Mabel on the Ring

Being Unsure

Mabel's pov

I was feeling awful again. I was sweating but I felt cold. My body was really sore and my nose was blocked. I couldn't breath properly and all I wanted to do was sleep. When the face cloth was put on my head to cool me down I called Echo 'Mommy.' I was so tired and I don't know if I even meant to call her that. My Mommy might get angry if I call someone else Mommy. I love Echo a lot but I don't want her to replace my Mommy. All of these thoughts came back to me once I woke up. No one was in the room. I look up at the roof just thinking, wondering if she or Daddy will say anything.
I hear distant footsteps so I turn my head to face the door and I see Daddy enter the room.
"Your awake." He smiled.
I didn't want to say anything.
He crouched down beside me.
"Are you okay sweetie?" He asks
"Still sick I guess." I reply
He feels my forehead and cheeks
"You don't have a fever anymore which is good."
Daddy tucked me back in and he stayed there until I fell asleep.
I woke up later to find that no one was in the room. I was feeling a little hungry so I slowly climbed out of my bed and quietly made my way down the corridor. As I got closer to the mess hall I could hear Daddy and Murphy yelling.
"She needs to know the truth." I hear Murphy shout
I quietly move closer so they couldn't hear me.
"She doesn't need to know what her Mom did." I hear Daddy yell back.
"She keeps asking questions Bellamy. She has to know eventually." Murphy replies.
I stand around the corner so the couldn't see me.
"Yeah eventually but not now. She's a little girl." Daddy replies.
They were talking about me. What did Murphy want me to know?
"She's smart Bellamy. We all know that. She must have got that from her mother because you sure aren't thinking clearly." Murphy speaks
Then I hear lots of thunping and grunting
"Bellamy, Murphy stop." Raven yells out. I peak around the corner and I see Daddy and Murphy fighting. Everyone was trying to pry them away from each other. Why are they fighting? I ran out and screamed at them.
"DADDY STOP FIGHTING."
Everyone stops and stares at me. Daddy and Murphy turned directly toward me.
I out my hands on my hips
"Tell me what?" I ask
Everyone looks at Daddy.
"Daddy?" I question. My voice started trembling.
"I know it has something to do with Mommy."
He came over and kneeled down in front of me.
"Mabel...........things on Earth weren't as great as you think. Your Mommy and I did things, things that we weren't proud of, things that we feel guilty and people dislike us for." He spoke to me gently.
His hands were rested on my arms
"What did you do?" I demand
"I think your a little young to know the real story. One day I will tell you and hopefully then you'll understand."
I just wanted Daddy to tell me what happened down there and I was getting frustrated with him.
"I'm five years old Daddy. Everyone says I'm really smart so if I'm smart then I should know what happened right?" I ask
"Listen to me. You are my child. My flesh and blood. I watched you come into this world. My life changed completely the day you were born. I know your smart and wise beyond your years but you are a child so you shouldn't want myself to ruin your perception of your mother or me or even Auntie Octavia. I love you so much." I see tears in Daddy's eyes.
I hug him tight and I feel his arms wrap around me.
Even though he didn't tell me I wasn't going to let it stop me.
Daddy and Mommy made bad decisions down there and people didn't like them for it. What did they do?
We all sat down for dinner but everyone was quiet. The fight that Daddy and Murphy had caused tension and I could see that. I was angry at Daddy because he didn't tell me the truth. I finished my dinner and went back to me room and began drawing quietly.
"Mabel." Someone knocks on my door
I turn around and see Raven standing there
"You can come in." I replied
She comes over and sits on the floor with me.
"What are you drawing?" She asks me
"Hope." I reply
"What do you mean?" She questions
"I mean 'hope'. Earth as I imagine it to be. Flowers, trees, birds singing, water flowing and my Mommy and everyone else happy." I explain to her.
"Why won't anyone tell me what really happened?" I change the subject.
"Your Dad just wants to protect you sweetie." She assured me
"I know that but he doesn't really tell me much about Mommy. I want to know more about her, what she was like?" I explain
"Well I can say your Mom always put everyone else's needs before hers. That's why she was selfless. That's definitely where you get your selflessness from." Raven smiled at me.
I gently smile back and continue to draw.
I still wanted to find out and no one was going to stop me.