Let's Dance #2

The Dream Stays A Dream

The morning came. This was the morning Alec feard like no other morning and he was already feeling like throwing up. You know that feeling when you know the tv show you love the most will end or when you see your most favorite band disbanding? If you do great. Imagine how it feels when this sadness creeps up your leg and is like a hand around your throat that gets tighter and tighter. You can't move your body and you feel like your freezing but at the same time you are sweating and shaking. Alec didn't even want to open his eyes because if he opened his eyes he would have to let the new day start and he didn't want that. He already know that this day would only bring him pain and heartache. Last night was just weird and he felt so terrible knowing that he will put Magnus through pain but it was for the best. He had to put him through this pain so he could feel greater joy and happiness than he could feel as long as he had him in his life. It hurt to imagine Magnus being happy with someone else but Alec would take that pain if he had the stratification that Magnus was happy. They went to bed and Alec fell asleep around 3am because he couldn't shut his mind of only to get up at 8am again. Alec wished he would have slept longer so he wouldn't have to face reality even his dreams weren't as happy as they used to be since he was with Magnus. "Penny for your thoughts?" Magnus sleepy voice pulled Alec out of his mind and even startled him a little because he didn't feel Magnus waking up. "Sorry...I didn't mean to scare you." Magnus felt odd this morning and he felt concerned that Alec was startled only by his voice. "No...it was...I just didn't know you were awake." Alec answered and turned around to face Magnus who looked so beautiful just like that. Alec smiled a little and tried to save this memory because in a few minutes this would only be a moment that passed. Their relationship would just be a moment of the past that passed. The life they wanted together already would only be a plan that would never happen. How do you do that? How would you break up with the love of your life? You knew it would be better for them but how can you find a rational reason to break up if there was non? "You are hungry?" Magnus was really worried because Alec didn't eat much yesterday at dinner and he was also acting really weird. He smiled at him through the dinner every once in a while but it wasn't his happy love smile it was more a sad and heartbroken smile. Alec also reacted weird to Magnus touches and when they went to bed yesterday Alec didn't cuddle him. He laid on his side of the bed with his back facing Magnus and a good one meter distance was between them. Magnus really wanted to wrapp his arms around Alec and keep him save from everything that was bothering him but he thought that maybe Alec needed space. "Alexander?" Magnus called out his name after he didn't get an answer for more than two minutes and he saw Alec was lost in his mind. "Oh...um...yeah. I'll just take a short shower, okay?" Alec answered shaking his head a little and tried to get a grip on himself. "Sure. I'll be downstairs and prepare everything." Magnus said with a little smile and got out of bed after he placed a soft kiss on Alecs lips. This tickling feeling on Alecs lips was beautiful yet so sad because that was probably the last time he would feel these perfect lips on his. Alec felt tears whelping up in his eyes when he looked around the bedroom and it was hard to not break down in tears. So many beautiful things happened in this house and he would never forget their first heated makeout session in the kitchen. The only comfort Alec had was that these memories would always exist and no one could take them away from him. Alec sat up in the bedroom and smiled sadly when he thought about the first night he stayed over. This was supposed to be his and Magnus bedroom...this house was supposed to be THEIR home now Alec would see it for one last time. The dream of living together was suddenly just a dream that they would never make come true and the hope of being completely happy just one little flame that burned out. Magnus was downstairs preparing their breakfast neither of them would eat and making coffee that would never be drank by any of them. They reached for the sun and got terrible burned as they could finally touch it with the tip of their fingers and the pain would be so much that it was easier to fall back on the ground. But sometimes two people need to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back to each other but only maybe and only if the love was still enough in the end. After a heartache your heart can change in a way you never expected it to and your feelings can die just as fast as they came to life... //tbc oh so much angst so much pain you're ready for the worst?💔💔💔💔😨😨😨💜💜