Let's Dance #2

Alone

"Don't be mad now, okay...but I think I have to do this alone." Alec answered with a slight frown on his forehead and Magnus smiled softly at him. "I'm not mad...I understand it but know that I'm in your room and if you need me I'll be there in a heartbeat." Magnus knew Alec needed to have this conversation with his dad alone but he still wanted Alec to know that he was there if he needed him and Alec really appriciated that. "Thank you." Alec tried to smile but he was so nervous and he just wanted to get over with it. Magnus placed a soft kiss on Alecs lips that should encourage him before Magnus went up to Alecs room. Alec knew that by this time his dad was usually in his office and it would be the perfect moment to talk. The house was all empty and the only people in there were his dad, Magnus and him. "You got this." Alec whispered to himself before he took a deep breath and knocked lightly on Roberts office door. "Come in!" Robert yelled only after a second and Alec hesitated a bit to open it but he needed to have this conversation. He loved his dad and even the lies hurt he didn't want to leave it open like that. "Yo...Alec, it's you! I thought it was Jace." Robert was totally surprised to see his eldest son in his office and Alec bit his lip nervously. "I...we should talk." Alec answered with a little shaking voice and Robert would have loved to hug his son but he didn't. "Yes...we really should. Take a seat...or you know what...let's move to the livingroom." Robert suggested not wanting this to seem like a meeting and more like a talk between son and father. "Okay." Alec only answered before he went to their livingroom sitting down on the couch. Robert came shortly after him and sat down in his usual armchair letting out a light sigh. "Alec, I am so sorry that you had to find out about it like that. I never wanted to lie to you but back then it seemed like the best solution." Robert was the first one to speak up and Alec could hear the sorrow in his fathers voice while guilt crossed his face. "You...why did you even lie to me? Didn't I deserve you to be honest with me?" Alec asked a little surprised about his confident and Robert sucked in a sharp breath. "You were so broken and I was scared...I was scared to lose my child. I remember it like it was yesterday...you looked at me with this pain in your eyes...you begged me no one would ever find out. I promised you..." Robert would probably never get the pictures out of his head of how much pain his son held in his eyes this day and he would have done everything to help. "Williams mom came to us weeks after this happened...you were just a body that ate to surive and you never left your room at the new house. She wanted to pay me so we would stay quiet but you have to believe me I never accepted this money...I never would. I told her to leave and never come back... it was your decision and I would have never take it from you. I love you, Alec and there will never be a  day I won't regrett that I couldn't protect you." Robert hoped his son would believe him because this was nothing than the total truth and even thinking about that brought tears in his eyes. Alec felt the tears burning in his eyes when he thought about the first days after the rape. It was like William took his will to live and he was just living because his family wanted him to. "I never told you because you never wanted anyone to know about what he did to you...I was so scared that if I tell you this I would lose you. It was like you were slipping through my hands and no matter how hard I tried to hold onto you I knew if you found out about it I wouldn't be able to save you." Robert added slowly getting up from his place and sat down next to his son who let the tears fall down. Alec was so angry at his dad for lying at him like that the whole time but now he understood him. Robert was a great father and yes he made mistakes but who didn't? "Thank you, Dad." Alec answered after it was silent for a quiet long time and wrapped his arms around his father...//tbc