My Biggest Fear

Chapter 6

Never let your past determine who you will become.

Maria's P.O.V

I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing.

I picked it up and looked at the screen, I had over three hundred messages.

*Jaden,
4:39 pm: Hey sis wassup? I'm sorry about today, I hope you're okay though and don't do anything stupid.

4:40 pm: Text me ASAP!!

*Crystal,
5:00 pm : Maria!! Girl just text mi back nuh!

5:02 pm : Maria Jayanna Collins!!

5:10 pm : Sorry bout today baby girl, but a swear mi neva apart of it😑

5:11 pm : Welllllll....yes mi know bout it but the boy nice Mari, just give him a chance nuh sis!! Please!!

+310 more message from my friends.

I was about to get some water to drink from the kitchen when the doorbell rang.

I opened it and I had mixed emotions. I was shocked, confused and angry at the same time.

"Erick, what are you doing here?" I asked him but it sounded more like a shout.

"Hey Maria, wow I'm so sorry I didn't know you live here, I just moved in next door with my aunt and I just wanted to meet my new neighbors. I'm really sorry about today, I didn't mean to make you so mad at me but I just want to be your friend Maria if that's okay with you...?". He trailed off and I knew he meant every word.

"Listen, I just met you okay so it's very hard for me to like you much less even trust you. With Jaden and Jabarie, it's different because I grew up with them. I've known them my whole life, they're the only boys I trust along with my brother. It's not that I hate you but you gotta give me time. I don't have a problem with you being in our group but it's just that I need to get used to it so sorry if I've been so mean to you".

"Yeah I understand, I would say the same thing if I was in your position because it can be very hard to trust people these days. But probably sometime soon we'll be friends". He smiled and showed his perfect white teeth. "We are neighbors now so I guess we can at least get to know each other?". He asked me.

"Yeah I'll let you know". I told him as we said our goodbyes and he left.

I know I was a bit mean to him but that's not the only reason I don't like him. There's something else but I choose to forget it.

Erick reminds me of him much. The way how he pretended to like me when he knew his intentions weren't good and he did hurt me.

I just want to get rid of my memory. It would be much better if I couldn't remember all the painful things I went through. I just want my life back, the life I had before my parents died.

I was lying on the couch watching '13 Reasons Why' when the door opened.

Akeem was home now and I could get to talk to him.

"Hey, what you doing up so late?". He asked me while he sat beside me.

He looked in my eyes and at that moment I cried. He didn't hesitate, he just hugged me.

"Keem I'm so sorry about the other day, I wasn't in my right mind and I shouted at you. I was so upset and all the memories hit me and I took out my anger on you and I wasn't supposed to. It's just that I miss them so much and I've been through so much since they died that I don't know how to control myself. I know it wasn't our fault but I feel responsible for their death bro, I'm so sorry". I cried in my brother arms.

"Sshhh sis, I'm here now and I won't let anything happen to you. I'm sorry too I know I treat you like a baby but I know you're an adult now. I just don't want to lose you sis, you're the only family I have left, you mean the world to me Maria and I just can't stand seeing you in pain. You don't talk about what you feel, you keep everything inside,I'm hurting and you're hurting sis but you just stay away from the world for a couple days and then boom you're back and you act like nothing has happened and it's not good for you sis".

"Yeah I know Akeem, but you taught me to get up and go on".

"Maria I thought you to get up and go on after you handle your business".

"I know, I'll start talking to you I promise".

He kissed my forehead and I  fell asleep in his arms.

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Let me know what you think about this chapter!❤💯

*Chapter 6 Questions*

Do you think Maria overreacted at school?

Do you think that Erick is actually a good guy?

Is Maria handling her pain in the right way?

Who do you believe Erick reminds Maria of?

Do the siblings have a good relationship?

XX~Keisha❤