

"I'm not sure if I'm ready to be a mom," I finish dodging my original sentence.

"You'll be the greatest mom in the world," Nathan says kissing my forehead.

My hands are cold and clammy, fidgeting anxiously.

At that moment I finally decide.

Nathan must never know.

We must all learn to believe that this child, is Nathan's, not Vincent's.

This is something I alone must shoulder.